GRATITUDE LIST

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What a weird day. From an utterly peculiar message from L.E that I can't figure out(I even got a weird feeling,maybe dejavu after it),to extremely unusually warm weather in my city,to W cat returning shortly after I woke up looking very groomed and just eating in the yard like nothing had changed.
-W cat returning. Very happy start to my day indeed. Shortly after waking up,I went out to the yard a 2ndtime and there he was eating like no big deal. he looked unusally groomed..I've tried washing him and havent been able to yet somehow it looked as if someone gave the guy a bath. I brought him in and showed M's husband who was very happy to see him(he feels the biggest connection to W cat). M's husband told me he had spent part of the day going around the neighborhood looking for and calling for the missing cats,and apparently W cat had returned only 15 minutes after he was calling for him so he thinks W cat was closeby wherever he has been.
-dontco
-T kitten being all better
-T kitten sleeping with me
-going for a one hour walk with M
-things that make me marvel and hmm at the universe
-unusually warm,summery weather today...so utterly strange seeing people in t-shirts and jeans this time of year..it's usually coat weather!
-coffee
-sleep
-getting creative with my money and managing to buy myself an acupuncture session,ordering myself a dinner to be delivered(was craving red sauce) and ordered some more canned food for the outdoor cats and had free shipping on that.
-my paying jobs i have for march
-my job coming up this coming week
-getting a free class offer in my email and deciding to book it
-makeup
-fashion
-art
-creativity
-masculine energy
-cuteness
-sunshine
-TV episodes online
-awesome quotes and things to post online that fit my personality
-water
-backbends
-chlorophyll
-prayer
-inspiration
-motivation
-my phone
-nonconformity
-my insomnia that i had this time last year for some time having manifested itself as being cured. it's the little things.
-dimmer lights
-smiling
-unique beauty
-decluttering
-happy moments
-miracles

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-masculine energy

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*thumbsup*

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*thumbsup*

lol.

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-water
-coffee
-chlorophyll
-stomach getting flatter
-reassurance on what the heart is looking for in other places then first seeked,or even possibly in some ambiguous way in the way seeked as well
-happy and meaningful life moments
-love
-spirituality
-glitch in the matrix type experiencs
-my electric toothbrush
-L.E
-deciding to touch up my hair color and how great and soft it already feels
-music
-positivity
-colors
-good food
-happy stories
-cleaning out my purse
-cats
-feeling my feelings
-masculine energy
-meditation
-prayer
-W cat returning
-the internet
-yoga pants
-art
-creativity
-connection
-doing some studying
-getting a little work done
-nice warm showers
-doing some spiritual exercise last night before bed
-blankets
-sleep
-beauty
-entertainment
-laughing at life
-doing some reading
-loose hamstrings
-my glutes getting a nice curve and very toned
-coziness
-being unique
-doing more searching and posting flyers for S kitten
-hope and hopeful thoughts such as remembering even E cat from first litter went kind of missing for a bit and wasn't around much in late fall,and i was worried.
-signs from the universe

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-getting back into raising my vibe using sound therapies.
-music
-art
-creativity
-warm weather AGAIN today
-nightskies
-going to the grocery store
-the smell of cat fur
-funny and heartwarming things cats do
-being so close to done with article i'm working on
-my bed
-getting caught up on phone calls today
-sunshine
-coffee
-my stomach getting leaner,stronger,and more sculpted
-yoga
-yoga pants
-learning
-looking slimmer
-my hair looking and feeling nicer since touching up the color
-doing more studying today
-my style
-getting some more posters posted for S kitten
-M's husband saying he knows he will see T cat from first litter again
-my laptop
-blankets
-water
-chlorophyll
-glitches in the matrix type experiences
-kind people
-inspiring people
-dreams coming true
-positive things
-colored pencils
-being offered more paying jobs today and told about other upcoming ones later on

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-deciding to let go of L.E. For some reason he sent me another message today that only made him seem like even more of a jerk. i just don't get it. He's not the guy I thought he was in his videos. Plus,there's probably little personal aspects that wouldn't make it work. If he's already being a jerk now,it's best to just say no. After having gone through an awful abusive relationship,and all the other b.s i've been through,it's probably best i don't stay interested. i'd end up a punching bag. the weird thing is,i feel like the angry tension now I feel at him,feels like we already were dating,and usually when i have that feeling i'm pretty sure,i always have ended up dating that person. maybe,i'm just feeling that because i felt a connection with him,i don't know..just try to logicize it...I'm letting him go with love. Let myself do a little mini grieve over it tonight feeling my feelings,and am not even going to be mad after this. let him be who he is,where he is at. i thought maybe we really vibed but who knows maybe he's just a pompous jerk or was playing me like an experiment.
-that I somehow detached naturally without effort today. that's when i got the message,which at first seemed like it might be a nice,sweet one. all i did was focused on how good the nice weather felt and finishing up some work.
-the beautiful amazing weather again today.
-sunshine
-nightskies
-the beautiful way the air feels
-T kitten
-physical exercise
-deep stretches
-my stomach getting stronger
-chlorophyll
-finishing up my article tonight
-sweaters
-yoga pants
-my winter boots
-my electric toothbrush and how clean it makes my teeth feel
-my goals
-my motivation and desire to really focus on my goals
-creativity
-art
-hot guys
-finding a really great...and perfect timing even, love song that hit me deep with feeling
-fashion
-music
-entertainment
-going looking for S kitten today
-coffee
-feeling more focused
-all the paid jobs i have coming up
-doing some coloring in my mandala coloring book tonight
-all the offers i get that would bring me publicity and are high end and flattering
-positive changes,newness,and evolving
-the beautiful tortie kitten i keep seeing when we go looking for s kitten
-kind people
-pronoia
-trusting life
-taking less naps today
-loving myself
-water

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-being happy with my decision to let go of L.E and following my heart and avoiding him. if he's going to act like poor him,he can't be bothered,well then i'm giving him what he wants. he's probably too immature for me,and high maintennance. why did he even send me another message? it's as if he felt bad,but was rubbing it in that he's a cocky jerk.
-feeling my feelings
-listening to some solar plexus chakra and thetas music playlist
-my article being done and sent to p.r and posted on social medias and made public
-doing a little studying today
-music
-passion
-love songs
-backbends
-ab exercises
-loose hamstrings
-naps
-coffee
-getting a ride to work today
-beauty
-taking the train home today
-M's husband randomly giving me $20 today
-writing down some of my goals and dreams today
-yoga pants
-cuteness
-hot guys
-T kitten laying with me
-H kitten and T kitten bringing them in this afternoon when it rained. Poor H seemed a little afraid of the rain.
-my style
-fashion
-chocolate
-my job tomorrow
-my lower body getting nice and shapely and toned
-my venus dimples
-water
-entertainment
-naps
-heartwarming articles and art
-compliments
-doing a little reading today
-doing a little coloring today
-makeup

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-music
-discovering new things
-inspiration
-my job today and how great it was to be creative and back at it,and all the inspiration i always get on all kinds of things by working with other creatives
-new pictures of me
-how strong and toned my lower back is getting
-becoming more confident
-instagram
-getting another paid job offer for march
-cute and adorable things cats do
-getting some heartwarming pictures of T kitten laying right on my chest,sleeping
-getting flyers made of T cat from first litter
-cuteness
-facebook
-deep stretches
-finding someone who really gets a concept i want to do for something
-how nice it is to have my article completed
-working in the fashion industry
-smiling,and also realizing after having posted a smiling picture of me how incredibly unusual it is for there to be smiling pictures of me
-makeup
-feeling ready and desiring a real relationship
-pinterest
-coffee
-healthy digestion
-compliments
-beauty
-feminine energy
-unique beauty
-creativity
-being able to be around and cultivate feminine energy today
-M telling me she put money in my account tonight
-things that are funny
-leggings and yoga pants
-embracing some of the ways i've changed
-having big beautiful eyes
-waking up on time today
-beautiful night skies and how great the air feels
-making cats happy
-sweaters
-getting better at letting go
-entertainment

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-getting my next certificate for the course i've been taking. this one was the hardest yet.
-getting T cat flyers up on portal
-yoga pants
-coffee
-sleep
-my beauty
-t kitten and how cute he is just sleeping
-cute things cats do
-my kind heart
-being productive
-cute stories
-animal life and animal connections and observing life
-vegan ramen noodles
-deep yoga stretches
-my class tomorrow
-my phone
-blankets
-my belief starting to get stronger
-doing some reading today
-fashion
-femininity
-ignoring LE's last message,(i have no idea what it even says),and withdrawing and how great it is to let go. it's made me stop and reflect that maybe i should start waiting until after initial contacts with someone to decide if i feel a connection with someone. maybe that's where my troubles in the past have stemmed from,even.
-getting someone for a project i want to do
-ideas
-accomplishment
-meeting goals
-having nice curves
-pr being happy with my work and promoting it
-colors
-entertainment
-art
-creativity
-positive news articles

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-spiritual music
-hot tea
-physical exercise
-dimmer lights
-getting my next course certificate,since deciding to just cram in the courseload in a night
-my phone
-seeing the new pics of me,and that they were not too bad
-the realization i had before bed last night about letting go
-self forgiveness
-my headphones
-healing my stomach issues
-chlorophyll
-sleep
-my blankets
-my bed
-a nice journaling session today
-coffee
-T kitten
-putting up flyers for T cat today
-marinara sauce
-dedicating myself to letting go of anger
-feeling at least twice today,like time was slowing down
-my beauty
-having many talents,interests,and accomplishments
-deep cleansing breaths
-feeling myself little by little coming back to myself,and embracing inner quiet
-ideas
-pictures
-compliments
-sweaters
-my beauty products
-letting myself feel heart chakra sensations today,it was a sensation of sadness like my heart was broken. i let myself feel it,so i can feel the sadness fully, no matter how "silly" it,so i can truly let go. i let the sadness waves go through me. no need to add words to it,or identify it,but just feel it. i know how i am with guys when i like them. iget attached quick,then when they become jerks,i keep giving them chances. one thing,i've never tried before is this. instead,i usually just chalk it up to normal playing games and think it too early to say bye,and keep thinking of the good.
-cuteness. that is one thing my life has an abundance of.
-all the opportunities i get.very recently,just from someone wanting me to be a judge in a beauty paegant,to another person asking me to be on a podcast,and then someone that's a journalist who wants to talk about some things with me,and hear more about it.i said no to the first two,but might consider the last.
-inspiration
-taking less naps today
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