A beautiful lady with tons of curses

[Tutor]

friend,

all food from without for thought, fuels the fire of our thoughts within. let us endeavor to keep fire from getting 'out of hand'. as smokey the bear said to my particular childhood's generation, "it's not nice to play with fire".

fire's partner is water, though all too often we do not heed fire's derirous ways, and water comes in the form of regretful tears. balance is a partnership freed from regret

rightfully so, one is but a candle flame in the winds of time. beyond that is flight of fancy and fear drawn to it. of moths that slowly and silently consume the fabric of our lives. yet, did we not naked arrive, and will we not nakedly return?

but, this understood rightly so, can aid in one's purposeful unclothing of what is not them true self being, or to say, true being is always naked, as it eternally rests before our naked eyes as innocent seen/scene.

beyond that is personal individual filtering which clouds and clothes the eyes found disabled of a sight causally deep within blinded of the effects within out-lying shallow reflectivity.

but then one must ask themself, what is water without but that which has from us become polluted, and thus polluted also requiring of filtration toward the inner pure lake of our resolving thirst's drink.

never is an answer without question. there are no maxims of thought toward finality of thought. merely they beg for deeper questioning, a depth which is as the height, having no end in-SIGHT.

therefore, why do we allow what thoughtfully feeds us to also define us. are we not that which ever is the center, always remaining to BE? ahh, there be innocence on it's knees, wailing toward god's mercy for grace to rain down upon fires freely set within the drought of our co-forgetfulness.

i pray you, these latter rains...friend, before the tears of life's dis-course find you wanting. may grace be yours

drain the inner lake of pure waters out into the life. all of us are found wanting and thirsty.

be well...friend.

an additional thought: so here we all are, standing before us the grand opening. we are in need of "live musicians" (as opposed to dead ones?). i actually borrow that line from a friend's/mentor's email this afternoon. food for thought

[alphadracooverlord]

Thank you for your wise words tutor. Do you ever wonder why your nick is tutor?

Someone called me recently I got a very feminine cold sensation in the root chakra. I got a bit worried so I asked the father in heaven to remove the call log of that call and it got removed.

Currently it almost feels like I'm in the spirit world if you know what I mean. I don't longer feel like I'm in the physical.

[alphadracooverlord]

The thing I ask who do you trust the most?

The will
The psychic
The counselor
The ruler

My eyes now look like a womans eyes but in a good way... Unbelievable.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xW1lkjfCTgg

[Tutor]

no i do not have to wonder of "tutor". i was born two years after my older brother. my brother was born, for better of for worse, with limited capacities...well compared to our social norms, for he to me is my hero...always. however, in the process of my having been born "normal" as it were, i inadvertantly became a force tethered to him, pulling him into the "norms", this by example and by my god given tenacious (often mean) enterprizing. bad side of this story, is that this was cause for him resenting me through much of our life. this however came to an end some, gosh...coming up on 7 years, during my divorce from a 20 year marriage, and the subsequent loss of everything we'd worked toward in that marriage's blinding pursuit of the american dream.

so there i sat, wallowing in profound self-indignation and self-pity, crying like a baby, snot running out my nose taboot. my older brother by my side, also started crying, as he recognized that I, whom he'd always resented as that which could normally go out and build a world, sat in the midst of my bitter limiting ends, all gone in the blink of eye. he said to me, "tim, i've always resented you for easily being able to do what i couldnt seem to do, and for that i am truly sorry, I love you Tim."

up until those beloved releasing brotherly words, i had held this "me", this god damned "tutor", as a bonafide curse upon myself, this because my brother had so little to give as per the often viciously represented norms always cast at his feet to remind him that he was abnormal.

finally, god granted me my above and beyond normal Big Brother, wherein love is all ya got when everything else falls down around your vain persuasions of forgetfulness chasing an unachievable dream - happiness.

aye, it were my brother all along that had been, and still is my Tutor. for myself it is merely a moniker of wishful thinking, that i might one day, by the example of my big brother, also be above and beyond "normal".

I trust in the Lord, for as a man i cannot trust what within myself, being without certainty, is unknown to me.

[alphadracooverlord]

Ok, myself I was a bit unlucky but at the same time lucky. I'm the only son in my family... I have neither a sister or brother but I have realised that there are sisters, brothers, sons, daughters, fathers and mothers everywhere.

[alphadracooverlord]

http://www.imdb.com/media/rm51416832/tt0346491
http://www.imdb.com/media/rm1085184/tt0346491

I would say 90% identical but Angelina Jolie has been in plastic surgery and the lady I'm talking about is more natural.

About the time I forgave her my butt cheeks got loose. I have got complaints that my butt is too stiff. I've had this since my childhood. LOL. My sexual organ has gotten bigger after it has been too retreated after I felt a cold stimulation in that area.

I feel somehow that belief shapes your looks. Does it sound crazy? I feel like sometimes everything I think becomes reality and I'm talking dead serious.

This is the typical behaviour of my mother. She is looking at me all the time.

http://www.imdb.com/media/rm303075072/ch0031488

Ok so there are two kinds, those with glowing eyes and those with dark eyes sometimes combined with chinese eyes.

[alphadracooverlord]

I have gotten it confirmed that it is a sorcery war. It's black vs protection.

But I have this one on my side confirmed.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Curse_of_the_pharaohs

I'm going to try to burn the curse now with sun, moon triaxel rotation, light chamber sarcophagus and fire.