Nursing babies

I've had to think this morning, do I forget this one or log it for future reference ? Then I realised I would be kicking myself if it came true and hadn't logged that I had had prior warning so I'd better. After all it is a journal.

Prior to this my focus is currently on practicing seeing auras. Its true what they say , practice, practice and practice. Doesn't matter how many books you read or how much knowlege you have without the practice you dont aquire the skill.


DREAM.


So this morning I wake up from a dream thinking 'Their Coming'.
It was one of those OMG wake ups but not fear just a little excitement and apprehension.
I recall being with someone and I am being told there is nothing to be frightened of and as I look in the sky I see this massive space ship moving so so slowly. It is as wide and deep as it is long. But it turns and slowly comes in my direction and lowers. I feel the realisation that the time has come and Im going to meet them.
NextI'm standing on a train station platform like those inside an airport and a train pulls up and I can see outlines of people inside and Im told that the only difference is their face.
I wake up just before the doors open.

So just a dream but could it have meaning in it? I sent out a strong Need To Know request a few weeks ago.
Back to sleep and upon wakening picked up

' Enlightenment is Service'.

Well I've never seen a definition saying this but service to others is a great way to get helped from the other side. Often when Ive experienced something memorable it has been after Ive put effort in with my elderly people during my daily work so I suppose this could be my own definition.

My friendly Robin has left.
For at least 2 years now ive shared my garden with many birds but one in particular was the Robin that followed me around the garden. Never shy . A week ago it was so close that I stopped what I was doing and stared it out. Waiting to see who would move first. I lost it was taking too long. Every morning I could guarantee I would see it. The longest it would take would be 30 seconds of waiting and there it would be.

A week ago to my surprise I peered into a bird box that had been hung in a tree a year ago and had stayed empty, and there it was. The most beautiful sight of two big eyes and the Robins head just looking at me.
It was nesting in the box. A few days later I went back . I was worried i had frightened it away but it was in again just looking at me peering up at it.

So this morning Im sitting with wake up coffee in conservatory looking for Robin. No sign. Unusual.
Then I see a big Magpie hop along the grass, goes under the tree and theres' the robin's box lying on the ground. Top broken off . It takes something out of box by its mouth and flys away.
Ive just been outside and two dead chicks on the ground.
I have to just leave them. What can you do with two dead chicks?

This is Nature. I suppose the magpie has to look for food just as the rat has to look for food.
A rook has just entered the tree high up where pigeons lay eggs every year. Just recently They've been going in with branches.
Danger ahead.

Ive just watched a blue tit tear at my moss from the hanging basket( doesnt matter its from last year)and fly over to another waiting for it and they have flown off together.
I wish them luck because whether animal or man there are dangers out there.

Currently on holiday. Too many people here to keep clean good thoughts. All shapes and sizes, some with bad language. Ive tried to not form opinions but it's hard work. People are a distraction but necessary.I can not learn to turn negative to positive without the examples to work on.


Dream last night was to do with my wishes for retirement next year but what I want to note is that I was lead into a large empty room like a warehouse by someone. A man and woman were talking and the woman started to tell me about their plans and I was aware of the husbands wishes which were the woman's also but she spoke of her concerns also.
I was understanding it all and encouraging them to just do it. I was getting excited and saying yes just do it.
So my point to note here is that

1) this all took place in a large empty warehouse like room which over a few years I've been in before.

2) This was my dream and the characters represented me and my husband but I was a separate being listening and giving advice. So I was not only observing my own dream but I was advising the person who represented me.
I've played the observer role in the dream For a while now, but I cannt remember being the observer taking part and giving advice before.
Interesting to note.

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All practice not preceded by prayer and without prayerful closure...leads one wide-open toward invasive energies. All senses are doorways/windows wherein the terms entry/exit if not guarded...might as well be wide open gates left un-Agape.

Isolation is oft our Re-Covery, however...Isolationism is our enemy, fore/for from hence we per-adventuring out are inside out...errrrr...outside in...if not our prayerful walk Us'd~>One Spirit EnSouled Body - Agape.

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Yay...though I walk thru the valley of the shadow of death...I will fear no evil. ...my Cup runneth over....

One has to under-stand to wherefrom filled that Cup IS to the uttermost dregs. Humility Walking Thru~> http://youtu.be/JigFDCd8b9k John 15:13

The strength we yearn for is the strength already present with us awaiting our step/s with-in/up-on....

...not to faint away for-reign of fear, but rather...too listen to the re-verb of our own inward suffering within the feel of others 'round about...Us...

Peace In nn Peace Out nn Peace In nn......

The Day IS
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At Hand...

If DA VINCI was a Girl http://youtu.be/2_C1jhZHTgU

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Generally written....

We attract What we are (et)and All Be crying out Athirst fore/for the waters of life.

Pride goeth before a fall...

One cannot decry, Come down O'Lord; when it is they themself that needs be in the coming down. The falling fallen fallout ... HuMan, fore/for ...The Lord Is One... fore/for ever (et)and anon...walks among the lilies.

You walk amongst...??????

The only "thing" in our human world that is "ex-pert" is egos claiming "holier than thou" -or- "better than they are" -or- "all are as unevolved monkeys", and of these "things" dis-claiming to their very own inclusive humaness such that our humanity does not dwell within rightful peace...the Lord knoweth not these self-chosen "things", fore/for they alone have of themselves chosen having no place amongst the peoples. They without humility that want the drink but naught the dregs.

One Giant Eye?

Flying in blackness with someone to my right.I can see someone else further in front of me then suddenly I'm where this person was. Then in the distance ONE GIANT EYE BALL comes curving its way towards me trailing a long floating cord behind it which seems to extend far out of sight and stops in front of me.
There was no eyelid or skin under the eye. Just an eyeball.
I can see the pupil of the eye and it's like a chequered pattern like mesh. I feel it's scanning me and now I can sense everything it's picking up about how I'm feeling about myself. I'm understanding from this eye what it has picked up and knows .
That I do'nt like myself just now. That I feel I'm failing in my thoughts.````trying so hard not to judge these people but its hard.
I knew this eye wasn't judging me just scanning me and making available it's information about me- to me.

Thoughts.
The fact that this was in deep black space environment makes me feel this is similar to the spaceman and the planet earth and the blocks of ice .There were no stars as seen before so I suppose I should stop calling it space but just a black environment. During the planet earth one I came to the conclusion that this was to direct me . Replying to my request.
Was this a similar set up?
Although I could understand what it was emitting it was all about me.All my feelings and thoughts available to know.Knowing everything.Nothing hidden.
This doesnt fit the eye of Horus or other eye symbols to their exact descriptions but I wonder if this
could have anything to do with the mental plane?

Tim, thanks for your input and I'm going to get back to reply as Ive more thoughts to add .
Just back from holiday. Will add tomorrow.

Time now to log why I failed in controlling my thoughts.

Tim,

Yes I did leave myself totally open to all types of energies and still I cannt get back to a peaceful accepting way of thinking.Also I tried not to have a 'Holier than Thou' attitude inwardly but it was hard.

Reasons.
Holiday to Dominican Republic... All inclusive...

I have NEVER been so ASHAMED of my fellow British holiday makers.

1)
Language was disgusting, for all to hear including children in earshot.
One pool with the swim up bar filled with younger crowd ( not only British) The F word was used for everyone to hear just as an ordinary adjective. E.g.) ...it was F....g great. F this F that but what I noticed was that not at any time was it used in anger. Just as a sentence filler.
This was confirmed on last day talking to a lovely Canadian couple who delighted in using this popular word. If I could just close my ears to the word we had a lovely conversation. I realised that I haven't conformed to the new vocabulary used nowadays and still belong to the old fashioned way of thinking that you only use this word in anger and to insult.


Wikopedia.
Fu..- Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org › wiki › Fu..
Fu..is an obscene English-language word, which refers to the act of sexual intercourse and is also commonly used as an intensifier or to denote disdain. Its origin is obscure but is usually considered to be first attested to ...

Seems Wikopedia also needs to modernise its way of thinking. Maybe the Queen may use it next christmas in her xmas speech.

2) Watching people drink far too much and behave badly
.... a woman soils herself midnight in ladies toilets with drink and reception have to ring her room to ask husband to bring some clothes downstairs.( she gave wrong room number which is why I know)
....A couple so drunk happily become friends with larger family. Eventually, they fall out because of something said.
...This same couple fall out and stop speaking for 2 days. However it was lovely to see them sober eventually when you could see that they had both hurt each other very much with their words and they eventually got closer. This was nice.

.... A father shouts at one of his sons infront of everyone...." Shut up..No..I dont want to hear it again, just Shut up".
This young boy was so embarrassed as everyone around could hear.

...... An adult mother shouts " You Bastard" to her father only because she asked if he had been for lunch and he answered YES.

..... A woman causes disruption on the flight. Either brain damage or drink. Husband embarrassed but probably used to this as apparantly she had been like this on the outward flight also. This time she was behind me and threw a pepper pot at my husband and a booklet at me. I just turned round and gave her her booklet back and suggested she was a little quieter by giving her a shush signal with my forefinger to the lips.
So Tim, on this holiday I saw this as a challenge but I would have rather not been put in this position because I will never want to accept this behaviour.

Oh Oh. Oh.
I just love it. Its happened again.
Just after finishing the post on this i pad I had written that I was pleased at how I handled the last one but then decided to delete this bit because it was self praise.
Then the ipad started up with Elvis singing " How Great Thou Art". Love it. Gave up on co-incidences a few posts back.

Just to add as reminder that no music was playing at the time.switched itself on .

Take this moment to prayerfully relieve yourself of this "my thoughts", understanding that your interior reactivity is as a maintained in-coming attack from outside your true nature. Not by an enemy per se, but echoes (ministers) begging for your self-responsive mercy upon your-self. Mercy begins at home and home is where your true heart is...with You. Sounds as if you held your peace while oot and aboot, is fair enough...don't you reckon! Detach from "my thoughts" letting the echoing moths dissapate from your watchful street lamp...now in the light of your new day. Rest in having seen your weakness as it were, knowing that grace held you holding your peace even as your peace had become most unrecognizable for a time. Peace like a tightly wound rubberband...relax, you didn't snap.

Rubberband Toy http://youtu.be/9xhEXDrMMLg

Sometimes we gotta be pulled backwards to move forward. A minor fall...A major lift

Celebrate the capacity of your inward peace to have held itself tight and NOW...FREE-INGLY MOVE ON!!

True ain't true unless it's Tried.

Good words and good advice but first before I turn the corner I need to log this.
That there has been a lot of non human death around me adding to the past holiday.

First.....day before holiday.... the Robin''s chicks...killed by the magpie I think.

Secondly.....One of my loved orchid plants Ive had for 8 years had to be binned. By focusing on the petals attentively as an exercise I noticed it had white bugs on the back. Looked it up and hard to get rid of...could spread to others. Was in full flower.

Third......Killed a rabbit on the motorway on the way to the airport. Was awfull not being able to stop and hearing this heavy thud as it hit.

Fourth.......Back from holiday and two more long serving orchids with bug had to be thrown away.

Fifth....my small cuttings of lavender and carnations are dead. My neighbour looked after my greenhouse but he failed to look after the most fragile delicate cuttings. I've mentioned before I get more pleasure from the smallest of new leaf growth than any well established plant.

Sixth......Fig plant lost third of leaves.... not enough water.

Finally
Seventh.....house fern scorched leave 3/4 removed.

But this last one is the tops.
Speaking to a lady vicar today and she tells me of her husband ( also a vicar) KILLING a Magpie because its a NUISANCE.
WHAT VALUE IS PUT ON LIFE? Do we kill creatures because they are inconvenient to have around? Even if they do kill themselves for food do we have right to take that life.
A VICAR!!!!didnt have the cheek to preach to a vicar.

Okay thats my rant done.
Everything must get back to normal. Got it all of my chest.
Finished with, gone,

Clairaudience this morning.
Interrupted whilst trying to recall a dream with difficulty when suddenly

" There is very good evidence to Silence the mind".
I then visualise picking up a disinfectant bottle and looking at the label (instruction label?) then hear.
"... because frequencies have changed".

A week ago,
Clairaudience,
" Theology is here"
I know why this was picked up. Had visited a Catholic Church on holiday and just loved the feeling of peace and tranquility and safety whilst walking around.I was drawn immediatly to a large painting taking up the height of the wall of Jesus surrounded by a glowing aura and 3 cherubs above him addressing shepherds with their lamb.Beautiful and I found myself loving all the paintings. Have this now as my wallpaper on I pad and phone.
I would be dizzy if I tried to keep up with topics. I think this was just an acknowledgement of my interest.

A walk in the garden was all I needed to switch off from everything else.
The frustration from the holiday, exhaustion from overwork then the problems here just had me on a downer.
So tonight after all that heavy rain I went outside, fed the birds,( I can hear them now) watered the plants in greenhouse, took notice of everything planted and took some deep breaths of the cold, damp earthy air and it was beautiful. absolutely beautiful. So still and quiet except the birds.
I cannt help but feel this earth would be beautiful without man

Sounds absolutely refreshing. :)

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Originally Posted by susan

A walk in the garden was all I needed to switch off from everything else.
The frustration from the holiday, exhaustion from overwork then the problems here just had me on a downer.
So tonight after all that heavy rain I went outside, fed the birds,( I can hear them now) watered the plants in greenhouse, took notice of everything planted and took some deep breaths of the cold, damp earthy air and it was beautiful. absolutely beautiful. So still and quiet except the birds.
I cannt help but feel this earth would be beautiful without man

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I am sending you Susan love and caring too, I am so sorry you did feel bad I felt it very clearly...you are such a Lovely and Beautiful soul...do not let these thigs get you...you are bigger than that. Blessings and love.

Love
ia

Woke up twice through the night both times realy happy.
The first time I was laughing and could feel my throat as if I was still laughing. Dream recall was connected to a question I had asked.

(There has been a couple of dreams I haven't recorded this week that have both had the same character giving me advice and talking to me. He has a male presence and was advising in a riddle type of way. I,m realy liking this person and feeling lovely energy from him and holding a deep respect for him. Nothing sexual at all. Just a high respect and liking very much with a very very gentle manner.)

2nd dream.
Last night this person had been showing me some exercises which seems to suggest Binaurals, gentle bouncing ( NEWS) then rushes off ( very common theme) saying,' Meet me at the Houses Of Parliament on Sunday, 11am.' In the dream Im realy excited and happy thinking it was great, Ive got the job, but I,ll travel overnight so I,m not late.
Next I wake up feeling the happiness.

Thoughts.
Ive learnt that time and day probably mean nothing. Only twice it has been spot on when given these but since then Ive been dissapointed.
So House of Parliament-- I suppose to me represents the main point where laws are made and discussed. Those that make them meet there.
I had been wanting to meet who was helping me but more importantly to meet the extra terrestrials from a while back.
The fact that a meeting with this person was suggested but I was to make the journey there could be suggesting I have to learn to get there myself. I dont know I'll leave it open but going to increase energy raising with Bank Holiday coming up. Must get back on track!!!
I've learnt to always take note of dream characters that are there just at the point of wakening and say something relevant and appear to rush off immediatly after.Sometimes they will shift change to get my attention, to take notice.

This was written 7 years ago on this site by Aunt Claire and I posted it in journal 2 years ago to motivate me as I was wondering if all this was worth the effort.

I'm bringing it forward again for motivation because its too good a piece to get lost.


AUNT CLAIR.
She writes,
Once a human enters a metaphysical path to have a " whatever happens, happens, come ci come ca" does not make sense. It is like giving up or " sour grapes".
It is the purpose of life and why would one that is aware ignore this?
To grow physically requires no thought or effort but to grow magically, metaphysically and spiritually requires much effort.
It will not occur without discipline and dedication.
........do not accept complacency and give up.....
.....none of us are nothing. None of us are without a legacy of spirituality. If you reach into your soul and connect with your Monad, you will find that you had unlimited potential.
The spiritual evolution that has been affected by Kundalini has caused humanity to slowly raise its consciousness to fly universally, to hear and see the eternal teaching spirits.to think globally and to feel with greater compassion.
One can contemplate, but without Clairvoyance, Clairaudience and Projection, the magician can not access the divine curriculum and attain Union
Aunt Claire writes some seriously good stuff and this has been just what I needed to read.

Best piece of motivational writing I've read .

I think I've found the answer to my Church Windows Experience floating in space.In fact I've found some good advice here that can help me understand a few experiences I've posted that left me wondering.


The Church Windows,
The very formal sounding announcements. The timing of them.
Men in `black.
Having a tube of some kind placed up the nose.
Why I seemed to be encouraged to read the Bible.



Taken from. http://astral-institute.com/mysticis...he-paranormal/

..... As you travel mystically towards the Galactic Heavens you will find that you must go through a corridor which has stained glass windows of Christ and all of His apostles floating in the ethereal winds on each side. Why would this be? Because other worlds know Christ as Messiah just as we do. He has incarnated into many worlds for the same function.


My Experience.
Page 56. 30/08/16. http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/sho...-babies/page56

Now I'm travelling forwards very fast still with loud noise. Everything black. Ahead in the distance I could see something. A few things then quickly they are in font of me.
These were like many different shaped Windows with coloured glass with different figures engraved in each. These were just like Windows you would find in old churches. They were rotating round and round.
Couldn't get long enough to stare at any one in particular to see who was depicted when suddenly they re to the right if me then behind.Gone.
Now sense of moving forwards in black again but it clears and gets brighter..........

.........coloured church Windows engraved with people, ? Religious figures.? Rotating suggesting energy movement.( I wonder if anyone else has come across these?)


30/05/17 mystery solved!

This morning I wake up from a humorous dream about someone being fast asleep.I was replaying this over in the mind and saw the funny side to it when just in that liminal stage I saw a card with a picture of Jesus on it. Then it turns over and I see 1 finger and as that turns to face me it has black on the fingerprint area.

Thoughts.
Well recently I haven't been too well, fatigue and virus but still needing to work so too tired for anything other than monitoring my thoughts through the day with people.
Everything has been quiet and once again I feel dissapointed to be so dis-connected.( or so I was thinking) But last night had me try to plan aid for a big financial commitment for a member of family.
I was also writing up for other journal about looking deeper within ourselves and discovering who we truly are and what I feel I've been guided towards needing to do for this.
Maybe this was the combination of the two. Wanting to help and wanting to know.
I suppose a finger print proves identity, .....we are told that we are all one,...shared universal consciousness......I may change this as time goes on BUT the fact that this was a card??? You play cards. You play ! Am I reading too much into this now and maybe should just stop, but, Am I just playing at trying to do all of this ? Is this all just a game? I feel I've spoilt this post now but I'm going to keep it as it is because those are my thoughts at the moment.


Taken from dreammoods website.

Christ
To see Christ in your dream represents perfection of the self and spiritual truth. You need to achieve self-fulfillment through love. This symbol has many personal associations for you, depending on your belief.

Fingerprints
To dream that you are being fingerprinted,..........Alternatively, the dream represents your identity and individualism.

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Originally Posted by susan

This morning I wake up from a humorous dream about someone being fast asleep.I was replaying this over in the mind and saw the funny side to it when just in that liminal stage I saw a card with a picture of Jesus on it. Then it turns over and I see 1 finger and as that turns to face me it has black on the fingerprint area.

Thoughts.
Well recently I haven't been too well, fatigue and virus but still needing to work so too tired for anything other than monitoring my thoughts through the day with people.
Everything has been quiet and once again I feel dissapointed to be so dis-connected.( or so I was thinking) But last night had me try to plan aid for a big financial commitment for a member of family.
I was also writing up for other journal about looking deeper within ourselves and discovering who we truly are and what I feel I've been guided towards needing to do for this.
Maybe this was the combination of the two. Wanting to help and wanting to know.
I suppose a finger print proves identity, .....we are told that we are all one,...shared universal consciousness......I may change this as time goes on BUT the fact that this was a card??? You play cards. You play ! Am I reading too much into this now and maybe should just stop, but, Am I just playing at trying to do all of this ? Is this all just a game? I feel I've spoilt this post now but I'm going to keep it as it is because those are my thoughts at the moment.

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Hi Susan,
Our sociaty is a game and we have to play along to be a part of it....I think that it is crusial to see it clearly ..as you have started to do.

Love
ia

This morning saw a lovely image again in liminal stage. It stayed for a few seconds then just faded.
No connection to dream.

A black and white landscape picture of the sea and sky looking from the beach with someone in the water but only the head showing floating on the surface of the water. It was wearing once again a tall headpiece reminding me of the ancient egyptians headgear and just one thin snake coming from the top of the headrest hanging down.

Once again one of those images that is so thought provoking and would make a lovely picture if only I could draw. This falls into the collection I started a while back.
Will bring forward so it doesnt get lost and add to it.


INFORMATIVE IMAGERY.

1) Jesus with the wings and white line vertical above head...

2) A circle made of a woman (doing the crab)connecting to the man making up the circle.....

3)Black and white image of Sea and sky with head of man and woman in the centre both looking in opposite directions with the backs of their heads touching.

4) coloured image of side profile of a female head wearing Egyptian style tall headgear with fine energy coloured circles circling the whole of the head.

5) Black and white image of sea and sky with a head above water wearing Egyptian headgear with a snake coming out of the top and hanging down.

This morning a short 3-4 second dream scene recalled where I'm watching a glider flying high in the sky with 5-6 women all dressed the same standing on top of the plane. Suddenly they all jump off and at first I,m frightened they will be killed but all of them land safely one by one landing at the entrance to a cave and all disappear inside.
I've got the feeling that whatever I'm up to in my sleep I'm not to try for a conscious projection. I've had scenes suddenly pop up just when I think of raising energy for a projection. One was suddenly seeing a security guard patrolling outside with me peeking from in a warehouse.
I've had three different all suggesting the same.I dont know if maybe there is some fear involved.

Edit.
Taking a leap of faith into the unknown ......comes to mind now.

Dream this morning.
I'm holding a young boy's hand and I think I've just adopted him. We are walking towards a counter with a lot of people sitting around watching me . They seem to know this boy is in my care. I say to him " I suppose you are too old for me to hold your hand", and assure him I won't embarras him. As I look at him I seem to be noticing for the first time he has very bad eyesight.One eye seems closed and shrivelled up.
He runs off excited towards a big man over by the window who has his back to us, and asks his daddy if he is coming too. A woman tells me that he was going to meet his father tomorrow BUT!...
It was on this BUT that I suddenly woke up with a start, a jolt.

This could once again just be wishful thinking on my part as I had been thinking recently of dad and wondered how he was progressing. Also had been thinking of the energy exchange a couple of years back from the pink elephant written in journal.
If I was to take anything from this its the way I was focusing on his bad eye. He could only see with one eye.
Kurt Leland confirms within his experiences of anomalies thrown into dreams for us to notice and ponder over. This has been so true.
This is two nights in a row a suggestion within a sort dream upon wakening concerning seeing with one eye. May increase my brow centre exercises.

Yoga is back!
Yoga mat down for a while now but no activity on it.
Yesterday things had gone wrong. Problems finding travel insurance for holiday gone wrong and hair colour gone wrong so feeling I had wasted hours and got no where. What could I do to feel I've moved forwards instead of backwards today, so mat brought downstairs into kitchen.

BKS IYENGAR, Yoga Wisdom And Practice book brought out.

4 poses attempted with difficulty . Janu Sirsasana .Head to knee pose.
Gave up after one 20 second of each pose.. enough.
Thing is , after I rolled the mat up I felt Great . I had started and every muscle in my back and legs had been stretched and woken up, I could feel them.
Very very rusty but must continue. I'd forgotten how great yoga can make you feel .

3.08 am,
Woke up suddenly to hear, THE FLEECE OF HEAVEN.
Back to sleep, liminal stage picked up . BIOLOGY DEPARTMENT. VISUAL EXPANSION.
Recorded on I phone which was near so I didnt have to try to remember then back to sleep but I had a feeling this first one was an acknowledgement of my question I sent out before sleep.

Once again feeling so dis- connected. Stupid I know , been there so many times and I'm happy enough in physical life but I still feel this big dissapointment in the mornings when I wake up with nothing.
Last night I put my thoughts together clearly and tried to work out just why I feel like this. Even thinking that it just wasnt fair to be so audibly active for periods then nothing. This was like being ABANDONED AND IGNORED. Stupid, stupid I know but I think to be honest I was testing the waters here to see if I could instigate a response. ( Ive come to the conclusion a while back that I receive when I need it not when I want it). Even if most of the time this is my consciousness it has a vocabulary and knowlege that is superior to me Susan, and communicates with me as if I am a seperate person but hints that we are the same.
So with these thoughts being sorted out and made clear I finished with the question, " Just what is it I'msearching for? Experiences? What then?


So... " The Fleece of Heaven"
My first analysis to this was the fleece my husband wears is so warm and cozy was this about me wanting to experience again the most wonderful dream where the sky was filled with white bird feathers and where there was a hole in the sky more feathers came and filled the gap and I just knew this was a secure safe loving place to be where no one can get harmed. Was this me searching for this again?

Recorded on 29/01/14 page 21.
........into what is like a cloakroom where you would collect your coat. ( this was the same area that started my Harry Potter type dream months ago, but this time I'm leaving through the door where as before I walked through it to a corridor) I recognised it in my dream.
Someone behind the desk talks about "no contamination allowed beyond this point."
Now I'm sitting in an aircraft with someone opposite me. I'm looking out of the window and the whole sky is covered in what looks like a net made of white feathers. In the dream I'm thinking they are Angel Feathers ( even though in physical I do not have the belief of feathered ,winged angels)
There is a hole in the covering and as I watch I see a similar feather fly up and fill up the hole.
In the dream I just knew that this completed the blanket of protection.
Someone was saying good bye. I picked up
"I leave you with wishes of happiness and caution."



Maybe and maybe there is a double meaning.
I googled " The Fleece Of Heaven".
Came up with,

http://freshwindministries.org/gifts...he_fleece.html

In this piece an example is given of a practice within the farming community where, when a ewe gives birth to twins it sometimes rejects the second twin. However sometimes a ewe will have a still born so the blood is taken from the dead lamb and it is skinned and the fleece is tied to the rejected lamb and blood from the dead lamb is smothered on the head of the rejected twin . Hopefully the mother of the still born will smell its own smell and mistakenly think it is its own and will accept it as its own to look after.
He writes that each of us born into this world is that ABANDONED twin.He writes that what the FATHER wants is for us to see Ourselves in Christ.Apparantly Paul used that expression over 80 times.

...so because Jesus has been featured here a few times in the last year and I've received a Parable before in a humorous way I feel the need to take this on board and translate in a less biblical way and come to my own meaning.

'Christ Consciousness, 'Christ energy', 'Higher Self', 'more loving refined realms,'( heavens)
I was feeling ABANDONED.
We all should recognise that within us is the ability to connect to these energies. They are within us.Just as he says to see ourselves in Christ we must see Christ, ( the Christ energy, or the more advanced evolved , perfected us, )) within all of us.
This search can only be done through us by us.( was told once when thinking of this that I was also the midwife)
Is this just confirming my journey, what I'm searching for?
Recorded a few days ago the face of Jesus then a finger turns to show black over the finger print.



BIOLOGY DEPT , VISUAL EXPANSION..will write up another time.

A few things to catch up on.
Picked this up a few days after the event just at the point of wakening.

"Biology Department. Visual Expansion".

I think I have to class this one as an optical illusion but still interesting for me to log because of the magnification and sparkling affect.

Had been on holiday in a lovely warm enviroment and sitting very relaxed on the balcony. My HB was washing the large balcony floor with a bucket of soapy water, brush and a hose.
As he was talking to me I was listening to him but just gazing at the flow of the water with the soapy suds on top. I followed the direction it was moving in to the corner where it would run off the balcony down a drain pipe. I think he found doing this therapeutic just as I did watching the suds and water but we both carried on conversation.
Suddenly I realised the water was flowing backwards but this wasnt possible so I blinked to re adjust my vision and it corrected to going forwards, but as I watched it started going backwards again.
This was amusing and was thinking at the time that this was one of those things that when i look it up there will be a name for this, some kind of trick of the brain.
Playing with this I kind of de-focused like when practicing seeing auras
I now realise I'm looking under the suds and can see the thickness of the water which is sparkling.I could see this thick band of sparkling water moving over a very still tiled floor.This was so clean and sparkling.
Blinked and that was it. Gone. Back to seeing the water as it should have been, soapy and full of sandy bits.

I've often found that experiences that I have are relevant to what is happening at the time or what I'm reading. Very often when starting out with Astral Dynamics when this all kicked off I would experience something and wonder how this could be , it wasnt possible, but days later as I worked my way through the pages --there it was -- in black and white , an explanation confirming my experience.
As if my sub conscious or what/who ever was helping me at the time knew that I would be reading this so I would have the experience first . This prevented me thinking that I imagined this because I had read about it.

So when the water thing happened I had started reading 'The Ten Minute Moment' By Jurgen Ziewe.
A week long adventure in consciousness where he takes himself into a log cabin in the heart of Scotland and spends the week as a recluse living amongst nature and meditating on his surroundings day and night.
This idea of focusing on objects and realy thinking them through is similar to Kurt Leland's experiences with the Dragon Fly skimming the water when he suddenly experienced being the dragon fly. Or when he was focused intently on a large tree and thinking a lot about this when he suddenly saw a green tree spirit emerge from the top of the tree.( he later read of an author who wrote of seeing the same well before he experienced the vision)

2 days after the water experience on the balcony I had got near the end of the book and came to the conclusion that observation and contemplation is a must for me to start doing.
For the past 2 years or so there have been so many hints at LOOKING, OBSERVING. I know that learning is important to me but the practical side has to be just as important.

When I was staring at myself in the mirror practicing seeing auras and realy wondered just who I was and this wave of love filled my whole body.

When I was looking at the viens running through the petal to the orchid and when questioning myself as to why was I doing this I was told this was to create a beautiful mind.

Being shown earth taken from the planet and ice from a lump floating in space by a spaceman and having it crumbled infront of me whilst floating out in deep space.

Clairvoyantly seeing people all looking to the ground and the sky with cameras in their hands.They were even taking pictures of puddles. I wondered why at the time.


http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/sho...-babies/page53
05/2016. Page 53
I'm entering a big school hall and its full of people sitting down. The headmistress is on stage and another woman goes up on stage. They both look in my direction and come off the stage and come right up to me right at the back.
She's holding a big plant leaf. I see little specks in a group in the middle of the leaf. She tells me to look at it and holds it right in front of my eyes. " look! It's alive. It's living!"


It's not just seeing the beauty in everything but I think SEEING everything.Getting inside everything. Feeling it, understanding it and maybe for a short while Being it.( Thats interesting.I didn't hit the capital letter button for the word being.A nice emphasis there, unintentional.)

My experience I still think was just an optical illusion which I've read is a known physical reaction but it doesnt explain how I saw the water crystal clear and sparkling but it doesnt matter, it still helped me put things together.

Some pieces taken from 'The Ten Minute Moment" that I read after the event that helped me put my thoughts together.

......As I stared at the grass it was the same. The essential aspect of the grass was the light, and the physical blades were just an outcrop of light....

.....The grass vibrated in light. Around the edges of the patch of grass the light rose into the air as if forming a crown...

....it showed me that the world was made up of light.....

"Step By Step As We Merge Through The Wave Of Selfless Sea"

Just got to the liminal stage last night when I picked this thought up.This was prior to sleep. Want to keep it here to remind me . I love it. It conjours up a lovely image.
Had been reading a piece on expansion of consciousness on someone's website and the piece I was reading was an article taken from a book.
This had me think deeply about my consciousness and everything thats written and also what I've picked up.
I've been back to the piece and those words aren't written anywhere so for now I'll claim them as my own. :)

"I Want To Tell You The Cameras Are On You Today"

Picked this up at the point of wakening up 2 weeks ago.

So camera
From previous experiences this could only mean that I was going to say something today that I shouldn't, or do something that I shouldn't, or they want me to do something.

On the other hand it may have just been a warning to look out for speed camera as I've been warned before about them and once when I didnt get the riddle I got caught and fined.

So with this in mind I watched the roads for cameras, blocked out all unnecessary chatter from the mind and carried on my working day .All my contacts at work had been great with plenty of laughter then at 2.35 pm it happened.

Entered a lady's flat for the first time. She was elderly approx mid seventies. Very nice grandmother feel to her. Got chatting as I carried out my work and at that time I hadn't noticed a large bible on her coffee table.
She started talking about Thailand where her son lives so because I've been there 4 times and adore the place and the culture the conversation was going great. I commented that there are so many young lads going around in their orange long robes but that I had been surprised to be told by a local that they do not necessarily commit for life and some just enter this for a short while for the experience and this brings honour to the family.
I finished with, it doesnt matter what religion you follow as they all have the same message being taught.
"OH YES IT DOES" she says. I was a bit surprised at the authorative tone she used and then saw the Bible, so not wanting to take this any further I had to say something .
" Ah, do you belong to a specific faith?
" YES I"M A JEHOVAS WITNESS, AND I CAN TELL YOU NOW IT DOES MATTER WHAT FAITH YOU FOLLOW. WE TRY TO SAVE PEOPLE".

( note)
I have to make it quite clear at this stage to anyone reading this that I regularly have them knocking on my door as well as Mormons and we have lovely chats on the door step for 5-10 mins each time. Each time I make it quite clear that I dont want to follow any one religion but I greatly respect what they are doing but that I am in full control of my own destiny. I have only met lovely lovely soft gentle people.

I gave her a few moments to say what she wanted to and started to pack my things up as I had finished.
Then she blurted out..."OH NO YOUR NOT A SPIRITUALIST ARE YOU?

"Well er... yes I suppose....well no, I dont realy label myself anything"

It was then that she sat up almost with horror or shock and I felt myself jump back at the same time.I dont know if it was her sudden movement that did it but without thinking I just visualised my whole body surrounded by a heavy white wall as if blocking her thoughts or words from me.

Well she made it quite clear that she knew a few and she held no regard for them so I had to say something other than just goodbye.

I told her that I have seen the most beautiful visions clairvoyantly (didn't dare tell her about all the other stuff)
I just wanted her to open her mind to the fact that people outside her faith can be on the right path also.

That was it!!! SATAN!!!" DO YOU KNOW HOW SATAN GETS TO YOU? THAT IS SATAN".

That word Satan caused another reaction inside me. I felt this white wall dissolve away and all my muscles completely relax and a lovely peaceful calm feeling came over me. I felt such warmth towards this lady and also pity. I saw her again as I had when I entered her room as a mid seventyish grandmother, but now I just felt sorry for her.
I suggested respectfully that we should both respectfully agree to dis-agree on this topic.
I knew that it was the talk of Satan that dissolved that protective wall and that no one on this planet Earth will convince me that the beautiful communication and visions comes from Satan.
( Well not so far).

Quick projection this morning but only I think RTZ.
I cannt work out any benefit from this experience but still pleased to be aware and out. Feels a bit like going back to basics.
Woke up 7.30, too early to get up so drifted into a light sleep. Woke up and realised I had been dreaming of gently rocking from side to side. Drifted back to completely relaxed stage when was aware I was rocking again so I decided to rock the other direction. This was easy from head sinking into pillow then curving along the body till feet sink into mattress. As I put more effort into this my head was lifting off the pillow( NOT physical head!)
Realised I had a good chance here to get out so more effort put in then pushed whole etheric body out and up as high as I could.
Up to this stage there had been no sound, nor vision.
Now as I'm feeling the sensation of moving, flying, I can hear a current news reporter's voice from the tv . I couldnt make out what he was saying but recognised his voice but I knew anyway this wasnt important. Just to ignore. All I could see infront of me were 2 very small spinning discs within the brow area. They were I think made up of more than one colour but they were spinning so fast it was hard to tell but I'm sure, not just one colour.
Had no other vision, something faintly was coming through but couldnt make it out. Just deciding this was a waste of time then back to body but this was lovely because instead of a rush or heavy thud I've had sometimes in the past this was just like dissolving into thousands of pieces and floating gently back into body like sieving flour through a sieve.
That was it , over. Not sure what to take from this but still pleased. Might try the rocking action again.
A psychiatrist would have a field day with me. How they must laugh at our stories.

Physical life is taking over at the moment .
So much planning that I'm feeling guilty at not doing my exercises. However you cannt stop dreaming every night so this is all I've had to go on.
It makes sense that much will be acted out from the subconscious mind and my dream recalled this morning was very memorable and had me a little frightened.

DREAM

I'm looking out of the window and suddenly see a dark figure of a girl standing in the garden. She looked ghostly and was just standing looking. This frightened me and was convinced she was a deceased person. I crouched below the window , frightened, and called my husband over. He looks out at her and just recognises her as being someone he knows and goes out to her.
The dream scene has just ended but then along comes a face of a young man with a tanned face wearing a cap. I recognised him as ANT from the TV.

Thoughts.

Ant is currently in Australia ( DOWN UNDER)? (SUB-CONSCIOUS)?or( LOWER REALMS)?

The program 'I'm a celebrity get me out of here', has contestants facing challenges that are fearsome.

Yesterday I had tried a little open eyed focus on a yellow leaf , then some flowers. The aura colours off them were beautiful to see and corresponded to the colour of the flower or green stems. I then tried to just focus in the air outside and this got me thinking about what I would be letting myself in for if I became proficient enough to realy SEE.Would I be letting myself in for some unwanted surprises.
But I want to develop ALL the senses and I'm willing to take the risk because the water on the balcony, the auras of the flowers, I know I've been directed and encouraged to develop this but it seems my sub conscious is acting out and showing me this fear .
I must be positive about this and over ride any anxieties. ( just as the contestants do in the jungle)

A nice reminder

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=QdneZ4fIIHE

I was told that the benefit of meditating on a particular object is,

"To Experience The Inner, From Rock To Heaven".

I suppose yes, we are here for experiences to learn and grow.


Also during a meditation session having difficulty I picked up that my problem was

" To Get Past The Psychotic Sub Level And Thoughts."


Liminal stage saw quickly a family picture in its frame when a finger appears over the middle of picture and a finger print starts to expand from under the finger until it expands and covers the whole of the picture.

This is second time a finger print has been used. Previously Jesus on a card then a finger appears and turns to show black on it that would form a finger print.

I think maybe this is once again suggesting that we are all one. All Of the same, all From the same.

This AM just wakening up and I am watching someone looking out of a plane window that is just coming in to land but the land seen from the window is barren uneven volcanic soil giving the appearance of another planet, Not Earth.
Recalled dream and it had nothing at all to do with this.

Have had plane window scenes before over the years.

One was looking out to an ancient looking map whilst coming into land. This resulted in a period of past lives being shown.
Also the feathered sky mentioned above.

Just remembered also looking out of a plane in deep space seeing the most beautiful star field and a giant head appear in space made up of stars and a suggestion that I was on a journey to meet God.
( I laughed at this message at the time but the view from the window was breathtaking)

Co-incidence?
Yesterday I logged on here and chose a page at random from my journal.( this just helps keep me connected when everything and everyone around me is busy and noisy.) I didnt read anything as attention got diverted.
Last night I had a concern (after offering to help someone financially ) that maybe I shouldn't have because yesterday was my official retirement day and I now have to be careful with money.
I couldnt take back the offer and didnt want to but was still a little doubtful.
This morning visited this website and the same page was up so had a sudden thought to only read the very last post on the page. Scrolled down and this is the reply Richard wrote over 3 years ago to a dream I had had.

Quote:

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Originally Posted by eyeoneblack

Well, Susan, I dusted off my I-Ching and fell on this just by coincidence):

(I didn't throw the coins, was just getting ready to.)


#43 Kuai / Break-through
When the water of a lake has risen up to heaven, there is reason to fear a cloudburst. Taking this as a warning, the superior man forestalls a violent collapse. If a man were to pile up riches for himself alone, without considering others, he would certainly experience a collapse. For all gathering is followed by dispersion. Therefore the superior man begins to distribute while he is accumulating. In the same way, in developing his character he takes care not to become hardened in obstinacy but to remain receptive to impressions by help of strict and continuous self-examination.

I don't know. Sounded relevant, perhaps. :)

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I feel better now.

Back to energy raising this morning whilst still in bed. Pleased with the results.
This wasnt trying for a projection. Just feeling I want to work a lot more on the upper chakras.

Feet stirring to start, then moving upwards to knees. Tops of legs. Stirred all the chakras moving upwards but then decided I wanted to be focusing on the spinal column so stirred up the spinal column from the back of body, then imagined a feather touching and tickling my spine moving upwards slowly, then down.
Did this a few times, I could feel my whole body tingle.then bounced ball over crown but quickly decided to be more gentle so changed to gently sponging top of head and within seconds of changing energy rose from base chakra up through body twice.
Its been a few months since I last had this .
Must work more on upper chakras and spine.

Someone/something nudged my shoulder this morning .

I thought it was my HB but when I opened my eyes he had his back to me so couldn't have. Was this someone wanting my attention? Immediatly tried to recall dream and it was just what is on my mind anyway. Nothing worth recording so tried to stay still and focus behind eyelids and silence mind.

My mind wandered but as I was thinking, suddenly 'GREENHOUSE ' popped up. This didnt make sense as I hadn't been thinking of anything to do with that, the word didn't fit in to the sentence.
Therefore I have to think what greenhouse means to me and over the years I've come to the understanding that for me it symbolises ..Growth... Nurturing new growth....

It's a very positive word for me and feel it has confirmed what I can benefit from right now as I was confused at my situation and sent out a wish to understand better.

Situation.
Retired at Christmas and am now living in a country where I can not even speak the local's language. There is no greenery that I love, fresh flowers growing are rare. I want to be here and in fact made it happen but I had no idea just how this move could benefit me, Even the noise in the appartment prevents me from having my special time.
One morning a few weeks ago prior to the move , I woke up to seeing a lovely image of a mother figure holding a small baby on her lap. This was a lovely image reminding me of pictures of Mary and Jesus , but the surprising thing here was it was the BABY that was wearing a HIJAB , not the woman.
I've never seen this before and it amused me.
A baby to me is learning , a new experience to learn, a new beginning in something, ( can be adapted a little) but the baby is me .( probs the mother is as well the way all this is unfolding)

So if I was to put the greenhouse and baby wearing the Hijab together then I'm here for the experience. To learn to live amongst these people that many in the world right now are against. By experiencing being right at the heart of this culture I can truly experience the warmth they give out.

I pad playing up again doing unexplainable things.

Had been reading a large paper book on the cosmos. Want to get a telescope for the night sky's out here as the stars are beautiful but first before deciding which one to get I want to know what I'm looking at. I'm seeing so many patterns but first I must learn. Just reading the book got me into deep thought about the OBEs that I've had in the past and the ones with the twinkling of stars. I couldnt make up the beauty even if I tried. This in turn got me thinking that if I was to direct enough energy , time, in this direction then maybe , just maybe I would be lucky enough to get back up there, wherever there is.

So I then went on to watching a u tube clip on Edward Cayce ( the sleeping prophet)on the ARCTURIANS.Internet started to play up so gave up . Switched it off.

15 mins later switched it back on and it had gone onto my stored music . The red christmas album was showing as if it was playing but no music. Now this is the same album that has 100 tracks that I had never listened to and was used a few months ago that I recorded and concluded what was happening was more than just co-incidence in relation to dreams.

BUT showing across the album cover were the words ..STAR GAZER...STAR GAZER...STAR GAZER..
The words were repeated scrolling along sideways.
I knew there wasnt a song called this stored anywhere here, nor had I been searching those words on i pad, neither had it been used in the Edward Cayce video.
Nothing to find with the words STAR GAZER in.
I only wish someone had been in the room to confirm if they could see the words as well or not. Had my sub-conscious taken over again and let me think I was seeing these words written, or somehow had the computer produced these words that anyone would have seen.
( I remember recording the time I was writing here and instead of writing that I had had a quiet week-end I wrote the words Overindulgence weekend. ) The thing is I had eaten too much and knew it, but the word overindulgence is written for everyone to see.

So, co-incidence? Dont think so.

This morning waking up from a dream I'm holding a handful of gold coins and jewellry. I was with a group of people when someone comes in front of me and puts them down and dissapears. I pick them up and they are beautiful and wish I could keep them but must look for the person they belong to. The dream ended when a teacher came out of a room along a corridor . I told her what I was doing.

Thinking this through I slipped into receptive stage when I dream of a person standing infront of me.There was something mesmerising about the eyes. I dont even remember if male or female but the eyes were so so very deep, as if I could go into them and they had so much information held just within the eyes. I could almost see right through the eyes, they were more than just eyes, they spoke but didnt speak. I'm finding it hard to find the right way to describe them.
Then this person points to me and I pick up ..."YOU"...
Woke up , went over this in mind when picked up .."ORACLE."

That was it , awake now and stayed awake.
I was trying to think what an Oricle was and mistakenly was thinking it was something to do with the Emerald Tablet.
When I googled this is what I got.

Dictionary.com

a person who delivers authoritative, wise, or highly regarded and influential pronouncements.

A divine communication

Any person or thing serving as an agency of divine communication.





Thoughts.
Maybe, yes I would greatly benefit from questioning and learning astronomy.

Woke up to vibrations. Very slight but all over, no buzzing or noise of any kind. Felt myself raising very slowly, no vision, feeling of moving to the left. Felt myself getting excited wondering where I would end up but that ended it. Completely awake now. Spoilt it DRAT!

( next time I must remember not to THINK!!! Just go with it with no thoughts )


Had been warned about a fall but I just didn't get it at the time .
4 days ago recalled a dream where I'm watching 2 people in a room doing gymnastics on a box but one of them fell off falling to the ground.
The teacher calls me across and looks seriously at me giving me a thought to Take Care.
Woke up.

I felt alarmed as I was recalling . The feeling stayed with me all day. Decided to just watch and be vigilant on the roads when driving.

Then it happened.. last night we went for a walk. It was getting dark as we crossed a small road I saw a car coming and thought I had enough time to cross but the car was travelling so fast I had to hurry tripping on a bad bit of road ending flat on my stomach with arms stretched out.
Haven't fallen on all fours ( well , stomach to be correct) since I was 10 years old. Could have cried.

So I don't think I could have avoided this fall even if I had interpreted correctly.
How I felt when wakening up from the dream was a good indication to take notice.

Back to basics.
Have decided if I cann't have the solitude , space, peace, that I need for daily meditation practice then I'm going to concentrate heavily on the NEWS. Back to what works best. CFT's link to the energy work topic got me motivated again rather than frustrated. Don't need silence for that and I haven't got a chance of that till at least next year when we'll move from the city to the beach.

Another lovely mother and baby image again flashing up so quickly it can leave you wondering if you realy did see this.
Once again it was as if it was made from clouds.
A mother figure with a baby sitting on her lap being given a small glass of water.The mother has a lot of gold jewellery on. These mother and baby scenes are always made from clouds, just as the 2 horses were that were floating up to the sky. Lovely, I hope I don't loose the ability to perceive them. Although seen so quickly at the point of wakening they are so more beautiful than other colourful images seen.


Done some homework on scenes representing cloud like figures .



26th Feb 2017...page 60
.........My viewing zooms away now outside and I can feel my body loosen and slowly raise up. Now to the left I see a faint outline of white puffy clouds but in the clouds very faintly are two white horses together flying upwards.
Then its over. DRAT!DRAT!


8th March 2017...page 60
.....A beautiful scene flashing up this morning but did I imagine this? So quick to appear but gone in a flash.
A woman looking as if made from white cloud flying through the white sky on her stomach (horizontally)
holding a small white similar cloud like baby under her right arm.


24th January 2018...page 64
....I woke up to seeing a lovely image of a mother figure holding a small baby on her lap. This was a lovely image reminding me of pictures of Mary and Jesus , but the surprising thing here was it was the BABY that was wearing a HIJAB , not the woman.


Also today's post.

Starry field out in deep space dream that was so lovely I need to record.
This was after the previous nights sleep wakening up to still hearing a beautiful voice giving me instruction. Well, asking me if I would......

2 seperate dreams over two night make sense to me now.

1st DREAM
light sleep 9.30am-10.30am.

I wake up still hearing this deep voice ( maybe a slight mechanical sound to it) saying..." Susan, can I ask you to just Listen".
Recalled dream and I have climbed into an empty bed when a family of mother ,father, and a small baby come to the bed and they put the baby down infront of me.
I start to stroke the baby's face and want to look after it. As I'm doing this the father figure comes closer but i cannt see him. Stroking the baby's face still I'm looking closer and it seems to be melting into the bed sheet.Eventualy the face has become part of the bed sheet. I was trying to understand why this was and what it meant when the father spoke the words I woke up to.

2nd DREAM.

(This was lovely)

I'm in deep space with stars up above sitting at a table with my family. High up in space I see two puppy dogs. They seem to be holographic or just sketched and one runs across the black sky. I want my family to see this. To see that its real. The second puppy playfully runs across the sky chasing the first.
Then even deeper up in space I see a large wheel going round with fireworks. It reminded me of a fairground ride and remember saying " they must be celebrating something up there in space. They must have something to celebrate. "


This space setting with stars up above has been used before
Will comment on this soon.

Will add to, keep getting logged off.


In physical for the past 3 months I've realy been trying hard not to judge people or allow any bad thoughts come into my mind. Trying to see the best in them ,imagine being them, understanding. These last 3 months have realy seen a big effort from me. This life at the moment is so different and I'm back in the UK for 4 weeks but I dont think I want to stay any longer than that.
( back to edit)
I feel I havent realy said what I mean very well, so I'll try again.
For the last 3 months `I've had a lot of fear.Not of people but of the driving on the roads. The people I've met - some may have caused me to be cautious but have ended up being so kind, generous, curtious, respectful. This place is rich in culture, disorganised, tomorrow means next week, but I realy enjoy the craziness of it. I just have to overcome the fear. When fear is completely eliminated I hope its replaced with just sensible caution so I can enjoy the experience of living amongst these lovely people.


I want to bring this old post forward.
The first dream where the baby's face was moulding, merging with the fabric of the sheet. This reminds me of the 'fabric of the universe'. Everything all connecting, being connected.

I think my hard work is maybe paying off and I'm doing okay!

Journal 6th June 2013. Page 8.

Quote:

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Originally Posted by susan

Golden threaded universe.
I am currently reading Jurgen ZIewe's 'Multi Dimensional Man' and I love his style of writing. It's one of the best books I've read but what I am encouraged by are the similarities of experiences.
A few years ago in my paper journal I wrote of viewing behind closed eyelids an exquisite fine gold threaded universe,so fine and sparkling with golden planets and gold lines like thread seemed to connect them.
I have just read today that Jurgen experienced the same.
He describes" ......unfolded the universe in front of me. A vast space opened up, and a giant symmetrical web made from golden threads, each junction studded with an enormous golden sun. Each sun casting off golden patterns, which interacted with each other."

He writes of being with a group of friends that he appears to know but not in physical.
I am currently experiencing the same,( I'm sure many are on this site)
Just love his book.

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Another lovely image flashed up this morning in the middle of analysing a dream and adding my own thoughts to how I feel about the situation.
Saw a human chest then a pair of white feathered wings fitting neatly inside the chest.
This image stayed long enough for me to see the chest first then the wings appeared.

Thoughts.
Had increased NEWS on the brow and visualisation exercises with the different pieces of fruit.
Woke from main sleep . The dream I could understand as my concerns and was just thinking that I have to overcome these as we go back over next week for 4 months.

Think I have to work more from the heart rather than fear. When I think that in the past I've been warned when necessary. The speed cameras....falling down....the death of an aunt...my grandchild( 9 months exactly to the day of birth)...health...that I would arrive home safely.....etc...
I feel confident that as long as I can keep this chanel open I would be warned of any danger

Picked some words up during meditation. Was in deep thought about the times I pick up words as if whispered in the ear. The very soft gentle loving voice that is so wise and poetic.Why cannt I just pick up when I want to . It's like being given a treat but you have to wait, not knowing when. Also how hard it can be to try to be the best we can when around people.
After these thoughts I went silent trying to still the mind without falling asleep. Then just at the point of nearly asleep I heard the voice say....

"THE EGO IS THE ONE WHOSE FEET MUST FIT IN THE SHOES"


Ramadan starts tomorrow evening here. Obviously I needn't observe this very spiritual month for Muslims as I'm not one but the choice is mine but I've done a little homework on this and one of the expectations of this time is self-discipline, and reflection. Well I am reflecting my life and words and actions every waking minute so I dont need that , but self-discipline?
Self- Discipline.
No Food or Drink from sunrise to sunset.One hope from this is to experience hunger and thirst that some in the world are experiencing right now.
I think this would be a good experience for me but I'm not sure I want to go so far as the no water rule!
I dont want to put my hydration levels at risk but would like to partially give it a go.
I love my breakfasts here. Fresh bread, thick butter, pear jam, fresh fruit, yogurt, fresh lemon juice, dates.......I make this my main meal and love it sitting on the balcony. Can I do it?

Well I managed to give up red meat, then all meat, then all alcohol, then all fish.
I"ll give it a try but start off drinking only water then as the days go on see if I can manage to eliminate the water bit.

Will use this journal to monitor progress.

Well my attempt at fasting during Ramadan failed miserably but I'm happy. I know my weakness.
The thing is I wasn't hungry but bored. It realy was a case of my routine being out. I missed the coffee and breakfast which takes up part of the morning .
On the first day, in the market, a stall holder is shouting at a woman that he hasn't got 10 pairs of hands. He tells her this is the first day of Ramadan he has had nothing to eat or drink. He can not go as fast as she wants.
What I have witnessed is much lethargy shown by people through the day, but a kind of ' we will get through this together'.Large table of food prepared for the break of fast each evening which is adhered to by the precise time given out for each evening as to when the fast can be broken.

Problem for me is, during meals the conversation is about the other family members . in other words... GOSSIP.
Without saying much more what I found is the rituals are gone through , the devotion to their ' Allah' is unquestionable , but I think I expect too much from people.
No different to someone back in England going to church and going through the rituals then going home and gossiping about neighbours.
My expectations are too high but I don't feel bad about failing the fast because I think my priorities are different. ( made it till 4 pm of first day.)


Have had to come Bach here to edit.
I'm doing it again.
I'm judging people because of their Religion.
I have expectations because of a religion they follow rather than seeing them as a person or spirit with a personality, and okay, they don't live up to my expectations but it's none of my business what they do or say.
I was advised a while ago about this and a suggestion to be guided by their aura.

03/05/16. Page 52.
http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/sho...=Heart+univers

( brought it forwards)
Thought tonight I'd be writing up my notes on the Big Bang theory but instead I need to record this.
It seems I'm out of favour with myself again.

6.00am recalled a small short scene where it was a bit disturbing.

Dream.
I'm watching a news reporter with a camera focused on a woman. He announces that the president wants her to go back home but she is saying NO.
The camera focuses on the woman's mouth and goes closer as she says she won't and can't leave.Im left looking inside this woman's mouth which is injured inside on her left side and all her teeth on the left were missing.
( this was very ugly to look at and reminded me of the post when the woman's face turned ugly and she grew horns) On this occasion I was being reprimanded and the book I used at the time suggested not to judge people until I'd walked in their shoes. On that occasion I knew exactly what it was referring to.

I lay there wondering what this could have meant and had been wondering why the last few days on holiday I was having disturbing dreams. I was eating too much but that's what holidays are for.
When my mind went silent ready to go back to sleep I picked up..

" YOU CANN'T JUDGE PEOPLE BY THEIR RELIGION".

Stayed mind silence when picked up

" JUDGE THEM BY THEIR AURA".


Felt very dissapointed here because I realy had been aware of my thoughts while away. I hadn't thought badly of anyone and in fact enjoyed watching groups of different coultures and religions dressed in their own coultural dresses and covering their bodies or not whilst swimming.
Maybe my thoughts weren't as good as I thought they were.
Or I'm being encouraged to see people as individuals.

So here I am 2 years on still having to be reminded, but the thing is this time I worked out my problem in waking day rather than having a dream or clairaudience point it out. So a lot to be said about self reflection.

Quote:

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Originally Posted by susan

Well my attempt at fasting during Ramadan failed miserably but I'm happy..

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My entire immediate family is Muslim and fasts regularly without missing a day , I on the other hand have never done it , I can fast as long as they can , (breaking fast with them is cherishing) but I do it more for weight loss.

Right there with you susan :cool:

Great thing about a journal is going back and finding things that can match up with others.
I'm absolutely not going to let all this noise and disturbance and lack of privacy and ME Time spoil this communication but I'm struggling. Husband must need hearing aids. Got the music full blast . I turn it down, he turns it up. I'll think of something but till then found this.


https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/i...ppgjm4emobcmT0


"Verily, when a person departs from this world
he goes to the wind.
It opens out therefor him like
the hole of a chariot wheel.
Through it he mounts higher.
He goes to the sun.
It opens out therefor him like the hole of a drum...
He goes to the moon-
He goes to the world that is without sorrow..."

— Brihad-Aranyaka Upanishad



Brihadaranyaka Upanishad -

The Brihadaranyaka Upanishad (Sanskrit: बृहदारण्यक उपनिषद्, Bṛhadāraṇyaka Upaniṣad) is one of the Principal Upanishads and one of the oldest Upanishadic scriptures of Hinduism. A key scripture to various schools of Hinduism, the Brihadaranyaka Upanisad is tenth in the Muktikā or "canon of 108 Upanishads".
Wikipedia.


"It Opens Out Therefor Him Like
The Hole Of A Chariot Wheel"

?? Hub of a wheel??

" It Opens Out Therefor Him Like The Hole Of A Drum"

?? Tunnel?? Corridor?


Posted 27/03/15 ( but experience well before this)
Dream
what looks like an airport terminal with all the shops. Someone is with me but no words are spoken. Over in the distance I can see some people looking distressed sitting on a bench .But we are concentrating on the side we are on and there is a girl whose attention we have to get and make her follow us. She sees us and follows us round the corner. It's then we hold her . She is distressed. We tell her to lie down and go to sleep. A bed suddenly appears below her and she lays down.

Next thing tunnels/ corridors seem to open up all around us and the shopping mall has dissapeared.
These beautiful, gentle, semi transparent people just floated from the tunnel. 4 came over to us and put their arms round the girl speaking to her softly and told her to come with them . I watched as she was as if sleep walking with them down the tunnel they came from, and dissapeared. As I looked around I could see similar figures had come from different tunnels and we're taking some of the other people who were at the other side away.
End of dream.

Michael Newton writes of souls arriving at a central port he called a staging area. This was for the assembly and transfer of souls in mass to their final destination.
Two phases. Brought in and collected then projected to final destination. His accounts all seemed to suggest walking with large numbers of travellers through a central terminal of a metropolitan airport .
One client described the staging area as resembling the hub of a great wagon wheel where we are transported from a centre along the spokes to our designated space moving in and out of the hub in an efficient manner with no congestion.
Wish I could experience this again even if just a dream. I know I dreampt this well before downloading the book to read.

"Feel for the beacon of light that draws you home"

For the last two days I had been reading my astronomy book trying to understand everything before investing in a telescope.
Had been reading of ' invisible light' and the electromagnetic Spectrum. How waves are measured by frequency and length, the different types of rays and the colours of the spectrum. I have an older brain and have to go over and over for it to sink in but I was drawn to the diagram in the book that had a line with the different colours of the spectrum. As frequency increased the colours changed.Starting with red then changing and going up the line in sequence to the idea out there of the colours of each chakra. So is this where the term " to raise your frequency... to raise your energy..comes from? So this seemed to make sense to the idea that all the chakras need to be resonating at the same frequency with no blockages.

With all these thoughts going on in my mind and no one to tell me I was off track or stupid I then thought of the pieces I've listened to on the Arcturians and The Pleiades
I'm still on a quest to discover who these beings were that I was taken to but must be very careful that I don't fall into a belief system that has me following every word that I cannot verify for myself. But so much is written on these two races just what do I believe out there. Looking at the maps of the constellations do I focus my attention on these two particular areas or stay away from the metaphysical side and just learn astronomy. Arcturians or Pleadies or other?

Of course no little voice is going to give me the answer I have to work everything out myself by the looks of it.
I think the above advise was for me to use my own intuition and follow what I'm drawn to, what feels right.
Still a nice way to put it

" The Crank Will Be Lower By This Evening"

Woke up to this but no visual with it.
Recalled dream straight away and I could easily understand the dream but not the words.

Dream.
Im with someone and running from some bad people who are after me. I never see them but have to hide.


All day I felt exhausted I think because of the dream. I knew the dream was associated with my fear as a passenger on the roads. The driving here is just crazy. Mopeds drive towards us on our side of the road. They cross over roundabouts, cut in across you, infront of you , there is just no rule for mopeds. Families of 4-5 all on one. We had had a lucky escape the previous day so I was still in shock.
We now had a family wedding to go to but wasnt looking forwards to it .
As the day went on I was anxious and could feel a tightness in the solar plexus area. I actualy wondered if I had eaten something that was causing it but didnt say anything.
Journey to village had another few scares.It was getting worse. I tried a bit of NEWS concentrating on this area but no relief.
Stopped for half an hour at our niece's.

This is where the healing started.
A gorgeous little 2 year old wanted a lift up and cuddle.
I held her tight against me and rocked her. She fell asleep with her head on my shoulders and arms round my neck. I could feel the heat from her and felt such love towards her. For half an hour I felt her heat and felt the love for her.
Time to go to the wedding and I was completely at peace, anxiety gone and the tightness inside gone.
Had a great time and so pleased I went.
Back to the words.

CRANK.... The only thoughts here is thatI was all wound up inside causing the knot and tightness. I had to google crank and this is the best I can do. Others may have a different way of interpreting but as each person has their own understanding of meanings then this was the first thing that came to mind.

So if anyone needs to reduce stress just hold an innocent young child in your arms and feel the warmth and love . Works wonders.

Yesterday visited a couple of government buildings full of people and got no where. My thoughts were of frustration resulting in wanting to give everyone a mouth full. Incompetence! Dis-belief! I even blocked someone from pushing infront of me by putting my elbow on the counter infront of him. ( I can play at that game too)
How do these well respected gurus do it? Stay calm and not react when the situation is as it was yesterday. All the mayhem going on was bombarding me. I couldnt block it out. Quite funny now that I am reflecting but it wasnt funny at the time.
Living here is a big big lesson. Testing my perseverance, ability to stay calm in situations and more importantly understanding that we all come from the same and all are connected to the same Divine.
If I want to keep this chanel open I must remember what I was told.
" The Ego's Feet Must Fit In The Shoes".


Found this piece here on the site. I've pasted the link that it seems to have come from.
Want to leave it here as a reminder.
https://www.wanttoknow.info/inspirat...transformation

. The original essay is titled "The Shifting Models of Existence,"




3 PRINCIPAL:S FOR LIFE TRANSFORMATION

The presence of the Divine expressing itself as a vibration of equality can be seen in all things. Sensory input derived from the human body is limited to frequencies in specific ranges that only convey an echo of this divine vibration. The divine resonance of all life is understood only through deliberate and focused contemplation of the equality inherent in all things, and through the ability to penetrate beyond the image of a thing to the origin of the image. Calling forth the divine perceptions of the soul within your own being is the ideal method to access lasting sensitivity to the divine vibration. This is how you develop the ability to see the Divine in all.

It is not only that the Divine is found within you and within every individual manifestation of life; it is also in itself the wholeness of all life. Thus, this principle calls for seeing the Divine in all its diverse forms of manifestation, as well as in the wholeness of life itself.

These insights stimulate a new sensory system beyond the five senses that rule the physical world. These new senses are an outgrowth of the awakening of your sacred intentions. They are manifestations of the first stage of profound personal transformation. With this new perceptual ability, you will be capable of sensing not only the presence of the Divine, but also the timeless divine essence that exists at the core of every living being.

Well I asked the question in the last post

" How do these well respected gurus do it? Stay calm and not react...?

The other morning before getting up was thinking this over and wondering what exercises to put into practice today. Wanting to get the balance right of practicing, learning, but going about everyday living here which brings up such emotions.
Picked up very faintly.

" Have You Thought Of What Mat Richard Says About Science?"

So faint and quick I could feel myself get excited not wanting to loose the name so decided to visualise a door mat and first boy I had a crush on to help retain the name.

Do not remember ever hearing of him and this was a direct question being put to me so just or fun googled the name putting science in also.

First page came up with MATTHIEU RICARD ,a French born Buddhist Monk living in Nepal who had previously been working many years in the field of Science. Works alongside the Dalai Lama and also known as The happiest man in the world.


An article found here discussing the science involved behind the working of the mind.

http://www.matthieuricard.org/en/articles


THE SCIENCE OF THE MIND. Published on November 25, 2011


Matthieu Ricard is a member of the Mind and Life Institute, an organization that advances the collaboration between modern science and Buddhism. He is a participant, both as a subject and as a collaborator, in research programs on the effects of meditation and mind training on the brain. He shares some thoughts on the topic:

Is it possible for us to develop the mind to function more constructively; can we change obsession into contentment, agitation into peace, hatred into compassion? Twenty years ago, among neuroscientists there was a quasi-dogma that stated that all the brain's neurons were present at birth and that their number will not be modified by the experiences of life. Today, however, neuroscientists think in terms of ‟neuroplasticity,” meaning that the brain is continuously evolving as a function of our experiences and can produce new neurons throughout our whole life. In particular, specific training, such as learning to play an instrument or a sport, can profoundly change the brain. This implies that attention, compassion, and even happiness can also be cultivated and depend, for a large part, on a skill that can be acquired.

Acquiring a new skill always involves training. We cannot expect to learn to play tennis or to play the piano well without first practicing for a long time. If we dedicate a certain amount of time each day to cultivating compassion or any other positive quality, we are likely to attain results, just like when we train the body. In Buddhism, ‘to meditate' means ‘to become familiar with' or ‘to cultivate.' Meditation consists of familiarizing ourselves with a new way of being, of managing our thoughts and the way we perceive the world. Through the recent advances in neuroscience it is now possible to evaluate these methods and to verify their impact on the brain and body.

The new research indicates that the brain activity of subjects meditating on compassion is particularly elevated in the left prefrontal lobe, a region of the brain associated with positive emotions. So compassion, the concern for the wellbeing of others, is related to other positive emotions, such as joy and enthusiasm. Moreover, the parts of the brain involved in planning movement and in feeling maternal love are also strongly stimulated by this meditation. This does not come as a surprise to contemplatives since, in their experience, compassion brings about an attitude of complete receptiveness that can easily transform into action.

We are on the threshold of fascinating discoveries that should prove it is possible to transform the mind in a more significant way than psychologists had previously imagined. In this way, meditation will gain the recognition and respect in the West that it has had in the East for thousands of years.



So my question was ' How do these Gurus do it?
My answer was given directing me towards the writing of Matthieu Ricard.
Can I change agitation into peace?
It takes practice and more practice . I shouldnt feel a failure if I let my emotions take control. I just havent practiced enough to aquire the skill But only I can do it.It will take time.


EDIT.

1/08/18
Just today Matthieu and his 2 friends have posted a blog on his site detailing a step by step guide on HOW to practice this.

http://www.matthieuricard.org/en/blo...f-the-emotions

A journal is for reflection . This was posted almost 5 years ago.

Quote:

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Originally Posted by susan

Another brow centre strobe and vision screen is building up again, but first .
Yesterday am woke up from dream then saw a lovely red colour with deep red dots within the red. Just lay there looking and eyelids were like a snowy flickering tv screen with the Ariel not plugged in . ( had this before so knew the extra brow work I had been doing was working) .
Back to sleep ( no energy raising) . Woke up and fully awake could hear traffic outside and was viewing a large spinning white disc in brow area like a beautiful magnified snow flake,then a small deep purple snowflake like disc spinning in front of it. These disappeared then the snowy TV screen again.
This morning, very much aware of a brilliant white flash in brow area that was like someone putting two live wires together.

Just want to record that all over body energy raising the News is always done before any longer brow work.
Learnt the hard way . ( men pregnant, ??? women fighting ???)

I have hesitated in posting this for any interpretation thought by others but I remind myself that this is a journal for my own reflection so here goes.
The last few dreams seem to be of topics that I am failing in. ( maybe a particular country that I have no wish to visit because of their habits . ( this turns into a dream and upon remembering am feeling guilty . )
More but the point is made.

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FEELING of guilt ( feelings are important and for taking notice of)
...topic I'm failing in
...a particular country I have no wish to visit because of their habits!!

Present Day.
I am now living in this country. ( partially retired here ) and its a challenge.
Looks like I have some work to do here.

Thanks for pointing this out- I need to do a little work with it. http://www.matthieuricard.org/en/blo...f-the-emotions

May have had some teaching last night.
Woken up abruptly by thunder and lightening outside but heard internaly

" New Species Introduction."

This was very formal like a computerised voice reading a statement.
Nothing personal about it.
Tried to recall dream but absolutly nothing. Nothing at all.
Back to sleep. Again thunder woke me up to

" However, The Posterior Is Not Used For Elimination".

Once again no visual with it and absolutly no dream recall.
Back to sleep and slept till 11.30!!!!!!!!!! No Dream Recalled.

This is why I am sure this was teaching as I am fairly good at recalling dreams and recently they have been just what is on my mind anyway but sometimes the wording picked up in the mornings are words I wouldnt use such as "Heavenly Skies"

"....To Exit The Earth And Flow In The River Of Eternity."

Picked this up just at the point of wakening. Was more a quick thought put there rather then a voice this time.
Wanted to hang on to these words so I wouldnt forget them so kept repeating and repeating till firmly planted. Of course this meant that I'd lost opportunity of recalling dream so nothing came .

Back to sleep... ..upon wakening....'The Script And I'm The Staff".

The staff has been used before which suggested at the time guidance from higher self.( the Queen)
In the Bible and I think the Quoran the Staff apparently became known as the Rod Of God.


A shepherd uses a staff as an essential piece of shepherding equipment. It may be used to rest on , or to return a lamb to its mother. ... Often used to protect, guide and lead the sheep.

If I realy wanted to play with this then I am performing as the script ( play) and my higher self ?? Is gently guiding, protecting and leading me .

Just a bit of fun working with these words.

Hypnopompic imagery this morning. All cartoons.

Waking up seeing this cartoon imagery. Different scenes, nothing that I can put any meaning to so just random imagery but interesting that it was all in the form of cartoon characters,
Back to sleep then upon wakening again some more appeared. Cartoons again except for the last one.
A tartan ribbon being lifted up to reveal something under the ground it had been on top of. It looked like a bundle of old fossils?

????????? My birth family all originate from Scotland. My search for ' Who am I?'

Once again just a bit of fun working with this.