Daily life and its routines and interacting with people build up their own momentum. When you sit down to meditate the first thing that will happen is that you will begin to relax and let go of that momentum. It will unwind and all sorts of thoughts and emotions will surface. The momentum will try to carry you back into the routine and away from your meditation. You can sit back mentally and let it unwind without being carried away by it and the effort involved in doing this will build up a momentum of its own that can affect your daily routine the way your daily routine affects your meditation. It is not apathy or lack of motivation. The problem is that the motivation is divided by momentum in two directions.
It must be nice to be sensitive enough to feel it when people are reading your posts. I've gone to the opposite extreme of shutting everything out and am now trying to find a middle ground from the other direction. I know that both extremes are not good, and it would be nice just to blend our tendencies so we all land in the middle with a perfectly balanced awareness.
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