30/Jun/2012: Elementaries? Fairies? Cute 'Negs'? Or What?
30/Jun/2012
Elementaries? Fairies? Cute 'Negs'? Or What?
I had the usual to-and-fro-show tonight with a lot of projections into exit blindness, with hands helping me, oftentimes grabbing me at the wrists, sometimes hard, but hey ... I had asked for help so I didn't complain. As said it always ended up in exit blindness, then back to bed and another try, this happened a few times.
It was two helpers this time. Then at one time they seemed to be sorry for grabbing me too hard and caress me then over the same spot on my arm - as if to say sorry, that was actually very sweet (I still was blind so it's all about sensations). So I know they wanted to help (at least help me „out“) and were helpful, harmless beings who appeared friendly, probably even fond of me.
Another time, when one of them took my hand I noted that the inner palm of their hands was somehow a little 'hairy', but not entirely, just the middle. This made me suspicious. Do I deal with astral apes this time? It might have been, however, also just wrong tactile interpretations. My own palm area in the middle is highly energetic, so probably my etheric/astral body's palm, too, therefore I don't know for sure what I felt.
Then, I had enough after 3-4 unsuccessful exits and no affirmations working to get vision. Also all the time I kept speaking affirmations for 1. vision and 2. to meet my HS, but it did not help. So I asked them if I should really concentrate hard now on seeing them this time before they lift me up again. From both 'helpers' I heard sth like „yes“ or „u-huh“ (as exclamation for the affirmative). Both were male voices. And again ... I really 'heard' them, just like I had heard Gálaca speaking to me before.
Then it finally works. I am in the lighted portal (as usual) and see my two helpers, happy to find they were human-looking, after all. They first looked like some old buddies or school mates, then they changed shape, smiling at me and appearing happy all the time. It was as if they suddenly sensed what I probably 'wanted' (?) them to look like. However, their change might have taken place only after I remarked on their looks (e.g. I said to one: „Hey, you look a little like an old school buddy of mine“).
So then they looked like attractive females. I ask them for their names. One is a blonde one and she rattled off a longer name which was however not processable at all for me. It sounded Spanish somehow. I heard a syllable -ira- and thus decided to call her „Ira“ (and no, it wasn't Sinera, btw!).
Then I turned to the other beauty who had darker hair. She seemed to be posing a little as I looked at her, waving her arm in the air in an act of vanity, but all very likeable, and well ... yes, ... sweet. She said she is called „Pshirr“ or so. This is just my attempt of an adequate phonetic transposition of this word into written English. I don't remember more of it, maybe I faded out of it again.
Comments / Afterthoughts
So far I haven't dealt with negs intellectually. By this I mean that I never read at length any threads or books on negs or psychic self-defense. I do however know about some basic precautionary protection stuff (e.g. crystals, affirmations, positive attidude), etc. That does not mean that I did not have neg encounters in projections or dreams (nightmares) before, at all. I did, but they hardly ever frightened me, to be honest. Also the extent is almost entirely negligible when compared to the amount of my neutral or positive lucidventures. It is also one of my strategies of preventing negative experiences by not giving them too much thought. So far, it works, mostly.
:thumbsup:
In this case, if they were negs at all, it is the kind I'd actually would like to meet once in a while. ;) However, I assume them to be above all so-called 'elementaries' of the astral or even of my own creation, which is highly likely. I remember Korpo writing sth about elementals as equivalent to animals that are our own more or less controlled aspects created by desires and passions from astral matter, iirc?
And maybe there is a reason why this happened now: Recently, I had also some astral sex experiences in a 'vivid' dream as well as in a projection a few days later. I did not want it consciously then, but the astral body or some aspects seem to be quite of a force sometimes. (No, I did not write about it here and I won't :oops:;)).
Maybe this created or attracted these fairy-kind beings that turned into helpers and tried to please me now? They were so happy and delighted when I finally saw them. They were certainly also shape-/gender-shifters as they had male voices before I saw them and also other appearance before I remarked on it. They really seemed keen on not only helping me but even pleasing me somehow. They seemed respectful or even a bit afraid of me. All in all they appeared to be of a rather harmless nature.
Besides, their elementary and probably "animallike" nature might already have been 'sensed' by me in blind state by the 'hairy palm'?
I am currently reading also Franz Bardot's IIH and just yesterday evening read what he wrote about what he calls astral elementaries. Maybe that's not a coincidence now? As his work is available online, too, here's the quote of the relevant passage. Note that he or the translator calls these astral entities 'elementaries' and not 'elementals', which are according to Bardon their "higher equivalent" on the Mental plane. Or are they even 'larvae' also described here? I hope not, because that sounds more problematic to me:
Quote:
"Besides, the astral plane is inhabited by many other beings of which I am mentioning only some species here. There are to so-called elementaries, entities with one or only very few qualities, according to the dominant vibrations of the elements. They are living on the similar vibrations proper to man and transmitted by him into the astral plane. Among them, there are some which have already reached a certain degree of intelligence, and some magicians are using these low-powered beings for their selfish purposes. Another kind of being is the larvae, which have been brought into life consciously or unconsciously, by intense sensorial thinking, through the astral matrix. They are not real beings, but only forms thriving on the passions of the animal world, on the lowest step of the astral level. Their instinct of self-preservation carries them into the sphere of those men whose passions are responsive to them. They will try, directly or indirectly, to raise and kindle the passions slumbering in man. If these forms are succeeding in seducing men to give in to their suitable passion, they are feeding and thriving on the emanation of this passion produced in man. Man laden with many passions will attract a host of such larvae in the lowest sphere of his astral plane. A great fight takes place and, in the problem of magic, this fact plays an important role. More about it is to be founding the chapter dealing with introspection. There are also other elementaries and larvae, which can be produced in the artificial magic way." - Franz Bardon, IIH
What baffles me is that this happens occasionally exactly when I make affirmations for my Higher Self. Why that? This is definitely not my HS. It's not the first time that a semi-erotic encounter then takes place instead. See my encounter with Galaca and or the „sexy Higher Self“.
I am a bit disappointed as I feel this 'elementary' stuff is keeping me from spiritual development. I cannot imagine meeting my HS means having sexual encounters. I also always thought that the "Lightportal" is my kind of 'inner sanctum' that cannot be trespassed by lower-vibratory energy or entities. But who knows, maybe it's all about learning experiences. Anyway, I decided that from now on I will do my exits 'alone' without any helping hands.