Originally Posted by
Eyeswideopen
IA56, I want to thank you for sharing this I feel very humbled that you have opened up in order to help me to see another perspective. It has got me thinking and I want to share that I am not just wanting to jump into a sexual experience, but I do feel that this is where I am supposed to be right now.
I was abused as a child and as an adult, when I got away from my second abuser I then learned to abuse myself. My life is now calm and balanced and I have a wonderful husband who is happy for me to explore my sexuality in the astral. He knows that in the last three years due to medications numbing me that sexual activity is difficult and not the same. I am thinking that this is my chance to experience good feelings again as I am in pain daily and my body does not experience pleasure anymore except for chocolate.
I am learning that everything still works even though here in the physical it doesn't. Yesterday I was meditating and something came and put its arm around my waist and I said no initially because I did not want to get drained. But I gave in and I was turned on but I think this was a woman. There was a strong sensation around my rightside waist and she gently pulled me out of my body and we flew up to the stars and down again. I can't remember much else but I went back in my body and feel fine today.
What you said about beings that are teaching us or showing us so we can bring things into our awareness makes sense about this encounter, what she was saying was perhaps, it's not all about sex, you need to go up? Who knows. I am very sexually frustrated and have always had a high sex drive so it's on my mind. I can't get this encounter with this man that was so gentle and loving, I actually felt love for him and want to meet with him again.
He had tapped and asked for an invitation where as normaly I can just get jumped on. I do believe that as I was in a meditative state he held up my arms which I have never exited before. I feel like he gently offered me to come out and play. Not like sometimes when I am trying to come out I go to fall asleep and something nudges me and almost smacks me round the face to stay awake enough to leave. Then I don't bother leaving as this one is probably a energy sucker.
I am going to continue with my obe and am trying to learn as much as I can, learning to say no when my base chakra is on fire, protecting myself and having a plan of where I want to go so I am more structured. I have learned so much from you guys already.
Many thanks x
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