29/Apr/2012: Groundhog Day (Movie) In The Portal
29/Apr/2012
Groundhog Day (Movie) In The Portal
Opening remarks: The last lucidventure from a week ago really haunted me in a way. It felt like unfinished business and I don't like unfinished business. So I did a lot of affirmations and imprinting of "Punin" and "I bring the kids home", etc.
I even googled this video during my research last week. I watched it over and over again to make a visual imprint of the area. And just btw, isn't it rather strange that such a video of a guy transporting some kids with a bike in Punin exists, huh??? Yes, I know well that I will have go to an astral version of Punin and not the RTZ, but visualisation is useful anyway.
I decided I want to and can do this 'retrieval' or whatever 'test' it is (Be it 'real' or not - it's a test anyway, and the test is 'real' indeed). I wanted to do this and still want to. Problem is that I did not manage to do any kind of exit so far since then, didn't even come close. Tonight I took, almost in an act of desperation, Galantamine and B-Vitamins again. Here's what happened:
I exited ouf of my bed in my Astral Portal 4 times. The process almost repeated itself all the time. It felt like the Groundhog Day movie, going through it over and over again, but with slight variations. The visuals were always bad and shady. Two times, however, I could not see a lot, especially when I flew out of the window I was blind again. One time it felt like I had bandages or some kind of medical tape on my lower legs (from the feet up to the knee) of which I had to get rid first by unstrapping them, losing precious time thereby.
One time, I asked for a helper and a hand held my left arm (nothing unusual, though), but nothing really decisive happened. I forgot to try that technique for gaining vision which I was taught before by my guides.
My greatest problem, however, was to remember what I wanted to do. I had forgotten my target. I was fighting hard to recapture my memory, really hard, because I KNEW it was important. It is so frustrating to leave half of one's mind behind. So I was hovering there outside and tried and kept talking to myself 'I wanted to do sth imporant ... remember .. it was .... what was it .. it had to do with ... er ... well ... what?'
During the last of the 4 exits I must have made some progress as I remembered it had to do sth with kids. I then flew down into the garden. In this garden (still all was very dusky) I saw beautiful flowers that are not there in the physical. I don' even know if they exist in this world. Most of them were giant violet flowers, some with giant white petals.
Then I was in bed the 5th time and I finally remembered that I wanted to help 'retrieve' the kids and bring them to Punin. It was too late though. I now felt my physical body in my physical bed and woke up. Before that, still in half-sleep, upon forcedly waking up I told myself: "I won't give up. Tonight another try, and then another, and another.... I will make it. I did it before with Ronald. And I made a promise now. Sooner or later I won't fail."
Comments / Afterthoughts
Well, at least the flowers were quite nice. :|
03/May/2012: The Light-Umbrella-Lady And The Graveyard
03/May/2012
The Light-Umbrella-Lady And The Graveyard
First I was unlucid in my lightportal with bright lights and there was a little flooding with water coming out of tubes in the walls. I then was in the living room downstairs, with hazy light at night again, and talked to a guy who seemed frustrated with his workplace (and told me he cannot pay any 'parking tickets'). I also seemed frustrated a bit as I had dreamt before about an old love of mine and told him about it.
Then he was gone and I became lucid. I decided to fly out of the window and reach Punin or the kids (yeah, I had not forgotten about it this time). Everything happened at night. I was in a city and asked some people if they knew where the lost kids were? I even asked in Spanish (assuming I might be in Punin already), they understood me but most did not answer coherently.
Then there is a memory gap. Still at night, I was in a park with a wide avenue or alley with trees. Again I asked some of the people but no real answer came from most of them.
Then I met a nice lady (middle aged, ca. 45-55 years) with an umbrella (folded and used as a stick) who came walking towards me. I asked her if she could help me to find the kids I am supposed to help and she was nice and smiled. I don't know what she answered but she then pointed at my head and said that sth was not right with my left eye-lid. She said she could help. Before I could react at all, she, always with a smile, backed up a little, hold up her umbrella with tip pointed towards me head. Then I remember a white light. I then told her to wait and said 'no, I have not time for this'. Then she was gone again.
I looked around as I was still in the same area and noticed while looking around me that behind me on the left (later also on the right) that there was a graveyard which I had not seen before. Nothing intimidating though, it even looked nice, like a park.
Then a tall man (possibly over 2 metres high, any basketball team would gladly accept him) came up to me. He resembled a buddy of mine from school but I then quickly realised it was not him. I asked him then if he could help me to find the kids or get to Punin. He said 'yes'.
However, he then entered a smaller part of the graveyard, different from mine. I had to climb on a little wall (ca 1 metre in height) in order to access his section of the cemetery. I remained sitting on this wall though, also did a deepening method by looking at my hands since I felt that my time might soon be up again. (Unfortunately I was right!). The tall guy kept on talking but I did not understand a single word he said. The only thing I understood was his first 'yes' and the sth about 'grave' in another word compound (gravine, grabine, graveen...). Then I blinked out and immediately awoke in my physical bed.
Comments / Afterthoughts
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZSNyiSetZ8Y
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