In last night dream I had my childhood abuser and the fear of him is still the same....when I did see him I run indoors and locked the door...everywhere I went I saw him and my panic did increse...he did just follow me or stand and watching me...but when I started to hollow for help he did a move to shut me down....so ...what I got from this was....as far as I keep my mouth shut he will not attack...but if I will get help and expose him he will harm me.