-wanting to surrender to D
-feeling feelings for D,for sure feelings for him not wishy washy anymore.
-my hair
-going tanning today and the first time no issues with anything that made me have to ask questions and get embarrassed. how nice.
-food
-veganism
-ideas that come out of my frustration that i've been thinking about for awhile and playing with for a bit,that tells me it's a next phase for awhile and ways to put it altogether..this may be a new progression of my primary profession for awhile..
-all the laughter from my secondary career and how hilarious and twisted sense of humor my creative director has
-hilarious work jokes and posting a vaguebook reference to it and creative director posting hilarious comment back to it on my facebook status.
-worrying about D maybe taking the joke and reading too much into and reading it wrongly when really i was thinking about him with it just to see two hours later,he liked the status too. he liked the status about a joke he has no idea what it could mean unless he is going on my work page to get an idea which then he would see could be a flattering reference to him. it was very sweet puppy love for him to like that status and i'm glad he did. it may sound silly but guys who i like or am dating don't usually like much of my facebook posts,it's really rare, if at all so i'm glad he does. it may be silly but it makes me feel connected and like he's paying attention to me.
-how much better i feel about my hair since trimming the ends
-cheesy metaphysical jokes that are flirty and funny and my nerdy sense of humor
-that D is clearly paying a lot of attention to me i like how says things to try to impress me based on what i've written on my personal blog. he wants me the guy i want and it's so sweet
-how much has changed with me and D and how it feels like were already in a relationship. i just know were about to be,there's already a sense of closeness.
-sweaters
-fashion and style
-healing your past meditations
-creativity and art
-passion
-beauty
-healing
-tibetan singing bowls music
-keeping D a secret still. it's been about 6 days since i've mentioned D to the people i talk to the most and i love it. i feel it makes things much better and makes me feel better about things. the temptation to share is natural but i feel there's a beauty to keeping things quiet for awhile. i'd still feel silly telling anyone about him despite how much has changed in this last 5-6 days. i'd rather just surprise everyone at this point when something major happens and like were in a relationship or something.i just can't get over how much he has changed. it's like as soon as i came out with things last week,it cleared up soo much confusion for him and made him understand and see things differently and the more his confusion cleared up,the more mine did,too. it's been a very mutual clarification and ever since we just seem very united and like we get each other now.
-being a woman. it may have it's hardships but it's fun
-masculine energy
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