nkd MAP Journal

[bastien001]

[quote="nkd"]I received the books I ordered today!! astral dynamics and far journeys. quote]

far Journeys...excellent book.

[nkd]

** Day 10 ** April 15 2007

I did not remembered my dream today. Today’s exercises were almost the same as the ones I did yesterday (arms energy work). I did a great job on the breathing awareness, but the body energy I have to practice more. I want to do those exercises throughout the day but my work is consuming me.

I started reading Far Journeys and I will read some pages every night before going to sleep. Hopefully that will program my mind with OBE material for the night.

I am not remembering to say the daily affirmations so I think I’ll have to write them down in a piece of paper and have them in my pocket throughout the day. Every-time that I put my hand in my pocket I will remember and read them.

[Kevin]

** Day 10 ** April 15 2007

I want to do those exercises throughout the day but my work is consuming me.

Wow do I know that feeling. I thought at the beginning of this program that I wanted to maybe do some extra work at my desk, but that proves impossible. I do sometimes get to work on them during my lunch breaks.

I am not remembering to say the daily affirmations so I think I’ll have to write them down in a piece of paper and have them in my pocket throughout the day. Every-time that I put my hand in my pocket I will remember and read them.

I tend to have a problem with them too nkd, but I must say that your idea is fantastic! I might just borrow that idea and use it myself! Kudos! I can't seem to keep my hands OUT of my pockets during the day.

[nkd]

April 16 2007

Today’s dream was so wired and funny I have to share it; I dreamed that I was naked in a supermarket. I do not remember more details...

I took this day off because I had too much work



** Day 11 ** April 16 2007

I did not remember any dream today! : (

I do not know what happened with my dream memory, it was going so well on the first days..

I trained very late at night. The relaxation and breathing awareness went like every other day. Today exercise was the spine bouncing. The book tells the true in that it is one of the hardest exercises. I had trouble feeling energy on my tailbone. I have found funny that when I try to shift my awareness i.e from my head to my tailbone and the other way around, I move my eyes like if I wanted to “see” the part I am focusing on (I do this with my eyes closed). I do not know if this is a good or a bad thing to do.

[bastien001]

I move my eyes like if I wanted to “see” the part I am focusing on (I do this with my eyes closed). I do not know if this is a good or a bad thing to do.

> Well, I highly recommend to use non moving eyes. You don't want to move your eyes with *any* energy work movements. Get to this as soon as you feel ready, progressively if needed.

> Also, remember Robert & Brian say you can use eyes open in the very beginning to get things accustomed to, but the purpose is however to get to eyes closed asap.

Bastien

[nkd]

** Day 12 ** April 18 2007

I started the day happily because I remembered four dreams this night : ). I was getting scared because yesterday I did not remembered any dream but today I am very happy with the results.

I had a lot of work to do and i was very close to skip my training. It was almost 2am in the morning but decided I needed to train because I had already skipped a training day this week. The first thing I did was reading the book to look at a preview of today’s exercise; it was the whole body bouncing. I read that the exercise should be done lying down (instead of sitting) so I thought that was nice because I was tired.

I laid down on my bed, and for the first time, I did the relaxation and breathing awareness in a non sitting position. I tried to be quick because I was tired so I did a quick relaxation and a normal breathing awareness (without counting to 12) just focusing for some seconds in my breathing.

I started with an ultra-quick legs brushing and arm brushing action. Then, I raised my arms so they where lying past my head and focused on my hands and head. then I focused on my feet. I notices it was easier to focus on my hands and head than on my feet. when I was feeling energy in my hands and head and then focused on my feet I noticed I kept feeling energy in my hands and head and was somewhat difficult to ‘transfer’ all that energy down.

What happened next is difficult to describe. I tried the bouncing in my whole body, trying to go from my feet to my head and hands and back again to my feet with a fast motion. At that moment I started feeling a VERY STRONG sensation. It is difficult to describe but it was like being extremely out of balance. I said to myself: this is working! today I will achieve an OBE!! I tried to keep doing what I was doing but after some minutes the sensation disappeared. I am sure I almost projected. this whole body bounce completely took me for surprise. I am very exited and i am just hopping I can replicate what I felt yesterday on my future training days.

[nkd]

@bastien001, @Kevin, @CFTraveler - Thank you for all the previous comments and observations. I really appreciate them.


** Day 13 ** April 19 2007

I barely remembered my dream today.

I was so exited to do the training because of yesterdays experience. I was very confident I had mastered the technique to feel the things I felt. I mean, if I was able to do it yesterday why wouldn’t I be able to do it today right? well, I was wrong.

Usually I eat a big bowl of pasta at night, but I wait like two hours after that to do my training. Well, today I just ate a salad. I was preparing the perfect condition for what I though it was going to be my first OBE exit. Yesterday I did a very quick relaxation and very quick breathing awareness when lying down but today I did my exercises in a sitting position (like every other day) and I did them slowly and without hurries. I also used the brainwave generator to do the exercises (something I did not do yesterday). it all went smoothly. When I was ready I laid down on my bed and started doing some energy work on my foot and arms. After that I was ready for the whole body bounce. I started but... I was not feeling what I felt yesterday. I kept trying for a while but nothing happened.

I do not know if the fact that I used the brainwave generator before trying the body bounce had something to do, or the fact that I did the relaxation in a sitting position, or the ultrafast relaxation and ultra fast breathing awareness was more effective... or maybe I wont be feeling that anymore while doing the body bounce and it was a one time thing. I’ll have to wait and see. For now I wont be using the brainwave because I have had better results without it.

[nkd]

** Day 14 ** April 20 2007

Today I tried again to reproduce what I felt two days ago (now without listening to the brainwave) but I had no luck. I think its not working because I am concentrating more on getting the results rather than the actual exercise. The first day I was not expecting anything and I was just focusing on my energy. I will stop worrying about having an OBE and I’ll start focusing more on the exercises.

[nkd]

** Day 15 ** April 21 2007

I am officially in week three!

Today I remembered two dreams. I wrote some keywords and now that I am reading them I remember just few details about the dream.

I read the intro to week 3. My goal this week is to have at least one lucid dream. I haven’t had one in years. I had been making already some reality checks but apparently they are not being enough because I never ask myself if I am dreaming when I am on a dream. This is going to be my new reality check: when I am with a person (any person) I will ask myself if I am dreaming, I will try to extend my finger to reach the wall. Everytime I enter a room, I will turn on and off the lighting and ask if I am dreaming.

I started my nightly exercises with the brainwave 15 seconds pulse preset. I think that was very easy for me and I am ready for the next level. I had no problem at all with my thoughts except that I was bothered by the constant tones that I felt they were to close from each other; this is why I want to do the next level already. I did not do the whole 20 minutes but I did 9 minutes (three rounds of three minutes). after that I did the regular relaxation and then the breathing awareness imagining the clouds. I was not sure if I should be exhaling through the mouth or through the nose so that created some chit-chat in my mind. I felt was easier to clear my mind without imagining the clouds (with just normal breathing) but maybe thats because I have bee practicing the normal breathing awareness for much linger time. I have to mention that the most usefull methid for clearing my mind was with a mantra used in the gateway experience from hemi-sync. Two days ago when I almost achieved the OBE I used that breathing mantra and it worked like a charm. The MAP book tells me to do not use mantras...

I did the body bounce while I remained sited in my hard backed chair (I did not tried to do it lying down like the other days, and I did not tried to leave my body). I still have doubts on how exactly the bouncing should be done. The way I did it today was to focus on the top of my head and then change my focus immediately to the tips of my toes, then back to my head.

I did for the first time the exercise to charge my navel energy storage. I have to practice it more because I felt energy rising to my head but I had trouble feeling the energy going down. I want to practice until I could feel a lot of energy in my navel. I’ll try to do this exercise many times throughout the day (i.e, when I am eating, or taking a bath, etc).

I will listen to the brainwave “sleep” preset lying on the floor and then I am going to go to sleep.

[CFTraveler]

I had trouble feeling the energy going down

Try to imagine (in a feeling way) a bucket of water poised at the top of your head. When you raise your energy all the way to your crown, 'tip the bucket' and feel it as water running down your front, and pooling into your subnavel center. If necessary, imagine you have a bucket in there, filling with the water that has run down. Let me know if this helps.