GRATITUDE LIST

-finding my interview paper for benefits date and seeing it's timed perfectly for after therapy on the same day which is perfect time to bring my note as well
-M's thoughtfulness
-going to the pool today
-my new shirt i wore for the first time today and how good it looked on me
-healthy digestion
-sleep
-all the cats that come by the house and how nice that is
-soda
-having a nice body
-praise
-getting more positive looks since getting my tan
-finding out we are going shopping tomorrow
-the fireworks i see just being outside
-stopping to get sweet potato fries i was craving at the vegan restaurant I like that M liked as well
-my style
-shopping
-fashion
-getting my first article for new venture started complete and how good that felt
-learning how to edit a post from mine and business partner's website and how great and fun that felt
-deep cleansing breaths
-M saying she bought me bug spray and it's in the mail and that it's natural
-meditation
-ashwagandha
-doing a little visualization at the end of my meditation
-M saying we might go to my favorite place in the U.S this christmas and that she will look up ticket prices soon
-the 2nd eyelash curler i tried working nicely
-techno music
-headphones
-flashlights
-water
-my flexibility
-yoga
-pronoia

-cleaning my room and organizing more stuff
-tea
-things feeling back to normal again with M and her husband and tension i felt feeling gone
-M taking me shopping yesterday and that it made me even forget it was the 4rth of july for some time
-realizing i can have plans that aren't going to a firework show on the 4th and still have a good fourth of july and that in a way,i was just stuck in a rut even with that all those years and didn't even realize it
-seeing fireworks in the sky in the neighborhood that looked nice
-the cats that come to the yard and how cute they are
-my kindness
-my beauty
-yoga pants
-getting my awesome wall decal in the mail today
-feeling content now about my birthday
-the awesome fourth of july cake slice i had and how good it was
-soda
-water
-sleep
-meditation
-my mandala coloring book
-relaxation
-having the house to my self for some time today
-M seeming nicer to me lately
-eating at the cheesecake factory yesterday and it being much better then i expected and eating all vegan
-sweet potato fries
-booking two jobs today,one of them on my birthday and being ok with working on my birthday.i used to never do so,but now i think it's good to break out of ruts and that good things can come from it
-catching up on all the phone calls i needed to catch up on today and seeing all is fine with my food card,and that my eyeglasses have shipped and will only take about two weeks now
-stretches
-healthy digestion
-coffee
-writing out my goals for the next two months and how goo that felt
-makeup
-beauty products
-M putting money on my card so i can monthly bill i have

-goals
-hope
-beauty
-having a toned lower body
-doing the cycling class and then yoga class last night and how good it felt to sweat and then open my body
-having a massage tomorrow
-that M can bring me to work tomorrow
-the cats that come to the yard
-meditation
-prayer
-my strength
-sweet potato fries
-nightskies
-my kindness
-coffee
-sweets
-the other night,just for a moment,feeling the magic of life,or a flicker of it at least
-mouthwash
-going to therapy today
-getting the doctor's note and then exemption today that prevents my benefits from being interfered with and what a stress release that was
-stretches
-learning new yoga poses i can do
-taking things one day at a time and how good that feels and how present,and open and spontaneous that feels and even more secure and adventurous
-deep cleansing breaths
-pronoia and surrender
-fashion
-being given a little bit of money today
-coconut oil
-that my eyes seem to be changing appearance again and becoming clearer and as if they have flecks of a different color as well in the irises
-the nightlight in my room
-smiling
-getting an invite out even though it's something i can't do
-being able to see the law of attraction in effect
-my face looking young

-getting a massage today
-getting tension released from my neck from the massage
-my eyes
-my strength
-the cats that come to the yard
-a nice meditation session today
-ashwagandha
-having a young looking face
-makeup
-coffee
-blankets
-having a moment of prescence and reflection while at the yoga studio in a trendy item i had wanted before and reflecting on manifestation of being in that moment
-the yin yoga session i did tonight and how good that felt
-getting more things organized
-ginger candies
-vegan pizzas
-becoming interested in eating cleaner again
-inspired ideas
-M giving me money since i have to find my own way to work tomorrow
-waking up earlier
-that my mom wants to see me on my birthday
-my beauty
-newness
-positive transformation and learning and growing
-deep cleansing breaths
-the universe and God
-prayer
-chakra solfeggios and theta musics
-headphones
-that business partner is going to pay for our business cards
-doing a little reading today

-going to work today
-doing another anxiety challenge and mastering this step that i've been working on. today was an uber to my job.
-uber just happening to have that sale this week
-taking a yoga class today
-vegan food
-yoga and how much more into i havebeen becoming lately
-the sun
-my sunglasses
-craving eating cleaner
-tea
-water
-ice
-ginger candy
-the moon
-nightskies
-inspiring someone today on the uber ride who cried and says she never does that while on the job and said she loves me and that i'm angel when i gave her some important words she needed to hear without meaning to
-goals and inspiration
-compliments
-my strength
-people saying happy birthday to me
-my femininity
-earning money
-deep cleansing breaths
-chakra solfeggio and thetas musics
-thoughtful touches M sometimes has such as bringing me protein today in my mason jar when just the night before she asked why do i have them and i said because i used to use them in my apartment for protein drinks,fruit smoothies,and lemon water and loved them in the mason jars and her waiting to go to bed until i got out of shower just to tell me the washer is now free since she knew i was waiting to use it,and then waking up to see she switched my clothes into the dryer for me.

-deep cleansing breaths
-ashwagandha
-cats
-yoga
-coffee
-M taking me shopping and to dinner yesterday
-vegan food
-the sun
-cupcakes
-feeling drawn to give up soda soon and like it'd be good for me and actually very easy to do
-having money
-getting what i want
-fashion
-my style
-my dentist appointment coming up soon
-my new desk in my room
-my bed
-my pillows
-my laptop im using
-naps
-people seeming excited by my presence and wondering where i had been at my last yoga class
-my beauty
-yoga pants
-ice cold water
-tea
-no work tomorrow or for the next few days
-cool new things to try
-reflective meditative insights
-chakra solfeggios and theta musics
-friendly people
-appreciation
-seeing everything works out
-meeting my goals
-donkey kicks exercises
-walking
-becoming more competant with things related to my anxiety and the sense of pride it makes me feel
-feeling secure
-feeling abundant
-ginger candies

-new clothes and makeup
-getting more things organized
-techno music
-getting some work done today
-ice cubes
-water
-my new desk
-sleep
-naps
-cats
-my caring heart
-my beauty
-looking like a model
-getting a follow up on a free hair color appointment
-yoga
-yoga pants
-sweets
-great deals
-vitamins
-my meds
-finding things i was looking for
-becoming more confident in my competency
-coffee
-healthy digestion
-meditation
-the mirror in my room
-getting room cleaned and bed in a new spot yesterday
-mouthwash
-vegan food
-getting a lot done today
-no work tomorrow
-another anxiety challenge or two to do this week
-that this month has been smoother then last month so far
-summer time
-night skies
-ideas
-eye massage
-my phone
-my phone charger
-pillows
-fashion
-relaxation
-shopping
-breaks
-feeling my feelings
-nurturing
-gratitude
-learning
-being smart

-yoga
-weight going down today
-soda pop
-deep cleansing breaths
-water
-ice cubes
-getting my glasses today finally and how great it feels
-doing my anxiety challenge today and how well it went
-getting a ride home from dad's house today which was so great
-great deals
-my brother's cat and how sweet he is
-compassion
-getting a response for a haircut
-my new desk
-yoga pants
-socks
-goals
-getting products for that time of the month bought for me
-my cheekbones
-having a nice glow to my skin
-my beauty
-being smart
-lavender
-having a good day today
-how great's my 2nd business's website is looking and getting excited for doing that work again
-my poise
-practicing the art of slowing down
-contentment
-music

-deciding to let go of control a little and become a little more detached
-looking good
-my cheekbones
-my style
-fashion
-my big(for me) decision to give up soda starting next week since my intuiton has beentelling me it's literally the main thing that keeps my diet from being clean and giving that up would heal/detox and connect the dots for everything else with my diet goals,as if the soda is the last thing that really needs to be done(and had been the thing i was most resistant and yet now it feels so easy)and will help all the other parts come together more easily by doing that
-water
-ice cubes
-consideration
-rest
-M's friend from the gym giving me a birthday card
-tea
-lavender
-makeup
-my new eyeglasses
-my weight going down and seeing meds definitely weren't affecting weight
-meditation
-buying myself a cool peacock eyepillow from etsy last night
-staying in the moment and surrendering
-getting things organized
-getting a lot done
-great music
-having a sexy body
-the nightlight in my room
-my awesome new desk
-scalp massage
-jaw exercises
-changing my profile picture on my main email account after realizing the picture could symbolize disconnection and I've had it for a few years and have felt more disconnected the last few years and want something more cheery
-the amazing vegan burrito i had today
-socks
-gratitude
-that this month is more in flow then the last month
-yin yoga

-the really hot guy from about a month ago at the yoga studio coming by and flirting with me. At first he waved then came in looking for my boss and i suspected he must like her and just let go,a bit disappointed and then he came back for one of the services and after talked with me for a few minutes and seemed to be flirting and also like he came out of his service early to talk with me.i got the vibe he did like my boss but avoided talking about her and said twice two things about how things are great now,and now summer is great as if he was referring to me. it was subtle but something about him just keeps me thinking about him every time i see him. i blushed and was fidgety during the chatting. he asked again about when i'm there and even seemed to remember my name when he had come back. he said he forgot,and asked me to repeat it but before he did he said the first part of it.which is remembering far better then me.
-feeling relaxed
-coffee
-my meds
-being on day one of taking one day off per week of drinking soda
-rest
-my book i've been reading growing on me and even somehow making me emotional
-yin yoga,which i swear seems to be making me slightly more in the flow with things since doing it the last few days
-surrender
-water
-ice cubes
-weight going down
-my beauty
-fashion
-having a nice body
-ashwagandha
-lavender
-tea
-cats
-my kind heart
-M's husband getting out of work early and picking me up on time
-getting more job offers today
-a beautiful new photo from recent job
-makeup
-getting cover of recent project chosen and how stunning it is
-my mandala coloring book
-getting a first draft done on new article i'm working on
-my femininity
-learning again how often i'm wrong when i assume the worst
-newness
-the new people i've been meeting lately
-ideas
-goals
-my ambition
-my favorite italian sunglasses
-security
-abundance
-letting go
-beauty