Re: Why can't I love?
Hate is just a form of anger, and in almost every case, anger has its roots in fear. Underneath all of it, you are fearful of something, probably of several kinds of something. Only you know what the fears are.
I can tell you some of the fears I've had to deal with that made me hateful and angry, if it will help.
Fear of rejection, fear that I really am unlovable, fear that I really am worthless, fear that I am helpless, fear that I am without power, fear that I will be abused/hurt.
Other emotions included shame, in the form of guilt and humiliation.
Once I addressed these things, and really, all I had to do was find them and acknowledge them and then desire and intend to let them go, there was healing. It's not always immediate, though it can be. Sometimes it takes a while to heal, but with true desire and intention to let these things go and heal, you will.
I could write a big essay about the difference between the emotion that people call "love", which is really just "strong like" in almost every case, though sometimes with other stuff thrown in like concern, desire, affection, etc., and true, spiritual love (which is not an emotion but the energy of Source), but I'll save that for another time.
For now, know that your hatred and anger is based on fear. This is always the case. Always. Get rid of the fear, you WILL start to heal. Take that from someone who spent most of her life filled with rage... (thankfully, I'm not that any more, though I still have my moments of falling back into old habits and I can get pretty bitchy ).
Originally Posted by
Chris_com28
I'm just hoping that people willl sympathise with how I feel inside. Being drunk had nothing to do with it, it just allowed me to exress how I feel inside. I feel only hate and I feel it's their fualt. I had hope and they replaced it with hate. They put a blokage in everything and offer no appology in return. Everything they offer is an empty promise.
Sounds like my parents. Took years of work to overcome the damage they did. I still have to work at it, and I'm 44 years old now.
And I do sympathise, and empathise, as well.
May the light surround you, may you be blessed. May the light surround us, may we be blessed. May love and light surround us all, and may we all be healed and blessed. And so it is, and so it shall be, now and ever after.
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