I have really no clue about kundalini or anything.
My dad was very into that kind of things, but I never knew him really due to different issues.
After he died I started gettin panic attacks, extreme ones and overwhelming thoughts, I was sure I was going nuts.
was Depersonalized/Derealized for weeks even months, then I got normal again for awhile, learned about Law of Attraction etc. but it got to overwhelming for me, then 1 year after my panic attacks I started getting extreme panic attacks again, and suddenly started obsessing about losing my soul(is this even possible? would I still be alive if so?) I even visualized it once, and suddenly thought it was true, and now I'm completely emotionally numb, my ego is like numb, I have no clue why, I want my ego, some ego is healthy. I want my emotions, life ain't worth living with out emotions.
Now I can't feel fear or joy, AT ALL, I could be hit by a train and not give a damn.
Somehow I found that this could be a symptom of Kundalini, I dont even know wtf kundalini is, all I know is that I need my emotions and life back, I'm only 18 and are scared this will mess up my whole life.
So my questions is:
Does this sound like kundalini?
Is my ego "dead" forever?
Is my emotions gone forever?
Can you lose your soul?
Someone PLEASE help me out
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