Nursing babies

[susan]

Once again I wish I could draw.
Beautiful picture upon wakening of a black and white view of the sky and sea. Bang in the middle of the picture where the sky meets the sea was a man's head looking to the left and behind it was a woman's head looking out to the right .
That's three pictures now I've seen that are so 'thought provoking' . I've made up a name for these.
INFORMATIVE IMAGERY.

1) Jesus with the wings and white line vertical above head...

2) A circle made of a woman (doing the crab)connecting to the man making up the circle.....

3) Sea and sky with head of man and woman.

Will add more here if I get some to keep them together.

8.15 am woke to a burning flame vision in the brow. Very bright.

Having a short break now for 5 days. Off to ...paddle and kiss...( as I was advised to ) Will utilise the sun bed time to practice focus on third eye.

[susan]

I kept getting drawn back to the last experience I had 12/04/16.
None of the experience made sense but in the past I've always found almost all experiences have meant something. Something for me to take notice of so I put together the key points.

1) travelling at an incredible speed.
2) pitch black.
3) feeling I'd passed through..( BLASTED THROUGH?) something even blacker and solid.
4) No movement....complete stillness.
5) millions of lights perfectly still.

4 days prior to this 8/4/16 was the drawing of the Rocket and Atom and the Words picked up If you master the Red you can blast through people....Ion.

It often takes me a while to put meaning to events but I'm sure now that the first experience of the picture and words was directing me towards this area of reading.( Even then it took me a while to get the RED understood,) but because I didn't get it the actual exiting and travelling at speed followed as a second attempt.

Well I've got it now.Ive got a feeling I'm going to get lost in the maze but rather than just know what our body is made up of and how it is similar to Earth if I'm going to do this I have to do it properly or at least to the level of my ability to understanding .
So I'm starting with ,
The Big Bang Theory.

[susan]

Thought tonight I'd be writing up my notes on the Big Bang theory but instead I need to record this.
It seems I'm out of favour with myself again.

6.00am recalled a small short scene where it was a bit disturbing.

Dream.
I'm watching a news reporter with a camera focused on a woman. He announces that the president wants her to go back home but she is saying NO.
The camera focuses on the woman's mouth and goes closer as she says she won't and can't leave.Im left looking inside this woman's mouth which is injured inside on her left side and all her teeth on the left were missing.
( this was very ugly to look at and reminded me of the post when the woman's face turned ugly and she grew horns) On this occasion I was being reprimanded and the book I used at the time suggested not to judge people until I'd walked in their shoes. On that occasion I knew exactly what it was referring to.

I lay there wondering what this could have meant and had been wondering why the last few days on holiday I was having disturbing dreams. I was eating too much but that's what holidays are for.
When my mind went silent ready to go back to sleep I picked up..

" YOU CANN'T JUDGE PEOPLE BY THEIR RELIGION".

Stayed mind silence when picked up

" JUDGE THEM BY THEIR AURA".


Felt very dissapointed here because I realy had been aware of my thoughts while away. I hadn't thought badly of anyone and in fact enjoyed watching groups of different coultures and religions dressed in their own coultural dresses and covering their bodies or not whilst swimming.
Maybe my thoughts weren't as good as I thought they were.
Or I'm being encouraged to see people as individuals.

[susan]

I must must have the courage in future to record everything I pick up with the understanding that it may just be worthless but may just be relevant at a future date. It may appear a bit too convenient to add after the event but on this occasion I'm going to because I feel I have to.

Back to the hurdling through space experience.

1) As I approached the massive black area/ thing in space I felt it was solid like rock but because this was in non physical and I was experiencing this as it was happening I knew it couldn't be solid.
2) when I went through it and everything was still , the thousands of white lights completely still had me for a quick second wonder if they were energy/ life, but I had nothing to suggest this ,it was just an idea ,so I didn't record.
3) when the experience was finished I quickly thought " Stage 1"

So tonight I've spent time watching

Into the universe with Stephen Hawkins, episode 1 Aliens.

One theory on how life started on earth is the PANSPERMIA theory.
Apparently this theory has been around for a while but 2015 it was reported that it is gaining more and more support from astrobiologists as a strong probability.
Wikopedia writes of the hypothesis that life exists throughout the universe distributed by meteoroids, asteroids, comets, planetoids.

The video clip shows a massive black rock/asteroid hurdling through black space suggesting it could have been carrying frozen organisms( life) in them.

Universe needed 1-3 to exist.

1) Matter. = mass=. dust, ice, rock, gas

2) Energy

3) Space

Albert Einstein concluded that mass and energy are the same thing( 2 sides of a coin) ie atoms molecules)
So now only 2 requirements for universe
1) energy (1+2)
2) space
Spontaneously created by the Big Bang.

Was my experience a replica of this as I've already suggested just to spur me on to get me thinking .

[susan]

Yesterday morning quickly picked up a view of the upper half of a human body but it was the inside .I could see the heart and a whole network of viens , arteries and valves.
Didn't match up with dream and it had happened so quickly decided to analyse dream instead which was just nothing worth recording. Just starting to feel sleepy and mind went silent then picked up

"LOOK FOR THE HEART OF THE UNIVERSE". This was like a soft voice.

As the day went on I had been wondering why? ( I hadn't worked it out yet) After all I already had enough homework and had planned the order I would do this in when I had time.


( have planned out the order I'll read ,
1)The Big Bang
2) what our bodies are made up of.
3) what plants are made of
4) what soil is made of.
5) finishing with more insight into this PANSPERMIA theory
To some this will be very much kindergarten stuff but for me this is the stage I have to start.I must see it written down to understand then know.)

This morning recalled a very short sketch.
I'm sitting at a table unwrapping small wooden beach huts and lining them up. They're only about 8inches tall each and they are facing the sea.
Someone comes over to me very quickly and asks me

" have you noticed that the windows are facing inwards?"
I pick one up and find a little window at the bottom and say yes they were facing inwards.

So this morning I googled key words .......Heart ..Universe .. And it all makes sense.
Was this me being encouraged to look deeper within myself. To go inwards.
I found a very informative piece of writing called
THE PATH TO THE HEART OF THE UNIVERSE.
Golden Precepts of Esptericism by G Purucker.

In it he/ she writes that the first step is to recognise that all comes from within.
The inmost of the inmost of you is a god (higher self) a living divinity.
In yourself lies all the mysteries of the universe. By going deeper into yourself you go deeper into the mysteries of universal nature.
I've pasted it below as its a good read and is relevant.

( a note ...I promised myself I wouldn't miss any detail out so here goes. The other morning after learning about the Big Bang I woke up to a quick thought. ..BEFORE THE BIG BANG WAS A THOUGHT.

Will have to follow in second post as its long.

[susan]

Something beautiful had just happened.
The text was too long so I was taking out chunks and as I scrolled down there was a piece of writing about the heart and inbetween the words was a small red heart!
I hadn't noticed this the first time of reading the chapter and thought it looked a bit out of place but was positioned well as it came after the word heart.
Went to original site to see if it was there and there is no heart there. Came back to this site and it's gone. ( may just be the workings of the site picking up a word it didn't like but positioned it beautifully if it was that.)

Link to the writings.

http://www.theosociety.org/pasadena/goldprec/gp-1.htm

This goes on for 7 chapters and seems a realy good read.


1 — The Path to the Heart of the Universe (21K)

2 — Old Age, Disease, and Death (45K)

3 — The Inner God (20K)

4 — The Great Heresy of Separateness (16K)

5 — Love is the Cement of the Universe (14K)

6 — The Chela Path (30K)

7 — The Buddhas of Compassion (17K)

[susan]

Clairvoyant vision this am.
But before that ....

Woke up at 5.35am remembering seeing a man pointing to his temple as if looking at me and I think he had a symbol of sorts on his forehead.
This got me wondering of the different meanings ( to think? Allow thoughts to come through?) After all this is used by some to reference to ' think about it'.

Settled, no energy work, just looking into the brow then very quickly things changed.

Vision got brighter and something was swirling around ( no colours just black and white the whole time)
From a distance an eye comes closer moving all the time. This wasn't a drawing like 'The eye of Horus'.This was a single human looking eye. Lasted about 3-4 seconds then disapeared to the right.Stayed focused. It felt I had my physical eyes open but I wouldn't have .
Next a young boy came closer . He was still a baby but I could see he was a boy. I was viewing this as a hologram.He was see through and movement was fluid, never still, constant gentle swirling movements.
He was being held by a young man who appeared the same holographic way. Baby disappears to the side and face of young man is infront of me again. This is so different to dream images of characters. He swirls away to the right and everything is gone.

Thoughts.

I've had the same human looking eye before. Must look up in journal to see what followed each time if anything.
Although the man and baby were facing my vision I didn't get the feeling they were looking at me.
I'm almost certain this has been me in the past as I've seen past lives in the same way. Always young boys .Always viewing consciously within the brow.The young man also got plenty of air time so was I both the baby and the young man?

Need to get back here to list when I've seen this eye before.


Back to edit.
3 times previously seen the human looking eye.

Pg 4 18:3/13
Single human eye at end of tunnel. Very next day I was shown the young boy with the silver white wig I believed to be a past life. Prior to this had been advised to take notice of any trips.

Pg 10 27/7/13
OBE Single eye stays for a few seconds.Flying high over 3 pyramids, later came across what I thought were gatekeepers but this was something that was to be worked out . I ( eye) was above pyramids.Symbol on dollar bills . Eye of providence.

P24. 7/3/14
Seen just after failed attempt of two astral arms and hands tuck underneath my waist trying to raise me up.

I cannt come up with any conclusion as to when they crop up or why but each time something exiting happens.
( but then again I get exited over all the experiences. )
Will spend no more time trying to work this out.

Back to edit.
I'm now thinking this may have been the eye of providence each time.
I think I'm being too particular expecting descriptions to be exactly as described in books. After all this symbol has been seen in different ways.
Within a triangle,
Surrounded by a blaze of light,
Within clouds.

[susan]

I've had to change my mind about man and baby from past life.
Reason being that all previous have involved period costume, or objects.

1) metal long pointed hats with 2 people carrier horse driven chariot type battle vehicles.( I was a young man dead on the ground on a battle field.)

2) shabby wooden house on stilts in river , hills in distance, men coming out of river with what looked like lobster pots, father and son in river still, bad weather ahead, got the impression of some storm drowning both father and son.

3) young boy with silver / white Curly wig , red velvet jacket with high collar.

4) same boy few years older , same long blonde hair but had got rid of wig.Black and white clothing wearing breeches. ( later discovered that the men started doing away with wigs and wore their hair
long. )

These were not dreams but shown but the last experience there was no hint of anything suggesting a time period.
I may never work this one out but the last light nap this morning I felt I was being urged to work out. This may have just been me myself trying to work out.
I picked up

An apple cut in half looking at the seeds.
Check the DNA.
I saw my signature at the bottom of posts on this forum highlighted.( but then again I have been practicing the bubble quote from instructions DC very kindly posted for me. )
Maybe eventually I'll work it out .

[susan]

Dream this morning.

I'm high in the sky in the back of a small craft like a helicopter. I seem to remember people out floating a distance away. Only 3 or 4. They keep flying up closer, getting closer to the craft but I'm a little scared.
Eventually the pilot flys away from them and turns the small craft upside down. I'm scared because I feel I want to hang onto something incase I drop out but now we have landed .

Thoughts.
I've tried to think how this could relate to anything in physical life but nothing's coming up. I didn't watch tv last night so no program could have influenced me.

Key points.

In a vehicle
Not the driver
Being approached
Fear ( I didn't wake up feeling fear, )

I wonder if this could be what is happening whilst I'm asleep, but being translated in a dream as info.

Could I be coming closer to spirits/people trying to help me but something is frightening me? My vehicle ( energy body/ the helicopter) I'm safe but didn't feel safe within when it turned upside down.

That's all I can come up with at moment . May change mind if something else comes up.

Dream from other night)

I'm entering a big school hall and its full of people sitting down. The headmistress is on stage and another woman goes up on stage. They both look in my direction and come off the stage and come right up to me right at the back.
She's holding a big plant leaf. I see little specks in a group in the middle of the leaf. She tells me to look at it and holds it right in front of my eyes. " look! It's alive. It's living!"

[susan]

need to log new thoughts on last one. I think I know what the flight was meaning.
Could this be the slight worry in the back of my mind about our trip coming up to Tunisia which is still a high risk area for terrorists.Because of the shooting on the beach of British tourists our last trip got cancelled and we missed the engagement. This August is the wedding and we are going. Life is too short and we are going to enjoy ourselves with family out there .
However my mind has been playing over possible things that could happen.
I cannt believe that I didn't even think of this at the time I was trying to work out why I dreampt this.
Also, I think the Egypt Air plane to Egypt that had a tragic ending I think this was just a co- incidence that the timing was the same. The reason for this is I felt safe in the end. When I had what I now believe to have been a warning about the beach tragedy this was because it involved my plans for the holiday and I woke up feeling the worst possible thing that could happen had just happened. I was shocked when I woke up .
I need to remind myself that feeling has to be taken into account when working out.
( then again I may change my mind again!)

Also maybe the eye was the eye of providence as its depicted as sometimes seen in a burst of cloud or light.