Nursing babies

[susan]

This morning really excited.
Started with me thinking how I could master this silencing the mind thing when I decided to get up to the bathroom.As I got up I "thought" Take notice of any trips. Well just yesterday I was invited to a meditation weekend held by Buddhist monks,so wondered if this was what the comment had meant.
In bed dozing and woke up to remembering short dream of group of people being filmed by someone and they all disperse except this one girl being filmed. She says Oh it's my turn , come. With me and I'll show you something.I woke up and was wondering about this when I felt lighter and lighter and felt myself floating above body.was travelling up and backwards this time,I had no vision so tried to open my eyes but think it they were my physical eyes and felt my self being pulled gently back to body so tightly kept eyes closed and decided to just look deeply into the brow area.
An eye appeared. A single eye that seemed to be at the end of a long tunnel,it was a human eye and it blinked and just looked at me.
This was fabulous because I knew it wasn't a symbol that flashes up as it was moving and stayed for about 20 seconds or more.
I think I've needed this due to my concern recently over what is real and what isn't . FAB.

[susan]

I'm getting my picture show.
It happened again this am .Awake but lovely and warm relaxed and cozy when I felt an energy tingle in my abdomen.
Wondering why I tried to relax even more and within 20 seconds I am floating above my body.My physical eyes were closed but could see a glimps through a crack and I was above my bedroom ceiling light and on the other side of it.
Decided to look deeply into eyelids and I saw a young boy about 11 years old with wearing a big silver white curly wig very high and to the shoulders. He was wearing a red jacket,it looked velvet and had a high colour.This didn't look like a portrait but like a real person.
I think I'm being shown one of my past lives as I have many times sent out requests to learn as much as possible about my past lives, everything about me.
This confirms to me that most of what seemed possible imagination was a message for me,
: The fish and song "take you to the picture show". Posted above.

: The monkey and the man telling me to take him to his room for pictures at 8.00, then the aborted OBE at 7.55am. Posted above.
Need to point out that this wasn't like a portrait on a white background that I've seen before of a man in period costume.
Yesterday and today both had me leave body and viewed as if looking down a long tunnel , and what I was looking at looked real, not a picture.

[susan]

Another short OBE this morning which I know was a message.
Early am did some energy work and just relaxed when felt myself gently raising above body,no noise, no vibrations,similar to the last two.Rose up and to the right ,could not see the bedroom and then very quickly seemed to speed upwards slightly going to the right but felt very high. I could now see what seemed to be stars and I thought I was in amongst them when I realised they weren't real and appeared to be made of wire.
I look down and realise I'm ceiling height in a very tall grande room filled with tables and women. I landed on the floor but don't think anyone could see me as no-one looked at me and I didn't feel I had a body. the women were beautifully dresses and very attractive and I felt I knew them( I don't) . This was a works evening function when a woman I took to be the boss entered and seemed to notice me and beckoned me over to where she was pouring punch from a bowl on the buffet table.
She tells me that " she" (looking over at someone else) has done really well because she didn't let anything get in her way. She didn't let children stop her success AND she didn't let fear get in the way.
At this point I'm immediately back in body and awake and I knew what it meant.
Only about 30 mins previously before the OBE I had been pondering over a thread I had read on this site which got me wondering if maybe by trying to open up more to the spirit side I could be letting myself in for a few scares as I spend a lot of evenings on my own whilst hubby is working, just what if I attract more than I want whilst awake and alone???
I know I wouldn't let it stop me but the thought still crossed my mind.
I feel sure this was my HS or other reminding me that fear and negativity has to be overcome.
That's me told very quickly after the thought.
A note- the last 3 events have involved consciously leaving body with no vibrations and no astral noise and no feeling of having a body.I'm hoping this could be a start to me being awake and aware of events instead of relying on vivid memory's.

[susan]

Well it didn't last long. back to a dream but it has left me feeling so sad all day.
Went to bed last night feeling fine , woke up at 6.am feeling fine with no memory of dream,did a little energy work on feet but decided to just silence the mind and see what happens.Fell asleep and woke up thinking I was crying and felt so so sad. Recalled dream straight away.
Called into an office and standing by a table there is a small square packet on the table and it's for me. I know it's my final salary and I'm being made redundant.( not possible,self-employed) I didn't want this to happen, I was devastated. I picked up the package and underneath was a small square old fashioned looking photo in black and white.
It was a battlefield with a strange looking carriage. In it were 3 people sitting upright in it but they were dead. My attention went to a young man lying dead on the ground and I remember in the dream saying "oh no...oh no....but the sadness I was feeling was for the family who would be told the news.I started to cry. ( in the dream) Their clothes were strange.

[susan]

Just want to add that they had strange looking pointed hats on.

[susan]

A couple of weeks ago I woke up to something I didn't understand so didn't post. In the dream I was leaving ,walking down a corridor to come back to physical to wake up and I had 2 doors to walk through to go down a long corridor. Before I got to the doors someone walked through , past me and took a seat.( many seats were lined up like on a plane)
I felt I knew her as one of my elderly ladies who had died about 3 months ago .I doubled back towards her because I wondered if she was being looked after in the after life and if I could help her. I realised I didn't have time for this so decided to leave where I thought I heard the words "we'll done"
Now the reason I didn't post this was because I couldn't understand how I thought this person was her.
She resembled a human but her head was dark and miserable looking .no characteristics resembling her but someone who you would just want to leave alone. I've pondered over this and wonder if this is how she was perceived by me in the spirit world.
In the physical world she was miserable to people kept herself to herself and always looked on the negative side of things.On the other hand she had kindness but didn't like it to be known.That twinkle in the eye from her was very rare. Was I perceiving her as people thought of her in reality. If so , I have to add I did give her a kiss the last time I saw her as she lay in bed . There was a part of her she didn't want to be shown. Don't know ....one of those mysteries.

[susan]

Woke up this morning just prior to re-entering my body and was turning and turning being surrounded by thousands of flies and yellow insects and I'm saying "No, nothing in the spirit world can harm me".I felt triumphant as if I had overcome an issue I had a few days ago that up till then hadn't really surfaced much .Smooth entry back into body, In fact felt bit like plates of jelly being dumped over me.
Recalled dream immediately and I know this was me sorting myself out.
I,m standing in my kitchen with my sister and she's pointing to the ceiling where beautiful colours were forming.I took this to be astral so concentrated very hard and slowly lifted off the ground towards the colours shouting " look if you concentrate hard enough you can get there." Next thing someone brings me a tiny new born pig but its only about 4 inches in length and has a long snout and she asks me if I want to hold it where upon I ask her if it will bite me and she replies "Yes" so I draw away. " Drat, stupid I've failed nothing can harm me here stupid, nothing." The flies appeared next which is why I felt so triumphant.
I feel sure I'm working out that I have to have an intention clear in my mind prior to sleep and to focus strongly on that,also the scare issue.
( I'm quite surprised how clear the little pig looked, I could see every detail of its head ,trotters and even little folds in it 's skin underneath)
Well hopefully that issue is sorted and I can move forward again.

[susan]

Easter week-end and so much time to dedicate but feel so pulled to physical.Have done all things in garden needing doing, household things and through the night when wakening up have felt something is preventing me from raising energy. Want so much to add to experience but physical issues seem to be taking over even though they give me great pleasure , I am meditating for two hours late afternoon, bed by 10.00pm Nothing ..Nothing.Nothing...........

[susan]

Okay, it's only the first week in April but I've had absolutely nothing since my last recorded episode.Raising the NEW way every day and meditating but through the night nothing but mundane dreams not worth remembering. The strange thing is not a single energy rush up the body which was happening a lot. It's as if all my energy has disappeared.This has happened before.( not physical energy as I have loads of that) .Could the last 3 really exciting events( although one was very sad) have used up all my energy like a battery gets flat but needs to recharge? Is this what is meant when literature talks of the snake raising and then lies exhausted till the next event? OR has the spirit world or my higher self walked away for a bit deciding I've had enough for now? or maybe both.

[susan]

Strange dream.
I'm standing on the roof of a double decker bus with my arm spread out trying to balance. Others are doing the same but they are too far away to hold on to so I loose my balance and step on to a platform. A trainer is there telling me I have to try again and that I cann't have one of the others to hold onto because he will be I front of me .
Next we are all in a house but the windows are closed and curtains closed. We cann't open them because there is a storm outside.The storm ends and we all go outside but we are very wary,being cautious.We seem to know that strange things might happen.( It's like one of these futuristic films that are meant to frighten you) A mushroom pops up from the ground causing us concern but it gets taller and taller and I put my ear to it and it sings with a beautiful soft quiet voice. This is for teaching small children geography.( we just seemed to know) We now go around the corner where there is a fighting scene where mobs are on the street with guns. We I think just seem to watch,I cann't remember getting involved but a load of police arrive riding on strange 3 wheeler bikes. We run and find ourselves back in the house.
I 'm now upstairs in the bedroom and open the curtains. The house is travelling upwards in the clouds,eventually the clouds are underneath us when I see a clear sky with a lovely full moon.
The moon gets brighter and brighter and brighter when I'm just starting to think its going to start hurting my eyes when I wake up.
Recalled the dream with full detail but too early to get up so must have dozes off again and woke to remembering someone is knocking on the front door( my own house). The post man is standing waving a package which is for me. Woke up.

This has been such a different adventure, no babies ,no eggs, no family members, no pregnancy.
Would appreciate any analysis on this one if anyone has any thoughts.
Just to set the scene, I don't have any personal issues, I didn't watch anything on telly to give me these thoughts.
My only disappointment was that I wasn't feeling any energy symptoms and hadn't had anything meaningful for the last few nights as my previous posts suggested. Felt a bit deserted.