Now forgive me for anyone reading this as it is only a " non private thought" not interesting, but for me I need to log this.
Really tired other day and saw same green aura round red bath mat.
Today,working,not so tired , waiting for next patient , looked at chair saw aura , not trying. ( same colour chair - deep red therefore saw pale green)
What I'm trying to record here is that I have a lot of tiredness going on. Since January\ February ( holiday,eating too much) but when it comes to raising energy I want to and get so far but there is something deep in my mind telling me not to or I don't need to.
Now I have had physical symptoms such as .... Sore throat

( after brushing dry cement from patio) ....spots on face ..( a lot of perspiration with the heat , only 2 , went away quickly. ) Mouth ulcer on gum, went away quickly. For the last 2 days ulcer on tongue. Not big and getting better but I have always boasted on having a great immune system .
We all know what the benefits are of raising the NEWS WAY. so my query is .. Not.... Why is my immune system a little low ?
...but... When I need to improve it why during this time am I feeling I don't want to raise energy. Is my subconscious telling me that my immune system is a little low and my energy levels are low therefore don't because it will use up even more energy.??
I truly feel this is why I can not get back on track at the moment .
I can recall Obe or dreams but can not concentrate on deliberate energy raising or meditation.