Nursing babies

[IA56]

Woke abruptly this morning with what was like an explosion in the head.
Recalled seeing a greenhouse floating in deep black space and the roof explodes and shatters into pieces with coloured fireworks flying out of the top.

No dream recalled.

Thoughts.
I haven't had a headache but for the last few weeks have been getting sudden quick sharp pains in head.
I wonder if this was one of them and my mind created an explosion scene.

Don't think was a brow centre strobe simply because all energy work has been halted for xmas. Too busy.

Greenhouse, well it certainly isn't on my mind at this time of year but I love my greenhouse, and this is where I love nurturing new growth from a seed to a beautiful flower.
"Investment in the Evolution of consciousness" was posted previously as clairaudience when thinking of the growth of a seed to a flower.
Ive had a greenhouse in deep space before posted somewhere in the journal during an obe. May add later when found.

Yesterday, Prior to this, finally house to myself I had spent 3 hours on u tube watching sacred geometry clips and going over the five Platonic solids.

Hi Susan,
WoW so clear symbol.....blowing the roof of....to be able to grow and develop...congrats

Love
ia

[susan]

IA, I wish I could give you a big hug right now as ive just read what you wrote on the 'If I had cancer forum'.
Sometimes people have something going on deeper within themselves so when they respond they maybe dont realise the other person is being hurt by their words.You must continue with your journal as this is for your own benefit and reflection.Your own thoughts within yourself are more important to you than strangers words.
Its 18.43 right now, New Years Eve and in bed. Gave myself mild food poisoning yesterday from a boiled egg that had a damaged shell. Should have known better.
Must work on intuition more closely. I knew it was damaged but dismissed the quick thought that it could hold bacteria.
Anyway back to normal now but found this.
http://zoharstargatetv.com/video/video/342

EDWARD CAYCE READINGS ON SACRED GEOMETRY.

Want to store this here.

Covers much in short time .
48.30 mins in it covers

DNA
The fabric of ourselves.
A computer graphic of our human DNA shown as a twisted ladder but then turned to look longways down the centre you see what looks like a 6 pointed star. Could be interpreted as The Star of David. Also known as The Star of Creation.
He describes as bringing heaven and earth together. The infinite within the finite. The sharing of the fabric of the universe found within the universe and found within ourselves.

[susan]

Today an elderly lady told me a lovely story of the only time in her life she has heard an internal voice speak to her.
She used to attend her Catholic Church with her husband who was failing in his battle with cancer.
Those who were ill would be called up to the front for some healing and their partners would go up with them also.
On this one occasion the priest didnt call up the partners so she was left sitting on her own and she was wondering why the partners weren't asked to go up with them when she heard a soft voice inside her head say to her,

" BUT HE WAS ONLY EVER ON LOAN TO YOU".

If only everyone who looses a loved one could hear that internal voice. Far more comforting and memorable than spoken words.

Lucid dream must remember to record where I was flying over red soil With a single train track. I think symbology here.

[susan]

Had been in and out of sleep due to overheating . Light dream where I was aware I was out.
Lucid dream.
Had a body this time.
I'm slowly coming down to land. It was so gentle. I'd landed in what seemed to be a red soiled big field.
I was standing on a single tracked train line. At this stage I wasnt sure if I was realy out so tried to fly but didnt get much off the ground. The vividness of the red soil had me wondering where I was. Was this Real Time Zone , somewhere on earth or had I projected into a dreamscape. I was thinking this through when suddenly in the distance two characters appeared. They were looking over at me and flew in the air coming closer but kept their distance. I remember thinking "oh good, I must be in astral".
I only remember the features of one .
Immediately I blurted out, ' finally someone to talk to , are you my guides?'
This next bit is the strange bit because he faces me and asks me if my name is Susan..( he uses my Maiden name) He asks me to come with them ....

The dream continued but doesnt need to be recorded .
1) It was the bright red soil and train track I want to note.
2) why was my Maiden name used?

BUT the best for me was when awake I thought of the character who spoke to me and remembered who it was.
MR T from the A TEAM program from years ago.
MR. T was a big strong guy who loved his jewellry and always had his neck full of gold necklaces, like a thick scarf.

I love it because I have spent the Xmas period being a bit naughty and ordering jewellry on line. Got a necklace , then Ankha pendant, more jewellry just hoping hubby isn't in when they arrive.
I was feeling good but guilty.
If this lucid dream was all my own creation I love my sense of humour.

[susan]

Maybe just a made up dream and I only want to record experiences that to me are meaningful otherwise I wouldnt be able to separate the irrelevant from the relevant but there are points about this one Ive decided to note.
First, most of it is forgotten but I remember we were with friends who had come to visit us. I just remember the ending. Me and my friend were on a long narrow open train like a fairground coaster ride . Our friends who we had been with were leaving now and they passed to the left of me dissapearing as they got just a few feet in front of me. Then up ahead in the sky just in the direction they had dissapeared the most beautiful energy colours but very faint all clumped together. The colours were all merging together standing out in the black starry sky.I pointed the colours out to my friend.
Then I point to behind us and say, " look their friends are leaving as well. Its a shame you were scared."In the sky I saw their friends best described as large flat round floaty pink shapes just like jelly fish. The scene was awesome because of the sparkling stars. They ll flew off.
I say its a shame we have to go now and suddenly the train plummets down as if it realy was a roller coaster and slowly comes to a halt just on the shore line with the sea infront of us.

Woke up still feeling the churning of the stomach.
This may have just been due to the previous dream but the colours were beautiful so ive noted it.

Also on wakening up I thought of a shoe and thought ' good clean living".

[susan]

Working out the meaning of something I had picked up resulted in a brightness behind the closed eyelids.
This happened twice this morning.just like opening shutters in a dark room.
Somewhere in journal I'd written of experiencing this during an informative dream experience and reading later how Kurt Leland saw this happen to a lady he was witnessing in the dream zone trying to work a puzzle out and when she was correct the room would get lighter. This was confirmation that this was right.

This happened after I woke up to 'think of a poppy'.

( through the day a lady had told me that she adores poppies.I thought no more of the comment)

Thought I should have to look this up in morning but decided I must think of what it means to me now, not what a book says. I thought of Rememberence day and poppies so decided that poppies remind me of people who have died during wars.
As I thought this the brightness behind eyelids happened. Lay semi awake when I picked up

" her husband was found dead in a field".

Immediately I thought of the time I felt I was being shown past lives when I saw a picture of what seemed to be going back centuries ago with strange carriages and men with strange pointed metal hats on. This was a battle and there were dead bodies on the ground in a battle field but I felt immense sadness for a young man lying on the ground amongst other bodies but my feelings were for the people who would feel the sadness of his death.
I was awake now and thought this through wondering if this was all connected when the lightness started up again.
So Ive had this in the dream state before but this is first for awake but dozy.

Back to sleep and just after a dream that I've got a chemistry exam tomorrow and haven't prepared for it ( could just be to do with all Im wanting to learn) my dream finishes with watching about 15-20 men walking towards me. They all had black suites on.But it was the black that was noticeable and got me staring. The black was blacker than black. They wore the blackest colour you could imagine a black to be. They are now standing to the side of me.
I woke up and thought this last bit through and suddenly came to the idea of MEN IN BLACK from the film.
I only ever saw the first film so this morning I googled to remind myself what exactly it was about.

Wikopedia
Best kept secret in the universe. Working for unofficial government agency they are providers of immigration services and regulators of all things Alien to earth.
Policing aliens protecting the earth from intergalactic threats.

I wonder if they could represent what Robert calls Gatekeepers.Other authors write of similar energies representing almost a look out to prevent dreamers entering areas that we shouldn't enter. As kurt says he was told they cannt let dreamers into designated areas where they could cause havoc because of their behaviour due to their dreaming mind.
Also , just the desire to visit somewhere is not enough for entry. I think Ive had this before but in the form of black robot type characters.
I just love the humour, whether it was my subconscious creating these or other I just love the humour.

[susan]

4.am awake,wondered if I should try anything but decided I was too cosy and should just go back to sleep. Tried to recall dream but nothing was coming. Had left it too long then suddenly I thought very quickly.

" I'M YOUR HYPNOPOMPIC PLAYMATE WHO REIGNS FROM ABOVE".

Crept out of bed to write down so wouldnt forget. Back to a light sleep where analysing the dream seems to be about NEWS at a fast pace. ( I haven't been doing any for a few days).So easy to get caught up in physical life and then only spare time is spent reading and learning. I think I am spending too much time reading and not enough doing the practical. Experiencing for myself is worth 100 books to read. So must get back to more practical application.

Back to the words above.
Is this playmate the same as 'YOUR PETER PAN THAT I AM'?
Is this part of me or not?
The suggestion is that it IS.("YOUR, I,")It has a mind of its own and makes me laugh.
I prefer to leave this question open . Its more fun rather than taking the answer from a book.

[susan]

I have to log this because it came so quickly and I think sums up everything.
Im standing over the sink in kitchen listening to lovely music thinking of washing, dusting, floors to clean etc and decided to first do a little aura practice with orchids on windowsill.This got me looking at the veins running through the petals right to the edges. Just like our capillaries and veins throughout our body helping to keep the cells alive.
But this wasnt getting any further on with the housework, so must get on with cleaning when I thought to myself,
" why am I doing this? What am I aiming for? What do I hope to achieve, other than seeing colours?
Immediately an answer came
" to create a beautiful mind", and imagined a butterfly with its colourful wings spread out.

This makes total sense to everything

[IA56]

I have to log this because it came so quickly and I think sums up everything.
Im standing over the sink in kitchen listening to lovely music thinking of washing, dusting, floors to clean etc and decided to first do a little aura practice with orchids on windowsill.This got me looking at the veins running through the petals right to the edges. Just like our capillaries and veins throughout our body helping to keep the cells alive.
But this wasnt getting any further on with the housework, so must get on with cleaning when I thought to myself,
" why am I doing this? What am I aiming for? What do I hope to achieve, other than seeing colours?
Immediately an answer came
" to create a beautiful mind", and imagined a butterfly with its colourful wings spread out.

This makes total sense to everything

Thank you Susan
I did get tears in my eyes when reading your post...Life is presious and profound...in all levels...we need to connect with it´s beauty...LOVE.

Love
ia

[susan]

31/01/17
Awake recalling dream to do with physical life when a very formal sounding voice announces.

" Your inspirational request has been heard by higher people".

This interrupted my flow of thoughts about the dream.
This isn't the first time I've had very formal sounding announcements interrupting my thoughts.
So what were my Inspirationl thoughts?
The only thing I can think of was the previous day I had been taking crash courses on astronomy i think for kids)

OMG OMG !!!! Its happened again. My ipad . As Im writing this my I pad had started playing a song again.
Children singing. " I like a Sleigh Ride...Merry Xmas ....

I have to think on this. Is the word 'KIDS' causing my I pad to pick up a song involving kids singing ???
Haven't got time now to finish .
Later...