Re: The drive that keeps you going
I started to write this yesterday, but got distracted by various things and didn't finish it. Came back now and read this thread and was interested to see what people had said. Here's my $0.02.
I don't actively seek AP. It sometimes happens spontaneously (even when I'm entirely awake and alert, but as I generally tend to split consciousness easily, it's not usually a problem when it happens, though it can be kinda weird). Occasionally, I will intend to go and see something or, more likely, someone, and I find myself phased to wherever they are. But that's about it. I don't really long for astral projection or actively seek it.
I've actually kind of lost a lot of my interest in stuff like AP and other experiential mysticism. I'm not knocking it, or saying there's anything wrong with pursuing it, but for me, all that sort of stuff (visions, AP, various samhadis and epiphanies and suchlike and so on) is just another kind of experience for Self to have, through me. I spent most of my life being a "natural mystic" and the last few years have been really intense with reality dropping away and sharp, deep shifts in perception, and so forth, and... well, it just seems like a roller coaster I'm not interested in being on any more, at least, not right now, no matter how much I might like roller coasters. Maybe later I might take up mystical-ness again, but I feel like I've been in that particular amusement park for 40+ years and that's enough for now.
I do still have occasional dips into the mystical pool, and that's fine, when it happens. I don't reject it or anything. I just don't seek it now.
BUT... there are other things, other experiences which I DO want to experience, and most of them are, maybe surprisingly, experiences in material reality. This seems like a perfectly natural, normal thing to me. The division between "spiritual" and "material" is pretty much arbitrary, anyway, and I really don't see or experience that division any more (drinking a cup of tea is just as spiritual as having a conversation with God, so to speak).
My thought is that if you want to experience some particular thing, you can, and you should, whether it's material/physical or spiritual/mystical, or neither or both. (Okay, I would argue that there could be moral and/or ethical boundaries, but those are so intangible and they vary so much from person to person that it's difficult to draw the line. I just don't want to seem to be encouraging people to commit crimes and so forth just for the sake of experiencing it. ).
May the light surround you, may you be blessed. May the light surround us, may we be blessed. May love and light surround us all, and may we all be healed and blessed. And so it is, and so it shall be, now and ever after.
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