GRATITUDE LIST

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-candy
-coffee
-finding my xanax today
-benzos
-being social today
-meditation
-water
-getting invited to a party by an old friend E which first sent me into a tailspin but then i decided i will go,i am ready,this is a good thing
-my adidas hoodie
-being social today
-coming across a store opening giving away free wine and cupcakes
-friend insisting i take train home instead of uber saying she will walk me to the train and tell me how to do it,and so i did i took two different trains,it was easy,and i got home for $2.25 which was amazing. A big goal for me and accomplishment.
-finding out my boss who is the gf of the guy i like is actually much older then i thought. i thought she was about my age or younger,but she is actually almost 50 and as it sounds she practically is a sugar mama to him and they fight a lot. she even gave a job of his to my friend once during a fight.
-growing as a person
-cats
-hot guys
-hot guys who are chivalrous and protective. some hot young guy collecting politcal signatures gently pulled me to the side in a protective way when someone walked by. was so cute.
-my dolce&gabbana sunglasses
-my phone
-technology
-my body being nice and sore from all the yoga yesterday and feeling stronger
-kindness
-serendipity
-shopping
-colors
-stretches
-entertainment
-sleep
-appreciation
-learning
-style
-positive vibes
-the internet

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-entertainment
-vegan cheese
-not going to work today and not caring
-working out today on stairmaster,elliptical and kundalini yoga
-starting to feel a connection with R
-having fun and kisses with R after finally meeting up after all these years. we are both different now.
-R offering to buy me a handbag after me joking about him buying me a louis ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ bag. He's brought it up several times now i think joking
-R saying sweet things and seeming to really care for me and how i'm doing
-my sense of style
-spending an hour looking for P cat. havent seen her in about 2 days now. very stressful.
-meditation
-nice skies
-getting flirted with a lot and complimented a lot
-aloe vera water
-being told by M i look like im losing weight
-M's husband buying me munchkins donuts
-inspiration
-sending out a ton of emails for jobs
-my hair
-my beauty
-feeling in the halloween spirit
-fashion
-makeup
-my T cat. he is so cute.
-cuddling with L kitten
-meeting animal friendly people
-my phone
-uber
-growing as a person
-practicing written driving test stuff again
-getting savings to $300
-my job tomorrow
-driving with M's husband to and from pharmacy to pick up my meds
-motivation
-the book i've been currently reading
-getting approved for care credit
-my credit score improving
-cats
-nourishment
-letting go
-faith
-warm showers
-bike rides
-laying out in the sun the other day and doing outdoor yoga
-having nice curves
-lorazapam

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-calming and grounding
-caring people
-meditation
-naps
-self compassion
-my cats
-my job yesterday going really well
-caring people
-uber
-finishing up my book and elle magazine issue
-my style
-remembering my power
-cuddling with cats
-ghee butter
-bread
-vegan burritos
-spices
-soda pop
-water
-ideas
-talent
-being smart
-touch
-hope
-detachment
-the internet

[buttercup]

-doing 35 minutes of rebounding today
-feeling calmer and more grounded
-the weather being beautiful out today
-all going well with my doctor appt today
-attempting to pick up records at hospital today
-getting more money added to my account today
-confirming another job which makes up for more of the money i lost so far in earnings
-aloe water
-vegan burritos
-spices
-feeling empowerment
-my maturity
-having carecredit now and a good credit line with it
-my credit improving
-iced almond milk lattes
-ghee butter
-cuddling with cats
-great affirmations
-my life coach
-stretches
-my adidas hoodie
-my beauty
-lorazapam
-sending out a bunch of emails for jobs today
-great skincare products
-feeling like in some ways i am becoming more attractive
-beauty
-buying myself a face mask today
-blankets
-sleep
-listening to my hypnosis audios outside in the sun today
-my dolce&gabbana sunglasses
-music
-my taste in things
-smiling
-writing out affirmations for 3 pages
-my phone
-the internet
-entertainment
-inspiration
-water fountains
-my to-do list
-getting a document set up of disputing a fraudulent debt
-getting flyers made up of P cat. just need to print them tomorrow now.
-sunshine
-nightskies
-rest
-innovation
-technology
-letting go
-goals

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-my laptop
-buying myself some gouda cheese today.
-getting confirmed for an odd job last night and getting it all done today
-getting flyers made for P cat
-getting two checks in the mail
-buying myself the silver high top sneakers in the mail i've been wanting for awhile
-iced lattes
-positive affirmations
-physical exercise
-spices
-vegan burritos
-laughing
-naps
-cuteness
-napping with T cat and L kitten today
-staying motivated
-getting a lot done today
-waking up early today
-getting my savings to $400
-having a job interview tomorrow
-doing some journaling tonight
-confirming a job today
-getting some cleaning done today
-vitamins
-my new phone ring tone
-my femininity
-freedom
-how much more independent i've become
-shopping
-kindness
-doing some coloring in an old lisa frank coloring book i found
-smiling
-hot guys
-relaxing some inner resistance i've been having about my love life
-yoga pants
-hoodies
-entertainment
-lorazapam
-going through lots of credit things in my mail i'm trying to fix and doing some work on that
-being approved for care credit
-buying a new wall affirmation decal inspired by an affirmation given to me by my life coach to use for P cat
-efforts
-taking things one day at a time

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-my comforter
-other girl having trouble too with job which worked out since i ended up getting anxiety and not going and was able to use that to help my case
-my cats
-being kind
-wonder
-M putting money in my account
-coffee
-ghee butter
-chickpeas curry
-beauty
-vegan pizza
-my beauty
-art
-my computer
-my phone
-relief after feeling cranky and depressed over some things not working out today
-gratitude
-water
-the photofacial doing a good job of fading some flaws i wanted gone
-trying on my costume and how good i looked in it
-how great my legs looked in my costume before i put tights on
-naps
-sleep
-stretches
-my body being sore from a workout the other day
-after social plans going wrong,going crazy and deciding to buy $50 worth of my favorite candy,a halloween pop-up card for a friend who's party im going to and sending more cat food and dog stuff to my mom
-doing some coloring to relax
-sending out lots of emails for jobs
-being in the halloween spirit lately
-sending out emails on trying to find a dentist to get enameloplasty done
-music
-being complimented
-dimmer lights

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-getting my business meeting done today and getting a ride there and back
-M putting money in my account
-M's husband giving me $20
-S contacting me today
-compliments
-R contacting me and saying sweet things
-shopping
-my cats staying warm and toasty
-deep cleansing breaths
-naps
-my style
-coffee
-my beauty
-how effective my photofacial was
-doing a facemask last night
-makeup
-fashion
-buying myself a crescent moon barrette and a really cute work top or top that can be used as atheleisure with yoga pants
-walking
-deciding to rent a movie
-l kitten cuddling in my arms like a little baby
-the internet
-goals
-music
-beauty
-connection
-that it didn't rain today
-food
-aloe vera juice
-sending out emails for jobs
-being in a more positive mood today
-growing as a person
-newness
-yoga
-doing some cleaning and organizing
-things to look forward to
-my hypnosis audios
-high vibes
-M telling her husband i lost weight
-how relaxed T cat looks when he sleeps or has his neck or chin petted
-all my cats i love and care for and all cats in general

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-R thinking about me
-talking with R
-getting a check in the mail and it being larger then expected
-getting confirmed for a job tomorrow
-blankets
-aloe vera juice
-coffee
-finding out health scare wasn't what i feared and calming down
-lorazapam
-getting my book the secret in the mail
-passing out the rest of the flyers and brochures today
-doing some journaling tonight
-taking the bus by myself for the first time today and how easy it was. i wanted to something that scares me and is in the uncomfortable zone and chose that.
-that the weather was sunny today
-giving T cat a bath today
-cuddling with cats
-buying myself a new jewelry box
-putting another chunk of money into savings so i've now exceeded this month's goal of what i wanted in there which calms me down about all the job cancellations
-laughing at life
-having an interesting life
-sweaters
-showers
-M's husband buying me some chinese food to try
-entertainment
-my phone
-listening to my hypnosis audios this morning
-smiling
-seeing my cats thriving
-calling the referral place i was planning to call for the last few days
-getting a lot of calls/emails now from dentists for the procedure i want done
-activating my care credit card and registering it
-mobile apps
-making an appt for the other referral i got today
-getting a call about a job for a market coming to my city soon. didn't get a chance to call that back,got caught up in anxiety from health scare earlier then trying to finish other goals
-naps
-dimmer lights
-connection
-positive possibilities
-crossing things off my to-do list

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-R saying more crazy things like he thinks i'm like a soul mate.
-R saying all the time i'm his which is cute
-when R used a lint roller on my pants the other day. i remember those quirks of his and they are hilarious.
-R saying all these sweet things to me that make me feel good
-seeing R again he was there first at starbucks and insisted on paying for my coffee order. We ended up going back to his place which i didn't want to do. He tried to take a pic of me with his dog which is crazy. What if his fiancee sees that? We ended up kissing and hugging and me having my face in his neck and him saying thank you when we hugged which im not sure what that meant.
-R saying he wants to buy me sweets online and that it'll be a surprise.
-getting my big box of candy i ordered in the mail
-vegan burritos
-getting my new silver sneakers in the mail
-working tommorow
-my style
-fashion
-making up for all the jobs i lost
-exceeding my savings goal for the month which means next month will be easier
-getting my body scrub in the mail
-M buying me the k2 vitamins
-l kitten looking a lot better today and healthier
-cuddling with my cats
-M putting more money in my account
-using per diems to make my account a little healthier
-uber
-lorazapam
-iced hazelnut almond milk lattes
-sleep
-naps
-makeup
-my phone
-people to text
-physical exercise
-warm showers
-sunshine
-nightskies
-doing another challenge even on day i seen R. i took usual train but got off on a different stop just to get more comfortable with the trains
-getting a check in the mail today
-hot guys
-some kind of attractive guy kissing me on the head today at work
-music
-fun
-having a cool job
-beauty
-compliments
-models
-laughing at life
-nightskies
-updating my web portfolios a bit
-doing some reading
-meditating last night
-warm showers
-relaxation

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-feeling inspired to text R after his ignoring games
-herbs
-finding out sociopath ex who dropped me last year returned to not eating meat
-soup
-that i get to work tomorrow
-nourishment
-spices
-my phone
-getting all the cat houses in scaffold area and cat bedding cleaned
-l kitten feeling so much better and how beautiful she is
-cuddling with l kitten. she cuddles like a baby,putting herself circular in your arms and going really close to your face. it's adorable.
-water
-making my bed
-doing some practicing driving the other day
-my beauty
-reading more of the secret
-M making me umcka tea
-getting in a good workout tonight of the stairmaster and bodyworks class
-my bed
-blankets
-warm showers
-working the other day,and using a microphone.i was so nervous at first but then it was fun
-new work photos
-texting E for his number for his party this weekend
-my confetti dolci candy
-my silver sneakers
-gratitude
-getting more p cat flyers posted up
-the internet
-relaxing
-being productive today
-listening to my higher self and feeling some inner guidance
-M invited me to halloween store the other day and to starbucks
-makeup
-catching up on phone calls
-having a kind heart. had a cat follow my while hanging up a flyer for P the other day,just meowing and waiting for me. I tried to lead it to the yard for food but it didn't come all the way,just halfway. im guessing the cat got nervous.i asked neighbors out if they knew the cat. After i got back,i grabbed food to bring to the cat but couldn't find the cat.
-being sick forcing me to take it easy on myself and chill out
-newness
-that i won't have my time of the month by the time the party this weekend
-my psychiatric medications
-colors
-great deals
-positive mindset
-praise