Thanks Ista, for this wonderful practical advice and help, i think i can do that 'staring thing' you mention toofor sure I think so, not neccessarily but naturally as you both have become energetically such a close union. And anyway it takes time, i think somehow on both sides. Now after 5 years I only dream-meet my Aticat very rarely, cause I did/could let go, but in the first years I did regularily focus-exercises to connect me to him in the other world. Best way for me was this *gazing/peering*-technique, also described by Don Juan in Carlos Castanedas books, just looking without focus into the dark, being silent/meditative inside and without wanting to "see" anything. Our other animals in the house (who were missing Ati as well) did very often kind accompanie me sitting in the backyard, even sometimes somehow "showing" me that now is a good time and energy to go gazing+connecting, that was very mystical and comforting for me as well.
Yesterday was fun, i was having fun with the dogs, being active (for once!) in the house / garden and as a little grey clothes moth came flying out of somewhere within my room , my voice sang. said peapoose
This is just one of the many, many different names Tod, our dog was given by me and the kids..
Later that day i saw another exact same moth in the garden and my voice 'blurted out' PEAPOOSE.... ahahaha !
so i don't know what connection Tod has to 'clothes moths'...... but i do know as children our house would often get clothes moths living, nesting and eating our clothes, carpets and curtains...
This was well before Tod was born, 20 yrs or so.....
Anyway i was delighted to hear myself call out one of Tod's 'nicknames' and it allowed me to find slightly more peace with the situation of losing Tod.....
XX thanks Istia xx
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