GRATITUDE LIST

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-opportunities
-positive possibilities
-being a positive person
-healing herbs
-vegan food
-nourishment
-being able to work yesterday and tomorrow
-music
-randomly hearing from my brother after over a year and that he is doing really well and has a great job where he gets to travel and is in miami right now. he sent me pics. very inspiring. made my day.
-posting more on social media lately
-coffee
-telling R how I feel and finally hearing something from him today after one text of sharing good news with him and another random topic i shared so two texts from him
-cuddling and playing with L kitten this morning
-beauty
-cats
-my new work pics
-my beauty
-my status
-remembering good times
-candy
-M's husband taking me to get female time of the products
-the sun shining today
-the cats doing well
-putting up another flyer for P cat today
-doing some googling last night and seeing some cheap apartments that aren't in my city's worst ghetto do exist
-ideas
-having a kind heart
-sleep
-finding a great deal for free startbucks $5 giftcard at dentist i am going to today when i bring in postcard they sent
-getting card in the mail im giving friend E this weekend and how cute it is
-kindness in others
-M's husband getting a new area for cats set up for the colder season
-inspiration
-supportive people
-someone from my second business i do sending in their materials
-that it's not raining today
-motivation
-taking things one day at a time
-being easy on myself
-my bed
-blankets

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-R being so amazing. I feel like i'm falling for him. He was so worried for me the night of the party and after we met and has been so chivalrous and sweet and like a best friend and everything. he's disappeared again the last thing he told me was he didn't think his dad was going to make it. I sent a few texts but am trying to give him his space since i know how he is. He bought me a staightening iron and helped me get ready via pics i sent back and forth and was just so sweet and there for me. He's changed so much. He's like the perfect guy for me now. It's crazy and weird because if this came full cycle it'd be ironic and very karmic seeming.
-clean teeth
-the halloween party i went to. so glad i got to wear my costume finally and see my friend E. It made me feel like life was back to normal.
-making new friends
-giving E the cute halloween pop up card i got for him
-nonjudgemental people.
-my phone
-people to text
-getting to celebrate halloween this year
-the weather being better today
-standing up to myself when two different people from work were rude to me in the last few days
-the doctor who said i have early stage of c cancer being very nice to me and saying we will reverse this
-kind people
-positive people
-high vibe people
-supportive people
-after S hurting my feelings,him resolving things with me sweetly and in a way that showed effort and being nice and there for me
-cuddling with L kitten. She's a sweetie. Pretty quiet and a cuddle addict
-getting two new collars for the cats
-feeling healthy again
-two different people making it sound like R and I might end up together
-my bed
-blankets
-drinking my aloe vera juice today
-coffee
-getting along better with M's husband lately
-getting two articles up on my 2nd business within the last few days
-all the people who help me out in my careers
-E texting me and inviting me to a concert today
-my digestion improving
-all the comments from M and her husband on how much weight i lost and that i look good and seeing it in pictures that i am looking like my old self
-makeup
-getting my new backpack in the mail
-hope
-music
-new experiences
-inspiration
-smiling
-being smart
-my beauty
-getting flirted with and asked out a lot
-doing some more reading of the secret today
-my creativity
-my kind heart
-putting up more flyers of P cat
-affirmations
-listening to my hypnosis audios today
-deciding not to go to work today so i can have a day to get my head together
-colors
-writing out some affirmations yesterday and today
-meeting new people all the time
-lorazapam
-becoming more self sufficient
-finding out im going to be another magazine
-getting an image back of myself i liked and putting it on social media
-updating work things with new images i have of myself from work
-deep cleansing breaths
-M's husband thinking of ways to keep the cats warm this winter
-my confidence growing
-being productive
-sunshine
-uber
-M's husband saying they're not planning on leaving me with nothing when i move out
-having nice curves

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-seeing my life coach yesterday
-that i can see my psychiatrist today
-vegan food
-getting a bale of straw for outdoor cats yesterday and setting it all up in the new winter housing area for them and them seeming to love the new setup
-R texting me yesterday morning and me telling him i meant what i said and feel. Then,after talking to life coach,sending him some texts last night coming clean on how i feel and being firm on some things. of course,now i feel awful,but looking back,i wasnt too harsh in original text and yesterday,all i really did was come clean even more. i hope we can get past this and feel like we will.
-fashion
-my cats
-staying strong through all the b.s that went on in the last few days
-bank being supportive and boss taking my side after being bullied by the jerk co-worker
-my new jeans
-compliments
-being asked out a lot
-sleep
-new friends
-my style
-buying a red skirt this morning since i couldn't find a black cocktail dress online i liked
-heels
-going to a job interview yesterday
-friendly and positive people
-my new mango lip balm
-getting M's sister's phone number
-blankets
-cuteness
-going with M's husband on a few errands he had to run the last few days to get out of the house
-writing down some for rent numbers i seen while biking riding the other day
-doing another anxiety challenge the other day and how much i am growing as a person
-my beauty
-finding out i will be in another magazine
-things working out for me
-M's husband taking my side the day ex best friend and gf came over,threw a fit and tried getting me kicked out again
-lorazapam
-colors
-my eyesight
-aloe vera water
-sweeping my floor yesterday
-practicing driving downtown the other day
-having a few days off to get my head together
-meditating the other night
-having more then $500 in savings now
-M's husband seeming to be more on my side lately
-the weight i lost and keep being told i lost weight my M and her husband
-art
-hope
-inspiration
-listening to my hypnosis audios
-being able to think for myself
-lifecoach saying maybe we can do a past life regression soon
-getting invited to a family dinner because of M's husband
-smiling
-working out the other day by going for a bike ride,then later doing stairmaster,and a toning bodyworks class
-just now passing an online practice driving test with no hints
-my credit card saying i have no minimum payments this month

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-getting the job at the christmas market
-all the weight i've lost
-my thigh gap
-doing my job today
-dreams coming true
-coffee
-bread
-eating less sugar these days
-my beauty
-my fashion style
-my life coach calling me and calming me down after feeling really down earlier
-going to kundalini yoga class
-the money i'm about to have coming
-drinking some pomegranate juice mixed with water to work on detoxing and holistic healing
-compliments
-cuddling with L kitten
-all the cute silly things the cats do
-that the cats seem to be doing ok with the weather
-M's husband deciding to buy another heated water bowl for them since we aren't sure current one is working
-sunshine
-sending more emails out for jobs
-being a nice person
-my beauty
-sleep
-blankets
-how great T cat looks in his sparkly gray collar
-not having to wake up early tomorrow
-growing as a person
-the heater in my room
-straw
-washing one of the cat beds
-getting P cat's flyer posted on an online neighborhood site
-all the weight i've lost and am losing
-makeup
-how much i'm growing as a person
-cleaning up a little today
-vegan food
-warm showers
-my phone
-my bed
-being productive
-updating my linkedin
-updating my resume
-emailing from business cards i got recently
-emailing people for 2nd business thing i do
-laughing
-band-aids
-taking life one day at a time
-eyeglasses
-writing out 3 pages of affirmations
-playing with the loa in my mind a little bit
-positive and inspiring quotes and ideas

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-staying positive
-happiness in moments
-parties
-invites
-my strength
-sleep
-soup
-bread
-doing my job today
-coffee
-warm showers
-straw
-nice memories to lean on
-my attractiveness
-all the weight i've lost
-that i'm going to be able to buy something i've wanted to buy for a long time now that's been a little dream of mine in a few days
-meditation
-prayer
-that my cats seem to be doing ok
-letting T cat wander around the house since his whining lately seems to be because i want him in the room with me and he wants to explore
-my pale pink backpack
-ideas
-the internet
-getting my recap for yesterday finished up
-entertainment
-trusting life,letting go,and surrender
-quiet
-rosemary oil
-incense
-leg warmers
-having a caring heart
-sanskrit mantras
-my mango lipbalm
-having nice hair
-having nice curves
-stretches
-taking my supplements
-blankets
-body moisturizer
-deep cleansing breaths
-parties
-invites
-nightskies
-light bulbs
-cats

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-that me and R are talking again. it feels so much better. i got mad when i found out my psycho ex best friend contacted my dad twice again last week. my dad ignored. so,i texted R saying i really miss him and we started talking things out a little and are going to meet for coffee tomorrow. i added him back to my fb.
-seeing girls with similar unique beauty to me in movies/modeling campaigns
-my bed
-my cats
-the money coming to me
-practicing driving today
-doing some reading
-coffee
-bread
-getting better with some things of goal manifesting and how great that feels
-deciding to watch a movie tonight
-listening to my hypnosis audios
-rosemary oil
-getting my room cleaned up
-my phone
-the weather being warmer today and feeling like spring
-seeing T mom cat curled up in her spot under the front porch winter housing we have for the cats looking very cozy. makes me happy
-social media
-my beauty
-my pink backpack
-yoga
-ashwagandha
-dental floss
-happiness
-trusting life
-things to look forward to
-goals

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-seeing R today
-kissing R today
-how loving R can be and his little quirks
-ashwagandha
-lavender
-spices
-marshmallow dream bar from starbucks
-gin gins
-coffee
-sunshine
-makeup
-my sense of style
-cheap uber rides
-sleep
-my new work pics
-writing out my affirmations today
-physical exercise
-yoga
-doing a little reading
-getting a start on an article for 2nd business thing i do
-organizing and cleaning out the pictures in my phone
-pictures
-my outdoor cats
-the weather being nicer today
-heels
-makeup
-lorazapam
-antidepressants
-being intelligent
-ibuprofen
-taking life one day at a time
-warm showers
-having a great body
-self compassion
-trusting life is looking out for me
-ordering a new custom decal for my affirmation wall
-kindness from others
-walking
-my bed
-how good it feels to be in a relationship/dating/involved
-smiling
-laughing

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-drinking my detox drinks
-getting my chemical peel today and how amazing my skin looked after my peel today
-being easy on myself since i feel weak today and it's that time of the month
-friendly people
-being kind
-listening to my hypnosis audios today
-taking things one day at a time
-physical exercise
-nourishment
-my cats
-the weather being warmer today
-social media
-herbs
-spices
-aloe vera
-blankets
-deep cleansing breaths
-seeing my affirmations at work
-bread
-coffee
-sleep
-fashion
-heels
-my style
-my beauty
-going to the bank today to get direct deposit forms
-lorazapam
-greenery
-colors
-studying a little bit tonight
-naps
-finding out charge i was disputing that i won and it's been cleared
-cuteness
-things that are interesting
-new life experiences
-smiling
-deep cleansing breaths
-working on article some more that i've started
-my confidence going up again
-having nice hair
-having a nice body
-compliments
-being productive
-opening my mind

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-manifesting a goal of my checking account reaching a certain point that i had made last year as a goal that felt exciting for me at the time when i made the goal/intention. it's very cool seeing things like this manifest. my checking account is now the highest it's ever been,at least since i've been single.
-feeling relief when i got fired last night.i had so much resistance and negative momentum that i kept having anxiety all week not knowing what was bothering me until i realized it was not being able to handle/keep this job. so when it finally happened that i did end up fired,i literally did not care. of course,til the next day when i was a wreck all day. but,then i had perspective remembering what i told myself during my anxiety,that even if i fail this,it's ok,because it's a step i've never tooken,and maybe next time,i'll take another step and i'll only go a little further but if i keep going,i'lll get better and better and get to where i want to go,whereas if i don't even try,i'll never get there,and i'll never grow and even only keeping this 3 days before being fired along with the attractive,most competant guy there,this was still a stepping stone,and good experience and growth for me. just keep trusting life,and surrendering.
-getting my check i was antsy about finally
-getting my wall decal for my affirmation wall in the mail today
-rest
-cleaning my room
-making up with R again. we've been fighting like cats and dogs on and off ever since he hurt me in early november. mostly,it's just me getting mad at him,then him ignoring me then me talking to him then us talking it out.
-water
-dimmer lights
-my cats
-ordering food in tonight
-warm showers
-renting a movie online and just relaxing
-the internet
-shopping
-all the opportunities still available to me and that can come to me
-my inner optimisim
-hydrocodone
-lorazapam
-celexa
-tastebuds
-my creativity
-my sentimentality
-pictures
-support
-moisturizers
-coffee
-sleep
-nightskies
-sunshine
-quiet
-feeling the magic of life in certain quiet moments

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-music
-feelings
-seeing R today. taking him to my old neighborhood and finding out he lived there as a child. taking him to a coffee shop i used to go to and then the spooky shop where i bought incense and he bought sage. it was funny and interesting.
-R giving me the straightening iron he bought back in october and finding out it's a $100 straightening iron.
-giving R something i wanted to give him that was a creative,abstract thing i put together
-having a friend now
-adding another $100 to my savings
-communication
-going on a job interview today and i think it going well
-confirming more jobs today
-warm showers
-clean clothes
-makeup
-ibuprofen
-celexa
-lorazapam
-not taking hydrocodone today
-naps
-protein drinks
-my style
-my cats
-relaxing
-new experiences
-reflection
-moisturizers
-sending out more emails for jobs today
-when R is sweet and loving towards me
-my bed
-straw
-cat treats
-hot guys
-my accomplishments
-yoga
-laughing
-fun
-self compassion