Nursing babies

[susan]

Pregnancy is back . Walking into a church where a woman is sitting with a man behind her . He puts his hand on her pregnant bump and smiles , laughs and starts singing.



Edit.
2 weeks later son announces his girlfriend is pregnant.

Edit.
Baby Alexander born 11/08/15
9 months to the date.

[susan]

Have just googled ' Silver City and Silver Angels' and came up with .....
The silver city was first named and explored in the book of CAIN. It stands in testament to the glory of the High Heavens housing all Angels and also the Angaris council.

However this looks like a computer game so not sure whether it's taken from a religious book or just made up. Bit of a co- incidence. Will google more later.

[susan]

A friend has just informed me that Bangkok in Thailand is known by the Buddhists as ' The Silver City of Angels'
Could this have been shown to me not just to show me the beauty we can witness out there when we try to raise our vibration but for me to work out the connection towards the Buddhist teachings. Just recently It was suggested I should swap kurt for Buddha. I took this at the time not as a religion to follow but maybe to read teachings on how to best live our lives and how to think compassionately and more? This could once again be a little nudge.

( thank you Ann. You have a new job as my researcher, unpaid of course)

[susan]

Saw a quick flash of a side profile of a white head and shoulder with what looked like Egyptian head gear on and it was surrounded by lovely thin circles the colour of energy.( colours of the rainbow)
This was at the end of what I took to be instruction on what to do. I Decided that after the last experience it would probably be a while till I get something else, as this had been a corker. I find I'm enjoying each day with decorating and work,but my mind is running non stop when trying to meditate. A whole hour each day wasted with monkey mind.
4 am. I'm undecided. I read Roberts reply on the forum that to reach higher energies you had to work on the higher chakras. This made sense. So do I concentrate on all over NEWS or concentrate on the brow and crown?
Ending with circling the feet continually ( which has always worked for me) , or do I ???? Just at a cross roads at the moment.

Just woke up from a dream that ended with a surprise.
I'm upstairs on a house seeing a van pull up and two young men in suits getting out. They are double glazing sales men. The door bell goes. I run down stairs shouting to my mum that I will get that and as I open the door they were in the porch.
But they weren't the men, they were two young boys about 6 years old and lying slouched in chairs arms outstretched and just grinning at me. In the dream this surprised me as it wasn't meant to be like this and this had me start to wake up .
Before I was fully awake I seemed to get instruction.
" now lie straight.....( I wasn't) ...and focus on each chakra.....this will activate the energy centres....
Then I saw the lovely side profile of the colours around the Egyptian bust described at the beginning.
I'm going to try this. I just feel I need to have a slight change.

[susan]

Well the wine issue seems to be sorted now. One glass each day seems to be acceptable as the dreams have stopped. However if I want to have more I shall. ( I took this attitude with the meat but still haven't eaten any) the decision will be mine to make but I know I will be letting myself down if I do.
So to date .....
****. I've been reprimanded when speaking in an unkind manner .( not to judge people till you have walked in their shoes )
This was brought to my attention via a dream and face change .
**** I've been directed towards compassion..... Thinking of people's feelings.
**** I've been directed towards giving up meat ( couldn't even keep the chicken)
**** I've been directed towards accepting what I have in life and being grateful. ( to stop wanting what I don't need)
**** I've had my alcohol level reduced to an acceptable level.
I don't know if anything else will be picked on ,will just have to wait and see but for a few months I would have an occasional recalled dream where masculinity was the topic. Then the other day as I was waking up from a dream ( to do with my every day life) I got a quick shot of two men walking side by side then the view went down to show they were holding hands.
The previous post included a door bell and two young lads.
This morning I was woken up by the internal door bell. As I wake up the dream is still being acted out. I'm in my house and the door bell goes. I can see the shadow through the glass of an adult outside. As I go to the door and open it there are two young men standing very casually and dressed very casual. They didn't realy say what they wanted and there were two big removal trucks parked outside.
So this is twice I've opened the door to two males, first time they were young lads , this time young men but both times they didn't say what they wanted. They were just there. ( although Instructions were given after seeing the young lads. )
I don't want to get hung up on this theme as I may be responsible for future similar dreams but just wanted to make a note.

I've just remembered that somewhere in this journal I picked up being in a house being told " when the house is empty the body moves on" need to look up.

Found it.
Page 32 17/8/14
" as the body is emptied the house is cleared and moves on" .
This was during the final stage of giving meat of all types up and spelling the ,message on the I pad.
Just before ' Compassion' became the topic.
Only reason I'm bringing this subject up is because the men had removal trucks.

[susan]

Early hours am after a short nap. I woke up to ...

" You Cann't ( Stork? Stalk ? ) A Pregnant Woman."
Pregnancy has recently been mentioned.
One very vivid OBE when I decided to start this journal detailed me being carried in the sky in a sling by what I sensed was a stalk ( but took on the appearance of my husband) and placed in a child's small chair on a verandah and asked " haven't you been to a child's kindergarten before?"
The statement makes sense. If the baby isn't born yet the stork cann't deliver it yet to where it is to go.
Storks have been associated with delivering/ babies/ family for centuries.
In Egyptian mythology the soul of the person- the ba- was usually represented by a stork.
I've had plenty of notes here on Egyptian themes. ...thousands of Ankhas seen, being by the Nile where a massive pyramid comes up with the one eyed glass ball on top representing cleopatra ....where the pots of honey were noted they lasted for thousands of years down a cellar in the dessert ...pyramids..... The eye of Horus.....
But the stork can have many different meanings.
At the moment my thoughts on this are that after witnessing the most beautiful sight of the silver city and angels I want to see more beauty. To raise my vibration and experience more. The woman is still pregnant . I'm trying to rush this . I've been shown true beauty but that was to show me and I think I'm not ready or able yet for this. Patience .

[susan]

" SHE IS PART OF YOUR DEEPEST THOUGHTS".
I just love the words I'm picking up some mornings. They seem to be statements at the end of a dream to explain something on my mind that I try to work out. I seem to have to put thought into whatever is said. I know it's me and who ever I am I love me. A more intelligent, wiser, quick whitted ,deeper me.
I was even contemplating letting my hair grow a bit longer or get it cut when I don't remember any dream associated with this but I woke up to" CONFIDENCE COMES WITH IMAGE".
I recalled the dream straight away after the " she is part of your deepest thoughts".
Dream.
I'm in a room where someone brings a girl I know into the room, but she ignores me. I start to think how rude this was that she just ignored me. As I approach her I realise she isn't who I thought she was . I didn't know her. I apologised for the mistake but the other lady told me to look at her. As I looked at the face I don't think there were any features, I cannt remember seeing anything to the face but then woke up to her telling me that she was part of my deepest thoughts.

[susan]

Very short OBE this morning but failed to stay awake during it.
Yesterday morning woke up to .
" EXIT FROM THE COAL BOX ITS EASIER"
So my take on this is
COAL is fuel/ energy.
The BOX contains the coal therefore is the body.
So activate the energy body and do what 99% of the time I've always done. Loosen body and lift or sink. ( exit)
Because of what I'd seen previously I'd started to come to the idea that I should be concentrating on the brow and just expect to view but frustration was setting in.
5 am , enough sleep, brought energy in through crown down to base chakra few times till bored. Bouncing all over body, took each chakra from lower upwards circling a few times. Felt tingle of energy travelling up legs. Settled.
My left arm felt lighter and floating. Thought of this so the feeling came back to body. Settled.
Soon slowly just rose up. Vision wasn't good. It felt I had my physical eyes open( but I know they weren't)
Now I was heading towards pink. It was quite vague in the distance but definitely pink.( heading towards an astral realm?)
I knew I was loosing focus and couldn't keep my awareness, about to fall asleep when it was as if someone was holding my ankles (although I couldn't feel any grip ) and my legs were being shaken. My view changed direction now to just black space with stars in the distance far away and that was it . I must have fallen asleep.
If only I had kept my awareness and continued through the pink energy field.

[susan]

Failed to wake up during an opportunity to exit through a window.
Dream.
I'm in a room with someone else and there is a massive window in front of us. I see the back of a woman playing with dogs outside.
The person with me goes to the front of the window where a lovely big brown dog comes up to it from the outside and is positioned sideways. The person with me goes up to the window to give it a kiss .
I notice the eyes of the dog and say " why do the eyes of dogs always look so sad?"
This is where I start to wake up but notice the eyes of the dog changed. They had changed to small coloured squares. The colours of energy. ( rainbow colours) .

I was going to start missing out dreams from this journal , but when I see energy colours in eyes that don't make sense then I want to record.
This big brown dog has been mentioned over a period of time. ( I love dogs) I've had big dogs in this journal come in to protect me, in fact over a long period of this journal Big brown dogs have been mentioned.

[susan]

I want to record for the journal that I've failed today in my allowance.
Had a bottle of white wine . 3-4 times more allowance than recently. A full bottle . I don't know if I'm celebrating or getting ready for giving out a lot of loving tender care.
My recent thoughts have suggested that I am failing somehow.
I think I'm putting too much expectation on my physical self when it comes to dealing with life issues,
An issue has arrived within a loved one in the family . I want to close my eyes and decide it was a dream.
However what brilliant timing to have been directed towards feeling compassion ,and reading the Buddha writings.
Everything will be beautiful and overcome.
Love you my son x