ok, so I'm new here, hi, and I have a question regarding methods of recovery from different types of psychic damage. I actually have two different types of injury (I think). One of my injuries (the older of the two) shows physical symptoms when I try to... um... activate my abilities, if that makes sense? I feel some pain in the upper right area of my back. I'm pretty sure this is the result of an attempt at playing medium for an entity which I was never able to identify (and which has since lost interest in me; we seldom communicate anymore).
The other and more concerning injury, is, I think, the result of a long sequence of psychic and psychological traumas, which may have been started by a psychic attack at the time when I was beginning to become telepathically receptive (though not intentionally, but as a side effect of my experiments with meditation and energy manipulation). This second injury caused me to recede from human contact for a while, and regress "spiritually?", and now that I've started trying to manipulate energy again, I've found that I'm unable to build and shape energy in the way that I was able to about two years ago.
I don't really know how long it took me to initially develop these abilities, because it happened semi-naturally, and I just sort of went along with it, while not expecting much. At the height of my um.... "level of mastery, I guess", I was able to effortlessly move energy throughout my body, form psi balls, and develop somewhat complex and mostly stable thoughtforms/constructs which in some cases, receptive individuals seemed to be able to perceive on some level. For instance, I had sort of an aural exo-skeleton that I would wear at least 50% of the time, and which was mostly for aesthetic purposes (it looked cool and I miss it). I was also able to produce very subtle amounts of heat from my hands after studying the aura of fire for a few months.
At this point, I can barely generate any psi/energy, and so I'm unable to manipulate it much, and can no longer sustain constructs. Is there anything that I can do to speed my progress in reattaining this level of ability, and is there anything (or anyone) that might be blocking that advancement? (because I feel like there is)
ps. if you're telepathic, I wouldn't advise attempting to connect with me, as it's usually uncomfortable for everyone involved.
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