IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was in a forest glade...I was invited to a party...a huge cake with coffee and other trities....I said...I have to have 2 hair....there was a women with red hair...I asked if she can give me 2 hair...No she said...okay I said...I take my own...and I tried to take 2 hairs but did not succeed....I really worked hard...but was not able to divide to only 2 hairs???

[IA56]

In last night dream I had a man whom I know from the beginning of the 2000...he is still in debt ...in the dream he wanted to give me healing...(only that I give him money) ...I did not feel a thing...and I told him that I do not have any money to give him....here I awoke...

[IA56]

In last night dream I was meeting up with an ex boyfriend...he appologized to me for not bean able to control himself in our relationship...so appologized accepted.

[IA56]

In last night dream I was going into a house...but before I reached the house I met a huge black dog...it was pitch black outside so first I had difficulty to see the dog...I felt it first...and my body reacted with fear but my mind was at ease and this did surprise me...first time I feel mind being separated from my body awearness....I sat on the porch and was wondering what the dog will react to...to my body or mind...and I was surprised that it was not the body...if it had bean it had attaced me....so I let the dog smell me and it was calm and all was good...I was able to in peace to enter my house....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was with a man...and we where to a pond...with very dark and murky water...down in the depths was some kind of creature...he wanted me to look at it...but I did not dare...he put his face under the water and looked...but he did not want to tell me what it was...so I never looked down into the water....

In this episode I was with people and they wanted me to see something...instantly I felt so high fear that I closed my eyes and never opened them...I had seen a glimse of a creature ...and I knew that it will spin very high speed but I was afraid something bad happens to me....so like a child I held my eyes closed and nothing bad happened...but I do not know what the creature was and for what it´s spinning was creating....

[IA56]

In last nights dream I was in my appartament and I felt something from the door into my appartament....I felt the door was not locked...so I put one hand on the handle and the other hand to the lock and I felt very strong energy blocking me from locking my door...the energy was so strong that I felt instantly huge fear...so deep fear that I woke up and was not able to go to sleep again...the fear gave me such an energy ruch so I am totally awake ....more awake then I have felt in months....

In this episode I was whipped on my behind I said ...Now my behind cracked...when I looked on the floor it was covered in blood.....

[IA56]

In last night dream I got a envelope given to me by a man...he had police with him and they make notes....I asked what is it about...and when I read the note...it was a crime done by people I do not even know...but they tried to force this on me...and the man tried me to take another note...he forced it in my hand...but I did not close my hand to take it...I said...I do not take this...I have nothing to do with it...and the police make notes...and they left me....??

[IA56]

In last night dream I had 3 cat´s and a ram....???They where abondenet in a old barn...it was a grey cat, black and ginger cat....the ram was white....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was in a math class...we had to calculate first plane and then - 0,2 and + 0,2....I am bad in math so I was concerned how to do this...then I noticed that the caldulater I had had this -0,2 and +0,2 in the calculator so then I felt ...I can do this...and felt better and my angziety vanisched....

Had a feeling that this class was to increase my selfconfidence....

[IA56]

The last days dreams has bean totally impossible to put in words....so I have bean pondering when the opening will come for me to get a hunch about the content of the dreams...so this night I got some understanding....the dream was like this...I was waiting for some help...and the help come by a boat...huge...I was so happy to be invited into this big boat...I felt saved...but what happened was that this big boat did not care what happened to the other small boats...they did squeezing and drowning the small boats and did not care what happened to them...I felt that I had made a wrong choice...and I did not want to be on this big boat even if it did save my life...but what kind of life will I have to have so many others lives on my mind and knowing what happened to them...so this did show me that we never can be sure the outcome of our choices...even if we think we make a good choice...it may show to be the most wrong choice of them all....I feel awful today. and feel so unsecure and fear to make any choices at all in my life....first I was luored into feel good about myself and now this...to take me down totally...how to built stabillity and better secure about making choices...because that is what the life is about...making choices and taking responsicillity of them.