Last night around 8:00pm, I layed in a recliner at a friend's house and started to do some of the energy work technique I had just read about in Robert Bruce's book "Astral Dynamics". I was actually just practicing my Mobile Body Awareness, moving my "Astral Hands" up and down my legs and through my arms, sort of "Feeling" my energy body giving itself a massage. The original intent of the session was just to practice getting my awareness to the level I want it. The session went much better than I thought it would, however. I reached a really relaxed state (almost trance-like) and could feel the energy in my body moving wherever I directed my awareness. After about fifteen minutes, I could feel tingling sesnsations throughout my arms, legs, buttox, even neck. A few times, I attempted to move all of the energy in my body to a single point. I did this with my left and right hands and then my feet... Tried my knees but wasn't very sucessful. I stumbled across a thought that I couldn't ween out with my concentration. It was a scene from the movie "American Pie" where the character was talking about body energies and tantric sex. This made me curious... So I inevitably took the next step.
I reached out with my awareness and directed all of the energy in my body to my groin. It was, pretty obviously, a fantastic sensation. And this brought to mind many fantasies... But I shoved them out of my head and focused primarily on the energy work I was doing. Being quite sucessful at not having any sexual thoughts and very little desire the experiment at first looked to be a failure. The warmth and tingling of the energy felt just as it would if I had moved all of my awareness to my feet. Just as I was getting ready to resume normal energy work, that changed, however. I felt my lower regions spring to life in that very familiar sensation all men have sometime during the day.... Still I focused as hard as I could on not letting any thought of sexuality cross my mind. I failed, and after a good while of putting up resisitance fell into one of the most VIVID scenarios I could ever have made involving my fiance' and I. It was like I was there.... I couldn't believe it, even the details of the room we where in (though oddly I didn't make a connection as to what room it could have been) had been very crisp.
This went on for a bit and eventually (after endulging in my mind's little tromp through sexyland) I pushed back this scene and came reeling back into the mindset of doing energy work. I was suprised, even overwhelmed almost by the massive amount of energy that now surged through my body. When I came to, I found all of my awareness to still be in the groin region.... As I moved the energy with my awareness, I felt the usual tingling warmth that I had felt in mediation and this energy work mulitplied by what seemed to be infinity. What a fantastic feeling. I tried to relax further, thinking that if I could pass into trance I may be ready to project.... However, this attempt was in vain. I was not in the right state of mind or physical tiredness to get the stage I wanted to be at. So eventaully I opened my eyes, getting that relaxed "one with everything" feeling I get. A sort of natural high... A stretch and I decided to take a shower.
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After my meditation/energy work, I had decided to take a shower in my relaxed state. The water was soothing, hot, felt great... In my relaxed state I found that even as I walked around I could target my awareness pretty much anywhere on my body with (Depending on the area) little to no effort. One of the times I had brought all of my awarness (This time it was split into two) to both of my feet. I had just before this made the water a bit hotter because I felt I was used to it.... I then took some time to attempt to move awarenss to each of my toes in turn. This took a minute or two. And after I stopped focusing on my feet, I became painfully aware of the scalding water on my back. I had been standing there for a good two minutes not realizing exactly how painfully hot this water that had been pouring onto my back was.... I quickly adjusted the foucet and took the rest of my shower and evening in a constantly relaxed state of mind... All the way up until bed, watching a Chris Rock stand up.... I slept like a baby with a diaper that was infinitly clean no matter what. (because I believe that is what all children dream about in their infancy) ^_^
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