Nursing babies

**susan** · 9th March 2015, 09:13 AM

Soul star. I've just read this mentioned in Siners's post.
I can show my ignorance in this subject of chakras. I learn as I go and often after the event. I've only consciously focused on the chakras within the body but it seems there may be more outside , above body. ( thank you for pointing this out Sinera.)
I read it is supposed to link to the higher self and enlightenment. I feel the communication I'm getting may be from my higher self or an aspect of myself ( if that is the correct term) because sometimes the communication is very loving as a parent, and sometimes as a female and sometimes seems to have a slightly male lower sound. ( higher self, male , female characteristics)
Sometimes it is just like my kind of way of speaking as you would do to a friend. So, although different at times I believe all connected to me in some way.
My thoughts are about the beautiful star like experiences I've had, and even the last one where the boy was outlined in stars. Is this me having opened up the chanel of this chakra which I did'nt even know existed.?
Another thought, when twice saw the same boy in period costume but a few years in age difference, then lying dead on a battle field and I was a young boy, now seeing this young boy mentioned above,........why always a boy?
I was told this morning that I have to visit people, they don't come to me. ( encouragement to get out myself unaided is what I feel here )

**susan** · 12th March 2015, 08:51 PM

Went to sleep yesterday after doing energy raising and decided to just end with circling the feet, but to keep at it till I fall asleep. Fell asleep.
Woke up with vibrations and I was still circling my feet. I seemed to have continued doing this whilst asleep( or started up again immediately upon wakening and could feel the circling) I was aware this was a good state to be in to try to exit but immediately after that thought I picked up " no I'm sorry but you misunderstand" . I then got a picture of a man in a wheel chair with a glass of wine in his hand and a big cross in front of it.
By now the vibrations have dissapeared. I felt so dissapointed at having wasted an opportunity. The problem had been that hubby off work so I had 2 decent sized glasses of wine. ( 1/2 a bottle) I knew I was having more than what seems to be asked of me but that was my decision to make.

**susan** · 13th March 2015, 09:20 AM

Time to address this now . Through the week I've had a lot of work with elderly. Done some good work in physical. But once again last night / this morning waking up to many different short dreams all seeming to point to areas I could improve on in physical. It would have been a complete waste of time trying any kind of projection. As Kurt says, the four levers have to be in place.
Even one dream suggested that the queen was watching.
I'm either creating my own problems here or realy getting the push.
The only reason I'm recording this is for my own encouragement. It worked with the meat.
So intentions.
For the next three days will
Have NO wine.
Will address what goes in my mouth, .... Salads.....fruit......water......soup.....vegetabl es....fish..( well I reckon if Robert still eats fish then..)
Plenty of meditation.
Plenty of energy raising.
Plenty of sleep.
Will try to work on other areas pointed out not to do with food.

However.
I intend to still have one mug of Nescafé in morning but honey instead of candarel.
1 crumpet on Sunday as a treat, ( it's Mother's Day)
If after 3 days, having attempted to address my intake and actions, then I will have to re- think.

One of the dreams was suggesting that I was the only one who had not made the effort and did not get a summer dress to go on holiday and I was left behind.

**CFTraveler** · 13th March 2015, 01:20 PM

Yuck! Or use stevia, it's natural.

**susan** · 18th March 2015, 09:18 AM

Thanks for the advice. It arrives tomorrow.

No wine and attention to food went well but this is a long slow process so I might slip along the way but will do my utmost to think about everything that goes on my mouth in regards to chemicals and health.

Through the night as I wake up I couldn't be bothered to do anything just go back to sleep .As I was waking from my final sleep I was aware I was looking at a single white ballet shoe ( but without the ties) . It slowly started to move and turn and take small steps in different directions and kept folding in as if the edge around was made of elastic. By now this has got my full attention and I know I am lucid enough to know I'm lying in bed watching something through the brow. I didn't want it to end but slowly it just fades and left with white fluffy cloud like screen so I concentrate on the screen and clear any thought from wandering in that would spoil it.
I can now hear rustling of paper, then as if rustling of the contents of a drawer. As if behind me and a woman's voice saying " Jimmy,
it's a one pound postal order. Must have been from when we were in Foxton Crescent".) Nothing after that .( picking up just chatter, nothing to focus on) then a new scene started up.
I'm standing in an area for parking directly in front of a church looking into a massive hearse. The coffin isn't inside ( in the church) .
The back door of the hearse is up and all I see are flowers and 6-7-8 young children inside the hearse all looking sad. As I'm watching I couldn't work out any meaning because I've had hearses and deaths over a period in the last two years but not for quite a while.
I realise I'm sitting on a bench next to people and someone says to someone behind us something about do you know what I do?
"I'm the air freshener".
This fades and finally I'm looking at a section of a large wooden wheel with spokes on ( the same image I was given when advised to
" try spinning the wheel". I took this as advice on spinning the chakras which I hadn't been doing and to be honest this was good advice as I can feel each chakra as I do it.) As I look at the wheel there is a small white sticker on it with writing so I focus hard on this and it comes closer. It reads ... ' NYLON MATERIAL'.
It disappears and that everything finished now. I'm trying to work out the nylon and all I can come up with is nylon cannot break. Is this something to do with the chakras, energy bodies being indestructible ? ( but I know that already) or , just had an after thought as I'm writing this, could this imply that the chakras are strengthening? Becoming stronger?
Maybe wishful thinking on my part but I'll leave that to ponder on.
Now. The air freshener. An air freshener eliminates bad, stale odour. Is this something to do with me trying to cleanse the body and eliminate the bad before I can experience anything of a higher vibration?

**susan** · 19th March 2015, 08:36 AM

I can now put a meaning to the hearse with children inside it posted and perceived yesterday morning.
Last night I got informed by my sister that our Aunt 200 miles away had just died. I didn't even know she had been ill.Although her children were now grown up she has 7 children but gave birth to 8.that would explain the unusual sight of seeing children inside the hearse looking sad.
And I assume the air freshner was addressing the bad feelings that caused arguments between her family and the rest of the family. Things happened that were not nice so my father lost any contact with that side . I was not brought up with them so it had no affect on me,.I just felt it was sad to know my father was dying and he would never see his sister again and she would never see her brother in physical again. When dad died they did not call, send a card nor attend his funeral.

This is my opportunity to practice what I preach.
On this forum I replied to a question suggesting that we could all do with showing respect and if it isn't shown to us we should still show it . Lead by example.
So I shall contact my cousins. I shall send a card because she was my aunt and I believe she was a wonderful mother to her 7 children from the occasional visits we had together and as a child I realy realy liked her. They must be very sad.

**susan** · 22nd March 2015, 12:47 PM

Have I been given the meaning of a new symbol to look out for?
This morning waking from that very light sleep ( approx 30 mins) recalled the end of a dream.
I've drawn a picture. ( not good at drawing) It was a bird with its wings stretched out flying in the sky. Someone ( who I felt was my leader) asks to have a look at it and tells me " every time you see one of those it will mean a Soul Reunion".
I woke up but it was one of those times again when you feel you are suddenly woken up and the picture and words were the first thing to recall.
Yesterday through the day I had felt so grounded. Spent all day potting up seeds, plants, painting fence. Was in my element, loved it didn't want to come in. So last night when going to bed I had no intention of trying for anything through the night . The only thought I sent out before drifting off was for help in understanding the significance of seeing the young boy outlined in stars.
I wrote previously wondering why I'm always seeing a boy. The first page of this journal details me going on a journey and seeing a train stationery with green lights ahead. A very conscious OBE where I was put down on a verandah on a child's plastic chair and given a bowl of fruit and asked " haven't you ever seen a boys kindergarten before? " The boy I was taken to meet , that I loved from the bottom of my heart and there was a mother figure in the background.He had my hair colouring.
This is all listed in my first post of the journal.

**susan** · 24th March 2015, 09:16 AM

Was called by my name this morning and given some good advice , and missed an opportunity to exit.
Liminal stage ( shall use this term in future) heard ,
" Susan can I ask you a question? Do away with ........ ......... This was singing and was repeated again.
Wasn't sure if I'd heard correctly as it was a surprise so sent out thoughts straight away that I was sorry but didn't quite catch that. Could you repeat this again please?
The song was repeated twice again.
I know this is good advice about a policy that is due for renewal and the papers came but I felt this was an expense I could be doing without. I was lazy and just put the papers in the drawer deciding not to bother cancelling . Will make the effort today to cancel as I know this is right. I like the idea of the singing which I've had before.
Back to a very short light sleep when I woke up remembering seeing a bear in a bed sitting up and floating forwards like an OBE.
I was awake now and amused as it had nothing to do with the recalled dream ( my own mixed up thoughts) .wondered if this was a chance for me to try something so only spent about 5 mins energy raising and then silenced mind. Very soon I feel myself raising up very very slowly but the problem was I was too awake. This took me by surprise as it started whilst still almost awake. ( this happens when I think I am taken to be shown something) . My thoughts went to this and it was over, back to body awake.

**susan** · 27th March 2015, 09:16 AM

Rang up to cancel policy and they gave me a discount with a slightly changed term. Payements reduced. Happy with that.
Yesterday spent 1 hour energy raising of chakras. Later 4.30 am awake so little more bouncing body all over then circling feet before relaxing. Could feel energy travel up legs, body hot, shoved off duvet. Slept, woke up still very sleepy so started bouncing through body realy high as if the ball was reaching the ceiling. Slowly I feel lighter and being pulled up raising up and up. Was just about to shoot up through the ceiling when hubby turned in bed and put his arm over me. Drat! Spoilt another chance.
Last night I had done something to I pad and couldn't get the Internet on it so just read Michael Newtons book on kindle. This had me thinking. The accounts of regressed people accounting their journeys after a life here and it is all organised and vast. Seems to agree with Robert Munroes description. It reminded me of one of those vivid dreams where everyone was floaty and slow moving I had a long time ago where I was helping with assistance. Will record when I have time.

**susan** · 27th March 2015, 05:35 PM

Have just checked dreaming forum going back 4 years to make sure I hadn't already recorded this one I said I would post . Whilst looking at old posts nice to read of Neil talking of his ' internal jukebox he was getting when waking up that would have meaning to him. I read of my bliss having been standing on a dark planet with someone( page 11, dreaming forum) with two planets so close to where I was standing in space ahead of me I felt were orbiting the planet I was on. Beautiful colours peaking through the black sky.

Why has all this excitement gone? well that's not realy true . I suppose at the beginning this was an introduction. Everything was the wow factor! Now that's over the last two years seems to be how to be a good person. Either a well done ,or my faults being pointed out. I know I had to go through the 'fear' thing in astral . Clairaudience certainly in play more now. Just wish I could have some more Wow!
Recording this dream from a few years ago. ( seems to have similar characteristics to one of michael Newtons recorded descriptions.
Had previously been wondering about retreival work or something to do with helping in astral.
Dream.
I'm in what looks like an airport terminal with all the shops. Someone is with me but no words are spoken. Over in the distance I can see some people looking distressed sitting on a bench .But we are concentrating on the side we are on and there is a girl whose attention we have to get and make her follow us. She sees us and follows us round the corner. It's then we hold her . She is distressed. We tell her to lie down and go to sleep. A bed suddenly appears below her and she lays down.
Next thing tunnels/ corridors seem to open up all around us and the shopping mall has dissapeared.
These beautiful, gentle, semi transparent people just floated from the tunnel. 4 came over to us and put their arms round the girl speaking to her softly and told her to come with them . I watched as she was as if sleep walking with them down the tunnel they came from, and dissapeared. As I looked around I could see similar figures had come from different tunnels and we're taking some of the other people who were at the other side away.
Michael Newton writes of souls arriving at a central port he called a staging area. This was for the assembly and transfer of souls in mass to their final destination.
Two phases. Brought in and collected then projected to final destination. His accounts all seemed to suggest walking with large numbers of travellers through a central terminal of a metropolitan airport .
One client described the staging area as resembling the hub of a great wagon wheel where we are transported from a centre along the spokes to our designated space moving in and out of the hub in an efficient manner with no congestion.
Wish I could experience this again even if just a dream. I know I dreampt this well before downloading the book to read.

This instruction to lie down and go to sleep seems to be used quite often here.