GRATITUDE LIST

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-clean teeth
-my pink light
-moisturizers
-having thte funds to get my lips done
-hot sauce
-johnny depp winning the trial
-getting help with my apartment
-chipotle
-tracking my weight
-hot guys
-my new art deco rug
-great designs
-having great taste
-socks
-sunshine
-getting things done
-working the whiskey festival as bartender and being told i did a good job and the boost in my confidence that was for me
-my allergies calming
-water
-hanging out with someone after my job for a short bit and being social
-the skyscrapers at night
-cat hugs
-being smart
-great acting
-art
-being considered very attractive
-learning
-getting info that j alleged to someone for me he only claimed to make the tape in 2018 to scare me off
-seeing that J's wife wasn't completely unscathed by 2018
-getting my power back
-healing
-newness
-rest
-making changes
-relaxing
-having desires
-cleaning products
-setting positive intentions
-trying new things
-luxury
-fashion

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-being loving
-seeing my life coach yesterday
-the smell of roses
-flowers
-cleanng products
-beautiful prints
-colors
-playing with color
-losing 13 lbs
-the cat tree being put together for the boys and how cute it is
-entertainment
-shifting some energy from trauma from 4 years and getting a lot of things unstuck
-humor
-attractive guys
-listening to my hypnosis sessions today
-reminding myself of my accomplishments
-ideas on how to shift my thinking
-making plans for the future
-releasing my emotions
-inspiration
-naps
-cat hugs
-beauty
-drinking water
-joggers
-healthy digestion
-my ambition
-creatiive ideas
-great design
-z unblocking me from twitter
-stretching
-connection
-remembering my roots
-allowing myself to feel
-having nice lips
-my phone charger
-music

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-lights
-my cats
-love
-blankets
-air conditioning
-cleaning
-walking
-rollerskating
-surrendering to the health experience i'm going through
-cleansers
-drinking water
-squats
-playing things smart
-evolving as a person
-agencies i work with raising their rates
-taking vitamin e supplement
-reading
-journaling
-night skies
-peaceful sounds
-being smart
-makeup
-focusing on more health conscious things
-clipping the cat's claws today
-my beauty
-having nice lips
-having nice eyes
-my little green hoya plant
-sunshine

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-putting my socks on
-walking
-snacks
-drinking water
-how loving my cats have been to me
-music
-almond milk being available to buy near my place
-appreciating my apartment
-skincare face masks
-joggers
-losing weight
-putting my ego aside and starting a gofundme
-kind words from others
-moisturizers
-surrendering and relaxing
-getting my new face rolling kit in the mail
-addressing my feelings to myself and having new realizations
-taking risks
-people thinking i'm very attractive
-my face looking thinner
-my pants fitting looser
-listening to chakra music
-trying to be productive
-organizing and cleaning things
-nightskies
-sunshine
-seeing my cats use their cat tree
-having nice full lips
-being offered free life coaching sessions for the rest of the month
-physical exercise
-hot tea
-being strong
-going back to my roots
-finding a heart rate monitor for my phone
-knowing my body can be very beautiful
-being told i look 15 years younger than my age, and having this happen on a regular basis
-looking in the mirror at the hospital with my hair a mess, no makeup, no skincare for over a week, stressed out in a hospital, in ugl hospital gown. not showering regularly and just looking at my face and myself for a minute or two and seeing beauty
-baby wipes
-my pink jumbo glowstick light
-having a compassionate heart
-not letting things get to me
-my childlike side
-new things

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-loving my cats
-peaceful outdoor sounds
-sunshine and the way the sun feels on my skin
-deciding to rollerskate today
-randomly putting my pride aside and starting a gofundme, and actually getting donations and halfway at my goal now
-getting my utility bill signed
-face rolling and getting new face roller set in the mail
-walking
-having great taste
-hair ties
-honoring my feelings
-having healthy nails
-kind words from others
-proving people who don't believe in me wrong
-being offered free life coaching sessions for the month
-free transportation to health appts
-flowers
-iced almond milk lattes
-cuteness
-remembering i can go to that quiet, happy place at any time
-looking way younger than my age
-doing the disability application again
-watching my cats play
-giving my cats treats
-trying to increase my producitivity
-air conditioning
-my weight lowering to the lowest i've seen it all this year and hitting a new set of 10's
-my face thinning out
-beauty
-music
-newness
-creating new
-honoring my feelings
-finding a heart rate app to monitor heart rate
-colors
-fashion photography
-having desires
-being brave
-being resourceful
-fashion

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-my pink light
-getting gofundme donations
-donatng plasma again finally
-socks
-my cats and i being family
-folgers coffee bags
-food
-working out
-great opportunities
-getting what i want
-getting a better therapist at my clinic
-being able to reschedule my appt
-fashion
-style
-beauty
-blankets
-looking way younger than my age
-remembering how to get to my happy place again
-taking some garbage out
-entertainment
-moisturizers
-ideas
-cuteness

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-reading some positive things to get my mindset more positive
-pain killers and medicine to help shakiness
-clean clothes
-walking
-coffee bags
-listening to some chakra music
-working on my recaps
-moisturizer
-makeup
-affirmation i look very young
-a charger being dropped off to me today by M
-how loving and cute my cats are
-my pink neon light
-changing the litter box
-sweeping
-cleaning spray
-getting positive attention
-the sound of the outside during summertime
-nightskies
-sunshine
-socks
-smiling
-fashion
-beauty
-art
-playing with lighting
-blankets
-processing and feeling my feelings
-faith
-surrender
-ordering more W cat stickers
-my femininity
-my beauty
-inspiration
-having had my dreams come true
-being a female
-being open
-cuteness
-new ideas

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-people being understanding
-getting another gofundme donation today
-waking up feeling a little more normal and less depressed today
-beauty products
-wanting to be beautiful
-taking out the garbage
-changing the litter box
-taking care of my skin
-my pink neon light
-being seen as attractive
-seeing the attractive nurse guy at the donation place i go to
-getting in a plasma donation today
-socks
-drinking water
-how cute and loving my cats are
-nightskies
-listening to chakra music
-reflection
-learning
-doing sit ups and my abs getting flatter and stronger from it
-ice cold drinks
-icy sweet drinks
-coffee
-my new no1 cares at all purse
-luxury lipstick
-having great taste
-working on self improvement
-finding the joy in it again
-my accomplishments
-being productive and speeding up how much i am doing
-good, passionate music
-seeing things more positively and working to change how i see my reality
-hot guys
-seeing i got a $50 transit card in the mail
-having an appt with a new therapist this week
-hot tea
-blankets
-relaxing
-surrender
-being kind
-being smart
-feeling the world change as my perception changes
-looking young
-having sophistication
-flowers
-healing

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-all those who donated to me
-having positive psychic money dreams
-getting paid for jobs in july
-proving those who want/expect me to fail wron
-snacks
-pillows
-remembering the power of gratitude and old desires manifested, even the simplest ones and the pleasure it brings
-chakra music
-M's husband checking on potential W sighting
-trying to be productive
-drinking water
-walking
-nightskies
-being stylish
-fashion
-beautiful designs
-working on my mental diet
-clean clothes
-cleaing spray
-having a place to live
-cat hugs
-seeking help
-manifesting my desires
-moisturizers
-new ideas
-wanting to be more motivated and to better myself
-trying to become spiritually rooted again
-hand wash
-cuteness
-being smart and elegant
-my eyesight
-colors
-weather feeling nice
-brushing my hair
-reading
-being in the know on trends
-allowing myself to feel
-creativiity
-art
-breaking apart walls holding me in from experiencing my desired reality
-my pink neon light
-ease
-having integrity

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-deciding to work on solutions to problems
-having jobs confirmed for October
-a job I applied to, having my lifecoach and M give them a good reference.
-my psychiatrist appt going well today
-walking more
-klonopin
-getting an offer for rental assistance and sending the w9 to my landlord
-taking better care of my skin
-drinking water
-having a nice intense ritual meditation last night
-waking up on time and making it to my appt
-being paid for all July jobs
-changing how I do things
-changing perspectives on things
-getting my eyebrows threaded
-touching up my hair color
-showering more
-people being kind to me
-positive memories
-cool, cute and creative designs
-getting my meowbucks apron for B cat's Halloween costume and how adorable it is and how well packaged it came in beautiful tissue paper and ribbon
-housecleaners
-deodorant
-evolving as a person
-immersing myself in new ideas
-trying to go with the flow
-feeling like I look thinner
-new desires
-how good the sun felt today
-my great taste
-fashion
-makeup
-having nice lips
-socks
-cleaning wipes
-hair ties
-having large eyes
-ab exercises
-self compassion
-starting a digital vision board
-being in the industries I'm in
-connection
-embracing being humbled
-compassion
-stretches
-nightskies
-filtering what I say more
-M still being nice to me
-moisturizers
-my style
-pedometer on my phone
-hot tea
-new ideas
-mind sunshine
-shedding away old layers of me
-beautiful objects
-art
-having a poetic mindset
-learning
-laughing
-overcoming
-appreciating living old desires manifested
-looking so young