Originally Posted by
KnowNothing
Then this ♥♥♥♥ happened, and I read about subjective reality on a website, which completely destroyed me, subjective reality is the most egoistic retarded ♥♥♥♥, but somehow my obsessions made it "Real" for me, this only made my emotions go completely numb
I think that was the worst contributer to this mess.
I believe we're all one, but has individual experiences on this earth, like the reality is objective, but we have subjective perceptions of it.
I think I should also mention I got OCD, which means I always get stuck on thoughts that is bad for me, like losing my soul, this one was going through my head for weeks and I managed to feel it happen to me, even if it's not possible.
It's not unnormal in OCD, I've had much weirder obsessions than that, I somehow know their just obsessions, but while having them, they seem completely real.
Does any of this make sense to anyone, what you mean I'm special and living a life without spirituality is impossible?
I don't mind being spiritual, but I don't want a life with religion, I want a normal life with normal emotions.
Not become some isolated individual with no emotions, cause that will for sure make me go crazy after awhile.
Sorry for the long post but I figured if anyone should be able to help me understand this and help me out of it, they need to know details.
Thanks for all the help guys, I've tried to seek help from other people, but they just don't understand what I'm talking about and just tell me to go to a psychiatrist(which means medicating myself to become a zombie)
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