Anyway, I made the thread because, I currently do not see a permanent way out of being angry all the time. I'm fine for months and then it comes back and I'm self harming. I just felt like ♥♥♥♥ for so long, set up for constant failure, being Told constantly that I'm hated and in the way, being told constantly that I messed up , being screamed at for everything going wrong, and then begged back with suicide attempts when I tried to leave. Holding her while she talks in a baby voice "please don't leave me again, I know I act crappy but please forgive me and stop leaving me" and then being told the next day that I forced her to let me back in, when it was her begging me. I just dream of punching her all the time. I have bruises on my body from hitting it all weekend.