A few days ago, my girlfriend left me, she told me, I do not feel ANYTHING for you. I always felt deep love for her, love her more than my own father, every day, I loved her more, I always gave her freedom, I still feel our love, but she did not. Now I feel empty, sad, I think about killing myself all the time (sorry about that). Many mornings, when I'm between asleep and awake, I can see her, and I feel that we hugged and everything feels very real, when I awake I feel really bad. What is this I feel? Is the pain I feel in my soul?