You seem to be massively in your head making all these constructs etc.
When it comes to 'psychic powers' I believe we go through stages.
I used to be like this in my teens and early 20's. I was always shielding myself with different colors of light, building rotating layered aura fields with programming in them, making programmed thoughtform constructs etc.
It was all well and good for awhile and very interesting to see how this would influence my environment and other people but it was never the actual solution. It never actually progressed my life in any meaningful way... the carrot was always out of reach and these things just seemed to create the illusion that I was in control when infact I was not.
What eventually happened was my mind became hyper visual from all the visualization and very proficient at creating thoughtforms even with absent minded stray thoughts. Sounds pretty cool, but if I was on a bus and someone was infront of me... all I had to do is accidentally think of them and they'd turn around and give me a weird look. Or in other situations, I'd accidentally think of something negative for a fraction of a second which would create an independent thoughtform which give me pain in my body and produce black shadows in 3d space which I could see moving around.
I don't think my words can actually do justice to how difficult this was. there was many more examples of how my day to day life was made 1000% more difficult because of this.
The issue is that one day, sooner or later, you will have to learn how to surrender your will to a higher power. Stillness of mind and surrender are so important. People used to tell me this when I was younger and it never registered... it seemed really useless and boring to be honest. But now I understand from experience how it is the most powerful thing, way more powerful than creating thoughtforms and programming servitors and things like that. All that stuff for the most part are cheap tricks for entertaining the ego... but actually down the line they can lead to forms of psychosis.
True power comes from surrender to the higher power, from the void, from stillness.
Saying all that, I do minimal energy work. I do N.E.W. on my feet, legs, hips and sometimes hands and arms and I bring energy down from my head down into my feet and into the ground. That's it. Nothing else, and I don't visualise energy either.. I just feel it. I also make sure that for every 10 mintues I do of that I do about 20 minutes of void meditation / focusing on nothing but emptiness.
*I'd like to add that if you're intent on continuing with creating thoughtforms and things like that... try and get out of your head and use positive emotions instead of thoughts.
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