Heliac's MAP Practice
Evening Session: Day 9
Relaxation:
I relaxed as usual couldn't quite get as mellow as usual though.
Breathing:
Breathing went fine all though i think I'm breathing in a little too much by the time i get to the higher numbers, felt like i was straining a little bit.
MBA:
I tried something different today to try to combat the drowsiness. Instead of taking a nap prior to the MAP session which would make it harder for me to fall a sleep when it is time to.I sat up on the edge on my seat instead of leaning back against the backrest. I have to say, so far so good, as i didn't get sleepy at all and my awareness and sensations were very good.
A drawback to sitting on the edge of my seat as opposed to against the backrest, which i noticed right away, is that it is a bit harder to get completely relaxed and to hang on to that relaxed feeling. I kept having to adjust my posture because my back would get tired from sitting up straight for a while. This was a little distracting but didn't seem to affect the MBA sensations i was getting.
Another drawback was in the breathing. My breathing just seemed different and a little strained and my chest felt tense and tight from keeping my self upright. This was initially the most distracting. Once i started with toe swirling whenever i inhaled the sensation would fade with the inhale and I'm pretty sure this was because a part of my attention got distracted by the more noticeable breathing patterns when sitting upright.
So, i watched the sensations fade and my attention waiver with each breath and once it did waiver i pulled it back to the brushing sensation on my big toe. Eventually i forgot about my breath, either my breathing became shallow and less noticeable or i started holding my breath, which i did catch myself doing later on.
I was getting really great warm flowing sensations on my feet although they did get hot again on the skin level but throughout my feet was warm "air".Another thing i noticed that started happening was my torso started to slightly rock and lean with the flow and brushing that i felt in my feet. When i was brushing up and down my foot my torso started to very very slightly rock forward and back. When i brushed laterally across the toes my torso rocked side to side when i did stirring on the soles on my feet my torso kind of did this mini stirring as well.This pretty much happened until i got to my arms where it stopped.
Sensations in the legs was much better this time. I felt my legs were full and like the were expanding from the inside out, like there were filling with blood.
The hands went great. They were very sensitive to the brushing, stirring and sponging actions.My hands didn't get hot at all this time. By this time my attention was starting to waiver a little and i started daydreaming about something, i think football, by the time i got to my left hand pinky.
Its funny though because while i was thinking about the giants awesome defense, part of my awareness was still going through the pinky brushing. I still felt the brushing sensations just not as fully and that is actually how i caught myself daydreaming, the sensations started lacking.
When i got to my right hand i was getting pretty tired. Not drowsy tired like i was about to fall asleep, buy physically, my back was starting to hurt a little and i just felt pressure to stop. So, instead of stopping i abbreviated it and refocused. Instead of doing the ballpoint stirring outward at so and so many loops i just stirred all at once in one big stirring sensation.
This actually worked pretty good but made me feel a little dizzy in the head while i was stirring for some reason.I did it on the palm of my right hand as well and got very dizzy. It wasn't an unbearable or unpleasant dizziness just kind of unexpected and strange.
Another finding was that when i got to my right pinky i felt some aching around the knuckle. I broke a metatarsal when i was younger in a fist fight and the pain was actually similar (but not nearly as intense at all) to the pain from the day when i broke it.
The pain that i felt on my thumb from day 8 was gone.
The arm brushing and sponging was fine and when i did both arms simultaneously i felt like the change charged them up a little more.
Conclusion:
I don't remember reading in MAP that you could sit upright on the edge of your seat. I'm wondering if there is a reason for it. One reason i can think of is that your relaxation level may be limited since you will have to keep yourself upright for a prolonged period of time.
I definitely don't feel as relaxed as i do when sitting back but i do feel more awake and energized, seems like there is a trade off at the moment.What is more important though, being relaxed but getting into a pattern of falling asleep during the excersizes or not being quite as relaxed but being able to finish the excersizes without falling asleep?
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