IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

The night before last I did dream that I was smoking...I did react very strongly when I did notice this in the dream, and I looked around in what company I was in.,..and I did notice that it was some kind of test, or I got that feeling at least...so even I did wonder why I did smoke I did continue and finnished the cigarett and then I looked around and I was in company of 2 women and 3 men...now the did give me a glass with somekind of liqued but it was with some white smolke in and I got the feeling it might be somekind of tablett in water...I did be suspisious but I tasted it and I said...it taste like medicin...and I asked...are you trying to drug me?? I looked around the people but couldn´t tell what it was...so I said...I choose to trust you...now they went away and only one men stayed and he invited me to follow him home to his place...he said...I have 2 bottles of vodka ...now I did stop him and I said very firmly...you must know one thing...I do not drink alcohol at all....so here I did notice that I am totally sure about my feeling about alcohol but seam not to be as clear about cigaretts yet...so this tells me that I have some crawings left for sertain substances......okay....the work continues off course....never ending task

I woke this morning when hearing me saying...The Christenergy is it what must be understood.

[IA56]

The wierdest thing happened last night....I woke up screaming and I can´t hear my scream at all...I know I scream all what I have but not a sound can be heard??...I start to say...STOP IT....but the feeling what make´s me scream I can´t say if it is a threat against me and my security....

I can´t say why I have to scream but so much I know that it is so unpleasant or maybe it is so new to me that I can´t know if it is unpleasant but so new that I feel fear and I am afraid it is dangerous,

but I do not know....

I shouted as aloud I could....JESUS help me....JESUS ...and after this I start to say the lords pray....and I say it until I hear my own voice and I am back in my body......but what happened?? where was I..???

In a new body what had not yet developed sound and hearing?? Please help me out here if anyone know´s what I just did experienced, please help me....

and also if anyone know´s the other bodies properties....where no sound can be heard or expressed as in here on earth or the realms what is very earth like in both atmosphere and properties because of you can hear sound and express sound....

so I need to know how should I have done...in this propertie of this body where no sound could be expressed as sound??

Now when I think about it..I need to learn total new approach and thinking when I am in a realm where sound can not be expressed, I need to learn a new way to think in this realm´s..and first I have to know what and where was I??..

I know I should have kept calm and coolness so I could se what all was about...but I lost it in total fear....I need to know more how to traine myself so I can be able to be calm on new realm´s what is so different I am used to be in....so please tell me what you know about the other realm´s properties and the other bodies capasity or what to call it....the other bodies realms being or what for it they are developed to do....anyone who know´s??

[IA56]

I went back to bed and did fell to sleep and did dream this....it is hilarious...

I was looking at a women with a child....like 7-8 months age...she did dress her and put also a cap on her head....I felt the mother was stressed so I said...I can take care of your child so you can cook food better...and she handed the child to me...I did put her on my hip and turned my head away for a sek and look back at the child...and she did not have the cap on her head so I asked...where is your cap...but she did not want to tell me first...but now I saw a bit of the fabrick of the cap in her armpit...and I asked her smiling...did you hide the cap...and she smiled at me and nodded....after a while she did grow up fast...and now she did have got her hair longer and she did have her hair on the forhead so long that it got over her eye´s and I was like looking at her with my mouth open...haha....now I did see her mother taken a shower and had her hair as the child..so I pointed it out to her...I said...look at your mother...you and your mother has the hair in same way....daughter as her mother and we laughed...now she have grew more older and had on her clothes when it is raining...and she did grab me with her legs and squeesed and I said...now I ought to have a tong and she looked at me and with her eyes asked...what would you do with a tong...I said...to pinch your nose so you let go of me....and she did put her hands to cover her nose...haha....it was hilarious and the atmosphere with this child it was light and happy and much fun.

I am happy to get this dream to lighten up the last night dream...I feel happy now....haha...

[IA56]

Last night I dreamt this....


I was in a big university...I was in the crowd in the big hall going to my lecture when suddenly a very good
looking man did grab me by my waist and did lead me off the building....he was talking so much that I
did not first notice that he was not interested in the subject as I was...but I did not let him lead me off the
subject and when he sat me down by a table he had vaniced...and I was now sitting with a women...it did
take few sec for me to understant that what he was trying to do was to see if he could use me as a prostitut..
and when he noticed that I was not sexually intersted in him...he left me with this women...I was telling her
about the voice what made me understand that I have to stop smoking...this was 2003...I was very ill and
couldn´t breath...and the voice said...what use is it to heal you when you do not help yourself at all...so I
stop smoking 23/12 2003...now I lef her and went back to university...I was standing on some long staires top
when I see my aunt comming from the down staires with a suitcase, I know she has bean to hospital and are now going home...and taking an elevator in middle of the staires...I was
so happy to see her...someone did try to stop me...but when I saw the expression on her face I did understand
that she did not want to talk to me.,..so I stopped me and looked at her...and said...okay...you take the elevator
and we talk some other time...she was relived and here the dream stop´s..

I was so sad and dissapointed to notice that men so far in my life has not had any interest in me as a person only how they can use me for theire own purpouses...this hurt´s.

[IA56]

Yesterday I did do a guided meditation, the purpous with the meditation was to be taken to the fires of hell to burn and speed up your karma or what ever you want to call it....and I must say that it did wonder for me....he who did guide was Maha Vajra....so this is what happened when I went to bed to sleep....before I fell to sleep I did see all these neg´s and lower entities who do or did inhabit me...and I by my own force did chase them out so I could go to sleep...the senarios was horrendes...how they eat of our energy and I now for the first time could see clearly what keeps me week and down....I am happy to have a video with this guided meditation so I can repet it as many time´s I need to come back to my strength what has bean kept away from me too long.
I know that time from now on will not be easy, because I am more aware now and can not deny anymore, now I have seen with my own eye´s how bad it is and how much work it will need to be done from my part to cleanse out all what keep´s me down.
I am happy to have all your support, thank you.
I love you all.

[eyeoneblack]

Consider it done. NO ONE CAN KEEP YOU DOWN. I love and support you, dear. Maybe 'one day' is only tomorrow away.

[I shouldn't have said that. Been up too late. Not to say I didn't mean it, or something.]

[IA56]

Consider it done. NO ONE CAN KEEP YOU DOWN. I love and support you, dear. Maybe 'one day' is only tomorrow away.

[I shouldn't have said that. Been up too late. Not to say I didn't mean it, or something.]

Thank you Richard.

Love
ia

[IA56]

Last night in my Dream I did see one good thing of my improvement...I only tell about that....it was like this....I was in a Place with people, and particularly one man did notice me more than other´s....I had an urge to go to bathroom, so I started to go towards the bathroom, and he followed me...he tried to interupt me or as I felt it...give up my own need´s and give him all the attention...so I gentle said...can it wait....he had an very surprising face...he was so sure that I will give him what he need...what was good for me to notice was my calmness and gentleness....I did know for the first time that he was not in any danger or urgent need to have my attention...so he can wait....I feel happy to notice that I am progressin truly...wow...a tap om my own sholder and a high five ...yay!!

[eyeoneblack]

[IA56]

Last night when I come to awarness of my Dream I was in shower..as usual I see my whole body from outside but I talk like I am in my body....I shower but suddenly I hear a Child talking to me...the Child ask´s me if I am born....I feel fear in the child´s voice and this make´s me sad that the Child is afraid of me....the Child is also showering with me but now I am imbarressed and I try to cover my nakedness so I am like standing half away from the Child and I am looking at the Child (I did not be clear if it was a boy or girl it is why I only say Child) I am trying to understand the question....if I am born....my though´s go like...what els can we be...so when I tried to diciffer the code I lost it...and I Went into Another Dream....I was on a boat and lived on it...I was taking care of a girl in a Wheel-chaire...she did complaine how hars her father was against her...and I could see old bruises on her face...they had become grean/yellow...I said...that yes, it is not easy...but I did not want to go deeper into that conversation with her...so I said we go out...and when we go off the boat we meet a women with an suitcase...the new was that I for the first time wanted to check out what is happening...so I told the girl...wait...I want to see what she is going to do...so I Went after her and asked who she is and what is she going to do...she said she is a feet care taker...I said....maybe not many are at home daytime...but feel free and knock on the first cabin door...and the door opened and in she Went...I bended me over to see and I did see her sitting on a low stool and I asked if it Went well...yes she said...and I Went back to the girl in the Wheel-chair....we Went to a café...her friends joined us and while we are sitting and enjoying our self´s...one of the girl´s ask me how long will she live...and I said...wait I have to Close my Eyes and focus...but I was not able to Close my Eyes...so I said to her...this is not allowed for me to ask...I am sorry......

The Dream ended here but I can see improvement in me...that I asked and dared to look more, and not only let everyone do what they do without daring to ask or look what is going on....so I am happy for my new development in me....it is a new boldness or what I would call it....daring to get involved maybe is more right....I take this as a good sighn.