About suicide

[Liberator]

Well, thank you all, but it's still not a relfief,

I got my own problems by forces I would not stance a chance. Their so overhelming that only quoting Phill Dick's, who said that to fight with beast we have to become beast itself it seems to have any understanding. I'm really trapped and no other power byside myself can't help me out of this pithole. It just seems more and more with everyday than good dosage of ultimate heroine just like Kurt Cobain, Jim Morrison or Ryszard Rydiel would recommed is righter to bring puropse in my life than anything beoynd.

Even I can't imagine ruining someone's life just to satisfy my own would be any clue. It seems like I'm about to pass and I'm more happy than ever before. My place was never found on this planet. I need to move. I just can't fit in. ;]

[IA56]

Well, thank you all, but it's still not a relfief,

I got my own problems by forces I would not stance a chance. Their so overhelming that only quoting Phill Dick's, who said that to fight with beast we have to become beast itself it seems to have any understanding. I'm really trapped and no other power byside myself can't help me out of this pithole. It just seems more and more with everyday than good dosage of ultimate heroine just like Kurt Cobain, Jim Morrison or Ryszard Rydiel would recommed is righter to bring puropse in my life than anything beoynd.

Even I can't imagine ruining someone's life just to satisfy my own would be any clue. It seems like I'm about to pass and I'm more happy than ever before. My place was never found on this planet. I need to move. I just can't fit in. ;]

Hi Liberator,
What is your first name, and location?? If you do not want to say it open here, send me a PM. I want to send hope to you, if you choose to want it?

Love
ia

[Liberator]

Hi Liberator,
What is your first name, and location?? If you do not want to say it open here, send me a PM. I want to send hope to you, if you choose to want it?

Love
ia

Hey IA,

Thank you for your concern, but I doubt you may help me out, I need mostly masterialistic measures to fix my problems up.

Hope won't do. I already placed too much hope in few things :/ and I keep on ruining anything I've built with my weakness.

[IA56]

Hey IA,

Thank you for your concern, but I doubt you may help me out, I need mostly masterialistic measures to fix my problems up.

Hope won't do. I already placed too much hope in few things :/ and I keep on ruining anything I've built with my weakness.

Dear Liberator,
If you are that closed up, then I understand that nothing can pierce through to you, but it is your own will to choose to refuse all kind of help what so ever, when you already have decided that nothing can help you. Pitty.

Love
ia

[Liberator]

Dear Liberator,
If you are that closed up, then I understand that nothing can pierce through to you, but it is your own will to choose to refuse all kind of help what so ever, when you already have decided that nothing can help you. Pitty.

Love
ia

Well, I'm not that closed up. I've been working on my matter with already few people to fix it up (psychologist, psychiastrist, familly, friends, buddisths masters, wild people, saints [God's avatar's on Earth], demons, even with some good people on this forum - big thanks to Layla). My name is Michal and I'm from Poland. Problem is explained in that thread

http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/sho...ed-of-reversal

And I'm still struggling to move on any matter. Seems like that big bad woman gonna carry me to my grave.

Addon: If your gonna send your energies anywhere than the right place to focus would be Magdalena from Poznań, I've already feel like i've hurt her too much with myself trying too hard making her my gf

[IA56]

Well, I'm not that closed up. I've been working on my matter with already few people to fix it up (psychologist, psychiastrist, familly, friends, buddisths masters, wild people, saints [God's avatar's on Earth], demons, even with some good people on this forum - big thanks to Layla). My name is Michal and I'm from Poland. Problem is explained in that thread

http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/sho...ed-of-reversal

And I'm still struggling to move on any matter. Seems like that big bad woman gonna carry me to my grave.

Addon: If your gonna send your energies anywhere than the right place to focus would be Magdalena from Poznań, I've already feel like i've hurt her too much with myself trying too hard making her my gf

Dear Michal,
If your matter is to accept someones wish not to become your gf, and you can not accept, then you have issues of to controll others, and that will never fall in good soile. I will not read any thread about your "issues" because I do not work that way...I will see what comes up when I will look at you and your gf and see if I can come near your sfear so to speak, do you want me to write open here or send you a PM??

Love
ia

[Begeegs1]

I have been debating whether or not to reply to this, but in the end, I have decided to.

I have read your plight and have been there, but in the end, I considered that suicide would be a really negative impact on a lot of people who you may have influenced in life. Even if you feel that you haven't impacted many people, you need to have a rethink about that because I would be willing to bet that you have. It sounds like you are also a spiritual person, so you would also know that most people are not well versed in the ways of trying to obtain enlightenment, so they may not have that strength to actually try for these means to realize the self. So they may resort to things that will impact their way of viewing the world in a negative fashion because of it. This made me take a step back because I couldn't bear to do that to someone else and as a result of that, I did find the love of my life. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't straight-away, but I healed and moved beyond this and as a result, I can continue to try to conquer the negative elements of my own psyche on the way to self-realization.

But you have to be strong and realize that these lessons in life are there for a reason and they are there for us to rise above them in pursuit of the golden flower/higher self/etc.

Anyway - I wish you well and hope that you do make the decision for life.