IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

Last night dream I was shown by a man a backgammon play but in Swedish it is called Kina Schack or translated China Chess..it is with marbles in different colorer, at least 2 player but can be up to 6 players if I am not mistaken me, this was the only thing I wanted to play as child.
Then I was shown the text I do not remember so I use xx where the text was .....
xxx 3
xxx 0
xxx 9
When I saw the 0 I reacted and it is why I remember it but do not remember the text before the numbers.

[IA56]

Last night I was with a women, we had water in glass with us...I was so thirsty so I took one glass and started to drink....she saw it and she took the glass from my hand and said it is not for drinking and that it is dangerous ....I looked into the glass and now I saw it was slightly another color then water and it was more heavy and oily...I asked if I shall try to throw it up, so I started to make me throw up...and I did it so hard that I was nearly throwing up for real and I woke up it was so real......
She never told me what it was and why we had it in glass like the real water??...I wonder what it was??

[IA56]

In last night dream I was shown a book cover...it was in black and gold...and it pictured a man in a uniform....and the name started with J......and it was said he was a socialist....
No clue why??

[IA56]

n last night dream I was shown a picture of cross section of a head, those what they have in medical books....I was shown the larynx and vocal chords....and some place on the head what I did not catch the name of...

I understand this to be shown the injuries what I have after a surgery when my thyroid gland was removed the vocal chords was injured...I have had episodes in years when I am total bed bound, horrible head ache...since I have eaten pain killers for years because of my body injuries...I had a episode for 1,5 moths ago...it was so severe that I couldn't take any pain killers only the medicin of thyroid gland hormone since I do not have any gland left....my doctor have hinted that my head ache may be because of the pain killers...I said NO to that because I felt it was not that....now I had to stop eating the pain killers and I got an new episode for 2 week´s ago and now I noticed the flash of lightening...what is very common to migraine.....the pain killers did hide the symptoms of the lightening....I am a bit worried that the severe episodes what I have had in nearly a decade have destroyed some part of my brain....or then this has something to do with some kind of kundalini outbursts I have also had.....I have had up to my heart chakra....and then I have felt like total hard tingle in my whole body....it is like if one foot sleeps, but this in my whole body...very hard buzz and tingle??

[IA56]

Last night dream I come home and noticed that my apartments door was wide open, in my kitchen was my uncle sitting with a baby in his arms...he asked me if I could take care for a moment of his baby, he needed to fill his car with gas....I took the baby in my arms...and I looked him in his eyes and said....do you know that I am your cousin....the baby pondered on my saying...and then I continued...my father is your fathers brother....now the baby looked at my flowers and asked....is those sword lilies....we have two of them...and when I looked at mine I hade like a dozen of them....

In this part of the dream I hear one man say...I can´t hire my own voice....and that made me feel....so you are planning someone other to talk to me with your voice...if it was possible, but why?? I never understood it in the dream why he even was thinking about it??

In this episode I saw 3 men digging a grave, and when I come near them they did put theirs hand to cover they eyes...my light was so bright it blinded them...but they where afraid of me??

In this episode I was shot by a gun.......?? I just hope one of my egotistic side´s was shot to death....

[IA56]

In last night dreams was a bit odd...no coherency what so ever....I was with a man who did not have any money...so I gave him 3000 kr for him to take me out...we did not spend so much money at all...we did go to one restaurant to eat...and basically it was that...then we went to one concert it was free... it did show up to be one church event...so they did take collection and I asked for the wallet and he was hesitant...when I opened the wallet I did understand why he was hesitant...there was only two 50 kr bills left...I did not want to ask him where the money went...I did not want to embarrass him at the concert...and when we was out of the concert I did not dare to ask him what he have done with the money....I said to him..we are near your mother why do we not visit her....he was surprised but he did accept...I said to him that I want to buy flowers to her....I saw a bit down a window with flowers so I assumed it was a florist...but suddenly we was at his mothers home...I was surprised that we did not buy flowers..so I hugged her and I said...I have to go out for a bit...but I am back soon....I went to the house what I thought was a florist...but when I opened the door it was a crematorium...I was chocked...I looked around and the arounding was like I was in Greece...wow ...it was beautiful....Now I spotted an ICA store...I looked down on me to see what I was wearing...I had a top and jeans...no hand-bag...I put my hand in my pocket and I had my bank-card with me...so no worries....but suddenly I was again back to his mothers home...and she was cooking...she asked me to help her ...she had whole owen full of food...I said...oh so much food...it is to a whole company...here I awoke myself...I did not undertand at all the dream sequences ....

The only thing what I did understand from this dream is...my fear to ask for answers..I have conflict fear....
When I had my own company, many men lended money from me, I never get back any of them....

[IA56]

Last night dream I was back to a hospital and I was working there, I couldn't understand what I was doing there because in real life I am retired....I did have pain in my lower back as I have in real life...and I can´t stand on my feet´s too long because of the pain, it increases the more I stand or walk, and I have to sit down....So I asked my co-worker what I was doing there but she did not know...she disappeared...so I went to look for her...I did see her standing in a doorway into a big auditorium..I looked into the auditorium and I saw full of people...doctors and nurses...I went away, but I was called by the head nurse and she wanted to talk to me....I said to her that I can´t be here, I have so much pain in my back...she tried to keep me as long as possible for some reason...now she called her 3 children to come and meet me...I love children...I talked to them and now I looked at her and she looked sad...I said...3 children it is much work...yes she said....now I felt that why she wanted to keep me there was to comfort her.....

[IA56]

Last night dream was very disturbing to me...I did share apartment with 2 men who was a couple with a little baby....we shared the washing machine too...I had so much laundry and the one of the men was washing but had got out for shopping in middle of his washing, and now the time was late and he was not ready yet, so I was so irritated and did let him know how bad planning of time...his partner was the one who did finish the washing of the baby´s clothing.....

[IA56]

Last night dream I hear an infant crying hysterically...I open my door and I see my nabo she looks very pale and I say to her...I can take care of your baby...but when I entered into the apartment I see a hospital bed in the living-room ...in the bed is a young women...she has hair tangled on her face and she is shaking her hands in the air...I take her hand...and I say gentle...hi...she stops at once crying and looks straight in my eyes...oh hi...I say...now you went surprised when you notice it is not your mother....she tries to talk..but she is spasming so bad that I have difficulty to hear what she is saying...so her mother interprets....she asked me if I have seen the film Alladin ....but in my mind I did see a sequence from the film Scoopy Do ....

In this sequence I am starting to see something from 1880...but I did become so exited so I was back awake in my bed....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was separated from my son because his father was so jealous so he deported me to another dimention...I was looking upwards to try to find him...and one day I spotted him, he had build a device so we could see eachother..suddenly I saw his father behind him and he switched quickly so it looked like he was looking at a bird in a cage...and then when his father left the room he switche back so we could look at eachothers again....