IA´s dream diary....

In last night dream has to do during the abuse time of me 1981...I was so thin and lifeless...the dream went like this....I saw this thin lady and I knew her...I was sure she also recognize me...but did not....I stood infront of her and said sarkastic matter but teasing too...By no means do not stand up for me....we hugged and she was so weak...I told her that I will carry her on my back...but she nearly fell off...so I asked...shall I take you to the doctor...she mummbled something ...but I could not make anything out of it...here I awoke..

In last night dream I was helping a farmer...he cut the oats and I binded the oats sheafs....

In last night dream a man come to my home (lika a visitation) he appeared in front of me and started to talk how much better I am then a few years ago...that I am on the mend...then he told me that he have a 19 year old boy who he have lost to drugs...I said to him that we can save him...our combined energy is strong...but he was not convinced so I did not push more on that..

In last night dreams I was watering plants and checking the self watering jars to have enough water...
In this episode I found a old kines dragon made in wood...and handbags contained all kind of waluable items but the price was very low...I wondered if they knew that the handbags was not empty?

Last night I have not bean able to sleep...so I fell to sleep this morning...and a man approached me and gave me 4 candels??...I do not understand this symbol....

In last night dream my first husband (I was married to him when I was 19-22 yrs old) ..had his arms wrapped around me as I am now...over weighted...I said to him..when I have lost my over weight we are going to go out to dance...he said..yes and we go as often as you want....
When we where married he never wanted to go out with me....to dance or anything els....he took his life 2004.

In last night dream my sister took my white dress and when I tried to take it back...she did not let go....I looked in my closet and I found exactly same dress so I was so happy...I told my sister friend what my sister did...she had difficulty to say anything...I saw on the window shelf small like flower flyes or banan flyes...I opened the window and with my breath I blow them out from the window...and closed the window seeing them buzzing outside and trying to get in....
In this episode me first boyfriend (15-17 yrs age) some women come and asked me if it was true...yes I said...we have 3 years appart...him being exactly on the day 3 yrs older then me..Him and I was going out to dance...I saw in the mirror that I had no make up and told him that I want to look nice...it was when I was putting make up that those women appeared asking.....(.his parent did think I was too young so they mooved back to Finland and he never come back after the military...but he kept contact with me..and christmas 1999 he called me ....he had canser and wanted to see me...we met and now his parents said...now we can see what he missed in his life all this time...they where buffeled that it was only 3 yrs what diffed between us...he died 2001)...Strange that I am having dreams about my past so much??...

In last night I was out sun bathing...my new bf come with a friend...I had my keys in my hand...he said ...I love you...and he kissed me and did not want to stop...so I stopped and said...we can not imbarres your friend...we had not seen each others for a week...I said...I do not have anything home not even a bisque...We entered my appartament...it is open planned...huge...my bf is very happy to show it to his friend....I asked how it went with his ex gf...he started to tell me...but here I awoke??

In last night dream I saw my little brother standing with 2 persons...when my brother saw me he looked very imbarresed...when I come nearer the 2 persons dissapeared...left was only theires water bottles...I bend down and took the first water bottle and felt it is my aunts...and the other was her son...I said...you can come out now...you are revieled...the went visible...she asked me ...how long is it when we met....I said 25 yrs....she asked me if I can go with her and reserv a table for our familys re-union...we went into a restaurant for making the reservation...but she ordered a meal and sat down to eat...after she was finnished I asked her...are you really able to eat more when we will have the re-union with our family....oh yes she said I am....

In last night dream a huge gorilla was going wild ...attacking a wan ...soon the gorilla come behind my window/wall...it was like a sliding door...soon I see a huge bear attacking the wan...I can not now see the gorilla...the bear have now come behind this sliding door wall/window.....I told my sister to look because she did not believe me...I told her to only open the sliding door very little...but she opens it wide open...the bear starts to rise upp...and the gorilla comes from the right and try to grip my hand....I awoke here in distress..