Dreamy's Beau

**Timothy** · 27th July 2016, 12:40 PM

Oh the yo-yo-ing of this and that. Is over ... isn't over... nn I'm wishy washy to still yet a hardness set against me...that if can't have way on demand...there ain't a wish for the wash.

Said, "I did love you."
Answered, yeah about 9 months ago, cuz the past months look like a "did not".
Said, "I hate you."
Answered, well if you're screaming that you must still love me.

I mean, it don't matter how old ya get folks...this kinda - breaking up/back together - bantering reduces ya to a pure-t-idjit.

I simply cannot foot any additional time elsewhere...there. Here is where I am, the road goes both ways.

**Timothy** · 8th August 2016, 05:22 PM

I don't mind Intel and those powers that be that cover my fool ass..but flying by the seat of my pants got me here. Kudos all the way round .. to be sure.

It takes all of Heaven working together ... to have raised Hell. I'm always looking back thru...even pon still standing here ... now, for here tis where all time well meets as our held to day. Certitude

The skipped stone across long waters pon yonder bank (here now)...remembers every respin upon the face of the waters and never forgets every reflight toward again having been faced...all the way to the bank. The Lord said, Daniel...close the book.

**Timothy** · 25th July 2016, 10:37 PM

It would be that the shared time and plans associated elsewhere have abruptly come to ends. There was nothing I could do about it, taken to the bitter driven point of nearly having lost my abled joy.

I trustingly give it up to God. Watch over therein nn take care whereof ... That which I being powerless could not nn being helpless cannot.

Given the circumstances of my year long absent part, I am blessed to yet be able/allowed to remain in my ole Kentucky home.

Yes, I ask my Self, what kind of an arrogant ass am I? My Self for Me along side...answers, Yes.

I have come to my Self knowing Me. Possessing of a stupid love, but having love nonetheless.

Friends, there be our own demons roosting to within, when having alone awakened to they, be not afraid of being afraid, thus turning their tables over, for in the commerce of our fed fears be their only capitalizing power, even in as much as we of any numbered gatherance recon-vening might one another's fears reciprocally feed. God Alone with You....with Us.

Eva Tin Gon Ben Ari

**Timothy** · 6th August 2016, 04:23 AM

Navigating hurt and harm of such magnitude as I've not ever felt. Wave upon wave that sweeps me into my deep. Exponential grief...so powerless and helpless. To be human ... to of man be ... to be a creature deeply wounded. Not even a scrap of ability to undo what is done. Nothing at all. Anger but a useless exhausting tribute to the profanely obsolete illusion that there is a goddamn thing that may further be done within this unalterable undoing of precious life. To be still...how...how....why!!!????

I am moved to damn near complete and total bygod insanity ... the likes of which I know not what.

I have felt this...that very love is us all working out. We everybit are that love defined within 1 Corinthians 13. Love is not a thing any may read about or practice to know....Love is very us and as us is very Love. In as much as Love is perfect...so are we. In as much as All in All of All is entire...so are we. Never have we not been perfect and entire, and in this moment what shall I want for when who and what I want of a need...is now life unalterably gone.

Much much less than is this... was...ENOUGH!!!!!

Righteousness is not why we are here, for that done was. We are here under that Peace which is everlasting, just as righteousness were everlastingly set forth long ago in a beginning. If you weren't there, than now here beginning...understand to stand under PEACE EVERLASTINGLY HELD. There is no altering THAT, even as the unalterable yet hounds at our goddamn heels. In due time...in bygod due time.

How many "ideas" are God? Not a goddamn one of "em". "They" will not in due time...PASS through..this our re-threading DAY. Heed the grasping call to...

PEACE PEACE PEACE PEACE PEACE

John sent Who? Ahhh...Who sent John?

Hear to See ... See to Listen

The Heart in the eyes beats with the Sun. The Sun in the eyes beats with the Heart.

I don't play "games". I end "em".

Same Same

**Timothy** · 3rd November 2016, 05:21 PM

Again...I have been physically attacked by a familiar. Beyond hurting all over...so far I can feel that I have at least four injuries. For sure nothing is broken...Xcept for my heart, not for myself...but for them.

**IA56** · 25th July 2016, 08:21 AM

Hi Tim,
To #79 your answere was hurtful to me, I just seeked contact to you...
To "81 I just wanted to show you that I had found the Writings of Thomas gospel and the 114 was the last one in what I did found to be Thomas gospel.
Nothing more, sorry for bothering you.

Love
ia

**Timothy** · 25th July 2016, 02:53 PM

Originally Posted by IA56

Hi Tim,
To #79 your answere was hurtful to me, I just seeked contact to you...
To "81 I just wanted to show you that I had found the Writings of Thomas gospel and the 114 was the last one in what I did found to be Thomas gospel.
Nothing more, sorry for bothering you.

Love
ia

Your apology is accepted. Though I can only say, that your imaginings/assumptions founding your apology are as vague as are your previous replies also having had little or nothing more to go on ... leading up to your above unnecessary apology.

As I do recall, that over the years we have been unnecessarily delivered right here before. Based upon that too, like I previously stated, I accept your current apology along with your delivery requirement to have once again "pointedly" apologized.

I do understand from my own unique body of hurt, that one is hard tasked to freely experience through the necessity of practiced detachment from one's predispositional body of hurt within a text bound social format. Otherwise we are quickly delivered to within a pointing "you're "it"" game of tag.

Unbotherably,

Tim ... Neither I nor You are "it".

**IA56** · 25th July 2016, 04:11 PM

Originally Posted by Timothy

Your apology is accepted. Though I can only say, that your imaginings/assumptions founding your apology are as vague as are your previous replies also having had little or nothing more to go on ... leading up to your above unnecessary apology.

As I do recall, that over the years we have been unnecessarily delivered right here before. Based upon that too, like I previously stated, I accept your current apology along with your delivery requirement to have once again apologized.

I do understand from my own unique body of hurt, that one is hard tasked to freely experience through the necessity of practiced detachment from one's predispositional body of hurt within a text bound social format. Otherwise we quickly deliver ourselves to a "you're "it"" game of tag.

Unbotherably,

Tim

Tim,
Do you know from or to what level your answere are delivered??

I have this problem what do make me frustrated often and it leads me to become mute, and when it happens mostly I do not respond and if I respond it will be like the last dialog....and the many question is raised inside of me...why did I ask....was it to have contact only....or did I hope my energy will be read and I will be provided with an answere what I lack about me or do I hope to be able to read the energy what is coming towards me what the sender do not know...as you can see how tangeled the wires are....so what can I do more than appologize for me not understanding me how can I ask others to understand me?? Is it even doable??

Love
ia

**Timothy** · 25th July 2016, 04:51 PM

Thing is IA, I do understand. You neither have been nor are you of any bother at all.

What I write in here, being acutely human, comes from Me.

We all got our hurt, and in that common truth is our empathically borne mutual sorrow that may to our joy override what one persons hurt (even our own) out-seeking sympathizers and/or scape goats...may again hurts give way to.

Most of what we do is unawares to us, of innocense, yet out-delivering would seem as if "it" is purposefully driven.

I believe in Us, and not what behind any of Us would on the most obvious out-set seem to be. Us is, even we are, Wholly Capable. Ekyeh Mah Ekyeh

What is God is face to face with Us first...being very Us if we will. Then and only then ... upon Our own given willingness ... may God through Us ... clearly be seen as Us being our very true Selves ... one another's given to be for one another... once and for all. Mercy Peace Love

You don't have to share with me your personal struggles here in the open. It's all good, we are good.

Is "it" Do-Able? I suggest that each in every of One is absolutely Be-Abled. From THAT...What on Earth being willfully withdrawn and/or withheld...Keeps Us everybit as the Sum..."undone". This, even as All IN ALL ... as it is ... was, is and ever shall be ... FINISHED. Matt. 5:18 ; John 5:5-9

Just as Y'hez'qel (Ha'Zaq-El) beyond seeing ... saw the "It is finished" Third Temple. John 19:28-30

Law(LoveXLight) = The Whole = One Body Of

**Timothy** · 4th August 2016, 02:37 AM

Syriac ... Three Psalms of David

A Thanksgiving of David

1. I was the youngest among my brethren, and a youth in my father's house.
2. I used to feed my father's flock, and I found a lion and a wolf, and slew them and rent them.
3. My hands made an organ, and my fingers fashioned a harp.
4. Who will show me my Lord? He, my Lord, is become my God.
5. He sent his angel and took me away from my father's flock, and anointed me with the oil of anointing.
6. My brethren, the fair and the tall, in them the Lord had no pleasure.
7.And I went forth to meet the Philistine and he cursed me by his idols.
8. But I drew his sword and cut off his head, and took away the reproach from the children of Yisrael.

Amen.

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David contending with the lion and the wolf which took a sheep from his father's flock.

1. O God, O God, come to my aid; help Thou me and save me; and deliver Thou my soul from the slayer.
2. Shall I go down to Sheol by the mouth of the lion? or shall the wolf confound me?
3. Was it not enough for them that they lay in wait for my father's flock, and rent in pieces a sheep of my father's drove, but they were wishing also to destroy my soul.
4. Have pity, O Lord, and save Thy Holy one from destruction; that he may rehearse Thy glories in all his times, and may praise Thy great name.
5. When Thou hast delivered him from the hands of the destroying lion and of the ravening wolf, and when Thou hast recovered my captivity from the hands of the wild beasts.
6. Quickly, O my Lord (Adonia), send from before Thee a deliverer, and draw me out of the gaping pit, which imprisons me in its depths.

Amen.

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David returning thanks to God, who had delivered him from the lion and the wolf and he had slain both of them.

1. Praise the Lord, all ye nations; glorify Him, and bless His name:
2. Who rescued the soul of His elect from the hands of death, and delivered His holy one from destruction:
3. And saved me from the nets of Sheol, and my soul from the pit that cannot be fathomed.
4. Because; ere my deliverance could go forth from before Him, I was well nigh rent in two pieces by the two wild beasts.
5. But He sent His angel, and shut up from me the gaping mouths, and rescued my life from destruction.
6. My soul shall glorify Him and exalt Him, because of all His kindnesses which He hath done and will do unto me.

Amen.