Nursing babies

[CFTraveler]

Just to add an example, a transducer is an apparatus you use that converts one type of energy to another, such as when you have an ultrasound, it produces and transmits soundwaves to then be read by it and converted into an image from the sound echo. There's other examples but it's the one that came to me when I read this.

[susan]

Thanks I like that example.
I wonder if the other day when I thought I was having a tube fed through my nose going up to the sky has anything to do with this? Well I'll just have to wonder. That's all I can do but....

THUNDERBIRDS is back.
This was the first time thunderbirds was used.4 days later I had the wonderful experience where I was consciously floating in pure white with the white and pink trees.

http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/sho...t=Thunderbirds

This morning between 8.00 am and 8.25am . Liminal stage .
Very short dream. I'm in a theatre packed full with people . There's a stage but I'm at ceiling level.The ceiling is covered in pink stars and I heard someone saying something I think to introduce the host.
Next Liza Minelli comes across the ceiling in amongst the stars and stands in a little box floating high up. All very showbiz .
In the dream I'm just starting to wonder how she came across to the middle of the ceiling. I'm working out there must have been a path for her to walk on but hidden in the stars.
Liza turns to face me and says. "

I hope your going to stay for the show!"

As she says this she starts to dissolve and her face changes and has been replace by a Thunderbird character . I think his name was BRAINS. He had massive glasses on. I recognised him straight away but had to look up his name. Woke up.

This was lovely but I don't want to raise my hopes incase.
The thing is just yesterday I had been reading about the earths energy centres and places where they are supposed to be. This could be the hidden path that Liza walked on to get to the centre.
All I can do is realy increase my practice and try to make it happen.

Last few days picked up inbetween thoughts,

"PLEASED YOU'VE DECIDED TO COME OUT OF YOUR WOMB."

This was I think because I'd decided to try some new exercises to do with projecting my energy onto objects and feeling them.

"I WANT YOU TO FOCUS ON AN OBJECT?"
Both these times there was not the loving soft voice I sometimes get. It was either me telling me what to do or ...?

[susan]

How quick things can change. It's happened before.
Last nights dreams were dissapointing, raking up the past from 30-40 years ago. They involved my husband and started with his working hours and my insecurity early in the marriage.He never gave me a reason but because of late hours and the fact that he was so handsome my imagination would go on overdrive.He really never gave me reason to be anxious but when your young it happens. Last night even brought up him meeting up at the casino with his close friend.
My goodness this realy was raking up the past.
Another dream highlights my apprehension about this holiday coming up.
Maybe I won't be successfully getting out as soon as I wanted or thought but I'll keep trying.

However my final piece I remember just before wakening....
I'm flying in deep black space with my husband.
He flies off to the right and something forms infront of me.
It's a fraction and I'm told that I'm the 5 and he's the 6 ( or it could be
It was like someone was writing in space infront of me.
I Cannt remember a number on the top. Looked like this

_______
5 6

Edit.the figure in brackets above should be 8 but I Cannt get it to come up. This is crazy. I keep getting the smiley face with sunglasses. I've deleted it 3 times and when I press 8 it shows correctly but when I press save and see the printed version the face comes up.
Is this a glitch with my I pad? I've had a red heart before.
I ve been so grounded today and now this craziness.

[susan]

This morning had a lovely image of two people far in the distance on a very narrow path leading up to the hills walking away from my view ,but closer standing together on the path looking in my direction were two dogs. One looked adult and one smaller
Symbolism here I think.
No dream recalled with it but for the 45 mins after that much was picked up.
I think now I will have to learn not to let my mind go crazy full speed with what I'm hearing . I want guidance but I must filter what I see as important for my progression and what is just me and my thoughts.

The soft loving voice will always be listened to.
The riddles will always be worked out.
Anything out of those categories will be thought upon as "do I think this was just self talk."? Does it feel right?
After saying this to be honest I love everything I'm getting and much advice is given .
I just need to filter a bit so I don't go dizzy.


Picked up ....The root is the angle... ( riddle)

Googled root angle and there is no way the info that came up is understandable.way out of my depth so I have to take this from a different angle.( ah, just read this back and have used the term )
Roots.....plants have roots.
Angle.......

Last night I had had just a plateful of salad for a meal . Wasn't hungry. I knew I was eating healthily.
Still taking that disgusting green pond life but have actualy bought a second pack and mixing with water.
After such a bad start to this I'm just downing it as a ' 5 seconds of unpleasantness' .
No intention 100% of going vegan. See no need for it, but to have a healthy body plenty of veg and fruit.

'Keep up with the green bracelet.'

Green ..as mentioned above ..could be the Spirulina. ( very dark green powder)
Bracelet...could this be my pandora bracelet that I turned into a way of remembering any realy beautiful memorable experiences. ..tiny white purse...angel wings...Christmas tree...snowflake.

I visited the health food shop and bought spirulna along with other products recommended for third eye.

Starting to understand that when I have an experience that does not involve slowly raising up but more inside the head, even though I get the sense of up , down, right, left this is probably how the human brain interprets the act of expansion of ones consciousness.
If I get another I'll still describe as I perceive but now understand better.


Back to edit . No need for new post.
Just completed 30 mins focus on fixed object . Did the imagination of stretching arms out and feeling the surface,underneath, smoothness, roughness.( large fig leaf) imagination used for smelling. Then just concentrating on the fixed focus.
Using beautiful uplifting music.

Next. Upstairs to lay on bed, no music. Blacked eyes out and just tried to still mind.
Intended 30 mins, not very successful but near the end I started to think how difficult it is to aspire to be the kind of person that had all the impurities of this earth life taken away whilst still here. So much happening around us, on the news, radio. We have to function here and live and interact.
I thought of that lovely spirit I've written of many times that I had been taken to meet in the spirit world and just knew he/she/it was part of me .
Just after I had thought this and the mind went silent, immediatly very quickly I thought ..

" AND YOU ARE THE MIDWIFE"

Yes, I suppose I am the foetus in the womb ( Clairvoyantly viewed few days ago) but I am also the one responsible for the delivery. When I was told to look for the heart of the universe, to look within, the person I would like to be is inside me . I just have to get rid of the clutter and BE.

[susan]

Just when I go deep the humour starts again.

This morning I'd been awake contemplating getting up and thinking of the flight times for just over a weeks time for the holiday and what I'm wearing( never got that dress, got a cheaper)'
My thoughts went to flight times for returning when suddenly I thought...

" 5th little piglet."

Immediatly I remembered a nursery rhym for children.
Starts with.
This little piggy went to market...............and this little piggy (5th) went weeee weee weee all the way home.

I love it . If ever I'm being re- assured that I will have a holiday with no incident this is it.
A very detailed dream also which involved speaking on the phone to my father translated symbolically p
suggests the same.

What I also want to note is the awake state I was in when this came through.
Love it.

Edit.okay so I wasn't going to put this bit in but pride must be pushed aside for total honesty.
The weee weee weee ........
My bladder is getting worse and as soon as my key goes in the front door it's a race to the loo.Im up through the night and just in general I wouldn't want to be waiting in any long cue . Doesn't help the fact that I drink loads of water.
I think this was deliberately worked out. How embarrassing.

[susan]

5th little piglet returned home safely feeling the richest person in the world.
Two weeks around the warmest, kindest, most hospitable,fun loving, sincere, honourable, humble people I could ever wish to be with. Many I had never met before. These people could be put in a category that many people are currently seeing as a threat.
However I only speak of the people I met. We are all individual personalities.Such wise words picked up during my May holiday....." Not to judge people by their religion. Judge them by their aura".

Last three weeks no energy work, no meditation practice.
Inner voice very quiet but at times of deep thinking some was coming through. ( a reminder of part of signature picked up once... " She is part of your deepest thoughts".)

Had gone to bed one night thinking how quiet things had become and thinking of intuition. If ever I was to develop good intuition would I loose this inner voice I hear? I never want to loose it. I woke up with no dream recall but picked up.." The Subconscious Allows Free Thinking".

One night I had been overwhelmed by the warmth around me given off by these people .... The cuddles and kisses from the children also.
I woke to seeing a certificate with a name on it and where the specialised subject would be written were the words ..GOD FINDER..

Woke one morning to singing. Just caught the last two words. " heavens plane."

My ugly side was pointed out in a dream two days before the event which saved any bad feelings.
2 days before holiday a short dream . I'm in the back of a car and someone is in the drivers seat and points out two people across the road and tells me to look at them.
I see a very ugly woman shouting to someone. A male approaches her. I got the feeling they were related. She shouts at him . I got the feeling he had dissapeared somewhere and she was angry with him but I also got the feeling that he was trying to explain where he had been and it was not his fault. ( in the dream I just seemed to know )
What stood out here was just how ugly the woman was.

So , 2 days later at Charles De Gaulle airport waiting at the notice board for info to tell us which gate to go to. Finally, the information is displayed. What does HB do? Decides to go to the toilet first. DOWNSTAIRS.
He was away ages. I couldn't believe he could do this. He had had ample time. People who were waiting also had all now dissapeared. Could feel myself getting hotter and hotter, tensing up, we were going to miss the flight, how stupid. Trying to decide what words I could use on him to get the message across.
Suddenly once again during a thought free moment the dream popped into my head. This was me!!!! I was the ugly woman. My ugly side represented by ugly features.
Just in time I relaxed muscles that had become tense, completely chilled, decided that if he had suddenly decided he needed the loo then he had to go.( I of all people should understand that)decided we have plenty of time, we aren't going to miss the flight.
He arrived back, I smiled and we went on our way with ample time.

[susan]

Co- incidence or not?

Dream.
I'm trying to do something and getting frustrated. Michael Jackson is trying to help me but I've made it worse for him.
I'm making it even worse and fling myself on the bed in frustration and start to cry.

Woke up.

This is my frustration feeling lost again. Hard to find time for this. Need fast track to get back into it. My mind is taken up with everyday living and back to work. Not sure which route to take in limited time. Raising energy? Clearing chakras? Meditation? Observation? Projecting energy?
Time is so limited.
Sent out a request for guidance in my decisions for this.

Time to get up . Passed radio in kitchen and decided to switch on.
Michael Jacksons song is playing and at this exact time he sings..' Let me show you the way to go.'

[susan]

This was written by me in the journal last year.
Taken from Deepak Chopra's understanding of the Observer/ Observed role which I was experiencing. This was new to me.

*****. Page 48.

My spirit is an alert witness of the roles I play. Whilst it may be my destiny to play an infinity of roles I Am Not these roles.
The detached observor ( me) of the role has woken up, ****. EVEN WHEN SLEEPING*****
We can be engaged in a role to currently perform , even passionate about the way we perform it but detached at the same time.
He talks of the actor on the stage of life with us being the actor, director, everything and everyone.
This all adds up to what I've written over the last few weeks, stage, puppets, Observer.

********

I've brought this forward because this morning Ive noticed a change in the role I played in the dream.

I woke this morning feeling so much love for someone I was talking to in the dream.This feeling of peace and calmness lasted for hours later.
Recalling the dream I realised this was once again about me shuffling work and doing too much. However I know Character A and B are both me, but in two short dreams I was not character A ( Susan) I was character B who had all the love and compassion for Susan and realy wished she would slow down.
I was talking to me (Susan) with such love for her and kind of shadowing her. In the past I had been aware of someone entering my dream or following me and interacting with me but this time I was that person and didn't feel I was Susan.
When I woke I was still feeling the love I had for Susan.

This is hard trying to write down and maybe comes across a bit strange but I know exactly what I'm trying to say with difficulty.

Because of this I'm now thinking back to the above post where I was at ceiling height in a packed theatre and asked if I was going to stay for the show.
I was going to be observing the play from a height.( I would be observing myself, my role in physical as a seperate person.)
The Thunderbirds character 'BRAINS'wearing large glasses..
.. Large glasses?.".. Seeing clearly?
...Brains.....encouraged to think about this? Work out? Understand?


Bit more on the Buddhist idea of observer ....

Buddhist doctrine has a definition of the observer that perhaps fits better than that of psychoanalytic theory. The observer or witness is thought of as an aspect of the higher self that is cultivated through meditative practice. This version of the observer is a portion of consciousness that metaphorically looks over the shoulder of the individual and helps to inform them of their actions and the reasons for them. This helps the Buddhist practitioner to stay on their chosen path rather than putting energy into everything that fascinates the ego.

by David R Hill.


Was this an aspect of me ( Susan) merging during sleep with an aspect of my higher self helping the unconscious me?

[susan]

Liminal stage this morning between 6-9 am.


A news reporter is standing outside a small restaurant infront of a window.
He is reporting on someone inside having a meal. The camera now focuses inside to a woman at a table. She picks up a fish and puts the head in her mouth. The tail was still wagging. The fish was still alive.
My reaction to this was of disgust. The camera now focuses on her plate. It was awful. Prawns and little fish were alive and running around the plate. Horrible to look at and imagine eating.

This next one was a continuation before wakeing up.

I'm with a small group of people and someone brings a dead human body and tilts it to show what has contaminated the body inside. Brown waste pours out of the body onto my lovely cream rug.


I seemed to wake up slightly to ponder over this and then picked up two more that seemed to connect with each other.

I'm in a classroom and I haven't done something. I then see a tall oblong glass container filled with water. Very narrow but very tall. On the outside against the glass is a rusty sheet of metal and a magnet the shape of a battery is being run along the rusty sheet moving upwards. The water starts to rotate.


That was all but enough.
Last night I had been exhausted from work and HB had cooked a lovely meal.
Pasta with a tomato chilli sauce filled with pieces of salmon and prawns. I loved it and commented how nice it was and we will have to have it again soon!

A news reporter reporting something usually is important for me. This journey started with a news reporter.

1st page of journal....

The plane lands, a large blue car travels up a very steep hill where the occupant gets out and someone ( a news reporter) is standing on the summit recording the arrival of the passenger.
........

This seemed to have the same importance.
Oh dear, I've always said that I would continue to eat fish but I just don't know now. I need to contemplate this . It's a big decision but to be honest the first two I picked up were repulsive and disgusting and that is how the meat started and then the alcohol.
I just don't know what I would eat.

The tunnel of water and magnet I'm sure relates to energy / magnetic pulls/ spiralls / vortex.
Might learn a bit more there.

Magnetic Water.


Found this by Robert.
Developing Natural Resistance

The best explanation of how conscience and higher-self guidance works, was given to me by an old priest in Sunday school, when I was all of nine years old. He said to imagine I had a little devil on my left shoulder and a little angel on my right, both whispering advice continually.


The little devil works through the ego, urging quick gratification of life's desires, wants and vices. Its pure selfishness, greed, cruelty and cunning. It will do anything to satisfy its desire, no matter whom gets hurt in the process.


The little angel works through the mind, virtues and higher emotions. It speaks for ones spirit, for ones higher-self, and for ones Creator. The little angel points out moral issues and the difference between right and wrong, warning us of potential consequences. It will help satisfy ones actual life needs and goals. But it would rather have us starve than see us steal bread from another. It is unselfish, kind, gentle and wise. This aspect of mind nurtures a high order of moral thought and spirituality.


Another way to look at the above, is to imagine that every vice attracts a little devil to support it, and that every virtue attracts a little angel to promote it. All religions and schools of spiritual discipline promote the ideal that one has to conquer all desires (to become desire-less) and to develop all virtues, in order to attain enlightenment.

[susan]

Eckhart Tolle

Eckhart Tolle: The Awakening of Consciousness - SuperSoul.tv
http://www.supersoul.tv/supersoul-se...-consciousness
Love listening to him.
22 mins into it he talks of connecting deeply with what is around you.
He explains that there is the FORM identity of you that performs in physical.The other half of you is the FORM- LESS you, timeless essence of which you are.Your Ultimate Self.

A good quote from him,

What a liberation to realise that "the voice in my head" is not who I am.

Who am I then?

The one who sees that.

He quotes an ancient saying.
Consciousness sleeps in the stone..
Consciousness dreams in the plant.
Consciousness AWAKENS in the animal.
Consciousness AWAKENS to itself in the human.

..... It is unselfish, kind, gentle and wise. This aspect of mind nurtures a high order of moral thought and spirituality.
....All religions and schools of spiritual discipline promote the ideal that one has to conquer all desires (to become desire-less) and to develop all virtues, in order to attain enlightenment.

Unselfish. Kind. Gentle. Wise.
This advice from Roberts priest all those years ago clinches it for me.
Could someone with all those qualities bang the head of a fish when caught in the hook of a fishing line to finish it off? When I was 14 I was the one who caught 2 river trout when fishing for the first time with my family. I pulled it in, mum and dad put it in the basket but it was still wriggling, alive. I cannt remember if it was me or not who killed it.
So easy to open a can of tuna...........

I will try but may fail. 2 days now without fish. My dreaming mind is very positive.
This morning half awake / asleep saw a large room with hundreds of exercise bikes as if in a gym and all the seats were bright colours. Red, green,yellow ,orange etc..
For the clairvoyance practicing colour is a good idea but the exercise bikes..Absolutly No Way!
Or maybe the colours were the colours of the chakras and this was a riddle. Work on the chakras.

Been reading a lot on magnetised water.Have sent away for a place mat.