I had an unhealthy relationship with someone. I believe in law of attraction and believe a lot of it was bought on by myself and chosen by myself in some way, but the memory has nearly destroyed me and her. I felt like I had to break her down in self defence to stop her breaking me down. I don't know, she is out of my life now, i just want my brain calm. I have recently starting posting on another message board which her and I both used to post on. I had to stop posting there years ago because she hated everyone on it, had feuds with them all and made constant fights with me whenever I happened to chat to one of her enemies - even if I didn't know who they were and just made a remark to them randomly, even if they had been a friend yesterday and I didn't know she had fallen out with them. I just now chatted to someone and I had to sit back breathing, "shes not here anymore, I can talk to that person, I wont be yelled at". I need peace.