Hello Mr. Bruce,

A little on my background. I read your book, Astral Dynamics, a few years ago. I took to the exercises like a duck to water. I was using your methodologies, Hemi-Sync, and I was utilizing guided imagery meditation daily. My first meditative experience took me to the vibrational state, and when I utilized your NEW methods I had an experience so intense I didn't know if I was safe to continue. With fairness, I used your methods immediately on the major chakra systems. I had some knowledge, and didn't read through completely to your warnings of safe progression. I jumped right in and had an intense first ride! It did not take me long to have an out of body experience. I woke up with an unusual whoosing sensation, took the opportunity to induce trance, used a pendulum exit method, and was out! It was very exciting and fulfilling. But, then things got pretty bad...
I was starting to see things. At first it was simply motes of light. Similar to the little tricks of the eye you can see when you stare at a bright pocket of sky for too long. But these little motes became clearer and clearer to my perceptions. Finally, they looked completely physical to me. They would cloud around my legs when I would go to bed at night. When they came close, I could feel them touch my skin, and they would occasionally darken the space in front of my closed eye vision. Similar to the sensation of someone waving their hands in front of your closed eyelids. It got to the point that I could see these things flying around, and feel them when they would choose to touch me. Similar to mosquito's... I also saw other apparitions, cloud like entities, I could FEEL their intentions. It wasn't just what I perceived, but what I could FEEL their nature to be that was so intense and unnerving. I could speak to this at length, but I won't at this point in time.
Trying to meditate, even sleep at night, became difficult. These cloudings corresponded with prickling and an intense heat that made me feel preyed upon. I used many of your methods back then.... My feet felt the worst. Like needles driven into my feet. Literally near the intensity of a physical knife. It was worse in my right foot, bad in my left as well, corresponding to the same anatomical position. Also, these interferences corresponded with an unusual scalp sensation and the feeling that I was sharing my space with another awareness. Like my consciousness was melding with something else, and something else was there with me.
Most of the sensations that I used to feel, my auditory and visual perceptions have diminished to what I would call normal. "Did I just see something in the corner of my eye? Probably not...." The only thing that remains is the occasional weird scalp sensations and the foot pains. I haven't trained in years. I was projecting, having awesome experiences, inducing full trance, FEELING my energy body, experiencing beauties and perceiving the world in wonderful ways. I could see and feel the energies of the world in wondrous ways, and doors were opening. I have FORCED myself to go back to 'normal.' I can live with the foot cramps now. I don't WANT to see things prey upon me and be able to do nothing. I don't want to feel powerless. I don't want to sleep with salt in my socks or leave the lights on, or any other unusual ritual that hinders my ability to have a social life. If I was to ever go back to that state that I was in, what might I be giving a girl that shares my bed?

I still feel an intense desire to travel. I want to pick up again my daily admonitions, and begin training to see where my potentials truly lie. I won't go back to where I was though. Truly, I don't feel that I am truly out of the woods. I have only allowed my perceptions to be blunted.

Is there a way to pick up my practices again, to begin again with NEW, and not become a feeding ground for whatever it was that I had become? A way to protect myself? Or is it a choice of walking around blind and dulled, or again an active adventurer that went through what I was going through with only simple home remedies that seem to work in the immediate, but not completely, and only in the acute phase of episode? Thanks in advance for your assistance.

Instead of acquiring athletes foot and grabbing a bottle of Tinactin....I would rather not walk barefoot in the locker room.

Brandon