All this touching and making funny is just the collective unconscious your own vs 'the' way. It's true, you are IN or OUT of the consensus reality. Depends what you believe in. Is the world, the way you want things, or are you happy with the whole truth that you do instead? I have been going through this sort of thing myself - so I am just describing a fork in the road that I noticed.

Personally I think the world is a little too strict about judgement and morality right now, on an unconscious level... So in my own life I am leading the truth a little more proactively in the real direction i want for me.

Golden light meditation has been great for the entity issues, in the mean time.