I was happy about the Dream where I saw the open fire in the stove....as I see it as the inner fire what I have thought was gone....I have had now several Dreams where both men and women try to awake my sexual fire...as last night I was in Company of a very Beautiful women...she wanted me to feel her breasts...not bare but over her clothings...I told her that I am very flattered she want me to feel her...but I have no decire or want to do so....and I apologized for me being so totally not interested.....

I feel that my grief is so Deep that it has burried all fire in me so Deep....I need time to grief...really grief....