Nursing babies

[susan]

I want to bring this forward as a reminder for me for when I become too focused in physical.
Seems events in the outside world we live in is the biggest hurdle for me quite often but serves as a reminder that no matter what ‘I’ am the midwife. I am the baby AND the midwife.
I have to make the change to myself. I have to do the work but the midwife helping the birth is me also.
Just love the riddles.



20th July 2016
This morning had a lovely image of two people far in the distance on a very narrow path leading up to the hills walking away from my view ,but closer standing together on the path looking in my direction were two dogs. One looked adult and one smaller
Symbolism here I think.
No dream recalled with it but for the 45 mins after that much was picked up.
I think now I will have to learn not to let my mind go crazy full speed with what I'm hearing . I want guidance but I must filter what I see as important for my progression and what is just me and my thoughts.

The soft loving voice will always be listened to.
The riddles will always be worked out.
Anything out of those categories will be thought upon as "do I think this was just self talk."? Does it feel right?
After saying this to be honest I love everything I'm getting and much advice is given .
I just need to filter a bit so I don't go dizzy.


Picked up ....The root is the angle... ( riddle)

Googled root angle and there is no way the info that came up is understandable.way out of my depth so I have to take this from a different angle.( ah, just read this back and have used the term )
Roots.....plants have roots.
Angle.......

Last night I had had just a plateful of salad for a meal . Wasn't hungry. I knew I was eating healthily.
Still taking that disgusting green pond life but have actualy bought a second pack and mixing with water.
After such a bad start to this I'm just downing it as a ' 5 seconds of unpleasantness' .
No intention 100% of going vegan. See no need for it, but to have a healthy body plenty of veg and fruit.

'Keep up with the green bracelet.'

Green ..as mentioned above ..could be the Spirulina. ( very dark green powder)
Bracelet...could this be my pandora bracelet that I turned into a way of remembering any realy beautiful memorable experiences. ..tiny white purse...angel wings...Christmas tree...snowflake.

I visited the health food shop and bought spirulna along with other products recommended for third eye.

Starting to understand that when I have an experience that does not involve slowly raising up but more inside the head, even though I get the sense of up , down, right, left this is probably how the human brain interprets the act of expansion of ones consciousness.
If I get another I'll still describe as I perceive but now understand better.


Back to edit . No need for new post.
Just completed 30 mins focus on fixed object . Did the imagination of stretching arms out and feeling the surface,underneath, smoothness, roughness.( large fig leaf) imagination used for smelling. Then just concentrating on the fixed focus.
Using beautiful uplifting music.

Next. Upstairs to lay on bed, no music. Blacked eyes out and just tried to still mind.
Intended 30 mins, not very successful but near the end I started to think how difficult it is to aspire to be the kind of person that had all the impurities of this earth life taken away whilst still here. So much happening around us, on the news, radio. We have to function here and live and interact.
I thought of that lovely spirit I've written of many times that I had been taken to meet in the spirit world and just knew he/she/it was part of me .
Just after I had thought this and the mind went silent, immediatly very quickly I thought ..

" AND YOU ARE THE MIDWIFE"

Yes, I suppose I am the foetus in the womb ( Clairvoyantly viewed few days ago) but I am also the one responsible for the delivery. When I was told to look for the heart of the universe, to look within, the person I would like to be is inside me . I just have to get rid of the clutter and BE.

[susan]

Once again I’m bringing this forward to help as a reminder for me.
Struggling at the minute to bother doing anything. I want to clear unwelcome thoughts, to practice the third eye exercises , raise energy , but but feel there’s no point???????

This was a motivational piece written Here on this forum 10 years ago by a very very knowledgeable member .

AUNT CLAIR.
She writes,
Once a human enters a metaphysical path to have a " whatever happens, happens, come ci come ca" does not make sense. It is like giving up or " sour grapes".
It is the purpose of life and why would one that is aware ignore this?
To grow physically requires no thought or effort but to grow magically, metaphysically and spiritually requires much effort.
It will not occur without discipline and dedication.
........do not accept complacency and give up.....
.....none of us are nothing. None of us are without a legacy of spirituality. If you reach into your soul and connect with your Monad, you will find that you had unlimited potential.
The spiritual evolution that has been affected by Kundalini has caused humanity to slowly raise its consciousness to fly universally, to hear and see the eternal teaching spirits.to think globally and to feel with greater compassion.
One can contemplate, but without Clairvoyance, Clairaudience and Projection, the magician can not access the divine curriculum and attain Union .

Let’s see if this works.

[susan]

I’m wondering now if this is just not a good time to try for any mystical experience, whether clairvoyance, clairaudience or OBE.

Having accepted that we are stuck in the UK for an unknown period I’ve focused on the beautiful river I visit everyday, the woods with their mystery and smell, the sound of the birds that are hidden in the trees, the ducks, geese happily paddling In the river but equally important my son’s dog . Building communication between the two of us is delightful and tiring.

( Strange goings on with my iPad just now. The ringer bar for sound has just shown itself at the top of the screen and moved along to the right to turn volume up loud.
Well if I wanted to play with this I would say that what I have just written when it happened is important to take note of!)

So awake conditions are good. Decided two days ago to put effort into energy raising and visualisation skills. Before going to bed last night I was happy with my situation but this morning recalling a dream,

Dream
I’ve been put into a hotel room on my own. Outside it has an infinity pool just for my use which normally I would love but I notice the water in it is thick mud!

Having just read Antares post in his journal I’m wondering if World Thoughts of fear of the pandemic,and the unrest in the world and peoples fears in general of the whole situation has lowered the whole vibration of the planet affecting The astral where we would normally find ourselves in our unconscious state.

[susan]

This morning I was being told that,

“ There is Nothing You Have To Do. It Is Being Taken Care Of. Everything Is Under Control.
You Just Have To Stay Strong and Stay Brave”.

As I was recalling this I saw an image of a painted door with a large thick strip of the paint being pulled off showing the bare wood underneath.

[susan]

This was heard upon wakening.

“I HAVE THE KEY BUT STILL YOU HAVE LOCKED IT”

Dream recall has me walking towards what I feel is the Tardis from Doctor Who. I also see a combine harvester.

This is another of those I / YOU riddles.

Like the ......Your Peter Pan That I Am
......Look Into Your Eyes And I See Mine

This I/Me is separate but has attempted over the years to keep me on the right track and accompanies me in my Out Of Body excursions ,behind Me most of the time. Attempting to show me that it is me, or I am it.
Being shown my hand that I recognised as my wide broad hand with my wedding ring on but at the time this hand belonged to the person behind me transporting me .
This is all logged in the journal so when I pick up these YOU/I riddles they have to be worked out.


Thoughts.

Dr Who’s TARDIS is a time travel machine for going back and forwards in time.

A combine harvester is an operating machine that has the ability to produce the required result using different processes within the same machine.

The previous day I had been frustrated about my lack of skills just now and had been still wondering if this all had to do with everything going on in the world.

I’m wondering now if this is just me not having my mind in the right frame for anything . The infinity pool that was for my own use , not everyone else’s but was filled with mud.

If I am the combine harvester and the Tardis I still have the ability to put things into motion and acquire the desired results to explore the non physical but I have maybe Wrongly convinced myself that its not possible just now.

...I HAVE THE KEY BUT STILL YOU HAVE LOCKED IT...

[susan]

Yesterday morning woke from a dream but reason I want to record it is the strong feeling of love that stayed with me for hours later. As I knew I was loosing it and waking up I didn’t want to . I wanted to stay with this person who not only understood me but had the same interests.

Dream.

I’m with some people . I don’t even know in the dream if I know them but they are around me but then someone approaches and is so calming ,attentive, sincere and also excited. He understands me and gets excited giving me a biscuit tin telling me to look. Inside are small animals. They are so sweet and he feels the same love for them that I do . We both share the same love. At this stage I realise they are just models of animals and start to wake up.
Awake now I wanted to go back to hold on to the love coming from this person. I felt I had found my perfect match.

Thoughts.
This whole business going on at the moment is keeping me so grounded in physical and like so many people am struggling . My daily walk in nature is my medicine. The swans, ducks, birds, dogs. If I can keep this connection and love for the animals it may help to keep from all this doom and gloom around.

[susan]

Singing again this morning with no dream I could remember.

“When She Meets Another Me,
And I Meet Another You.”

This just confirms my search for who I am .

[susan]

I’m here to record what Ive just picked up in the hope that I will push myself back into practicing.

Upstairs now just lying on my bed watching a video by Matias De Stephano on the Gaia channel. He was talking of his memories of past lives and the time he was a woman standing in front of a pyramid and the river Nile......
This had me recalling some posts I’ve written involving similar when I suddenly felt so so tired. Switched video off and closed eyes and must have just dozed off within seconds of closing eyes .
Woke up quickly again seeing a dream image of the back of someone bouncing a football. The ball then goes behind him and bounces and hits him on his back then flys into a goalpost. Just as it enters the net I get the words

“ Now the ball is back in your court.”

I just feel compelled to write this to urge me on as I’m at a crossroad . Spending too much time reading and not enough time practicing. Nothing I read is teaching me anything new, but then again I don’t know what I’m searching for in books.
I want to learn and experience but I’m wasting time reading instead of practicing. Cannot even see auric colours now.

I was quite amused using the ball to hit the person’s back to represent ‘the ball being back ...’

Must do the work!

[susan]

When something happens I can’t explain then I want to note it .

This morning I visited this site and after reading some posts decided that I must get back to everything. ( AGAIN!!!!)
To do the energy raising and be more serious about this so I went to the search bar and started to write the words

Raising Kundalini.

The search bar was empty when I started and I watched my fingers touch the keyboard but got as far as the letters

Raisi

I looked up to the bar , but instead it was reading

NO.

Thoughts
I’ve felt such tiredness in the last couple of weeks. Heel pain from too many walks with the dog but it is exhausting me.
I just want to sleep all the time.
No way could the fingers have hit the wrong key, nor does it make sense for predictive text.
Just wanted to note.

[susan]

Had decided to try throat friction using the late Samuel Sagan’s method.
Oh dear, the saga goes like this……..

Practiced one hourly slots using a u tube clip.Tried this for 3 days in a row but on fourth day woke up with a sore throat. Very sore. Annoyed with myself that I must have been irritating my throat with the friction so stopped the practice. 3 days later I feel it slowly getting better but still uncomfortable. Then comes a little cough , throat goes away but cough is more persistent..

To fast forward the story Ive been tested and have ♥♥♥♥♥. Mmm wont let me put the word in but its the world wide pandemic virus.
In bed now isolating. The dumb thing is I was convinced it was the practice causing the sore throat, and maybe it was and weakened my immune system, Ive had the two jabs and at 65 have been very responsible never visiting shops( online shopping) don't go anywhere. Hubby is the same. Just the garden and walking the dog.
I think to sum up my heel pain from too many dog walks was wearing me down and I felt exhausted and in pain all the time , irritated my throat ,and punch line is although I take spirulina every day and have done for years and consider myself super fit you just have to go with the flow….