Re: kundalini or psychotic break?
Generally speaking, Kundalini awakening is going to cause your life and yourself to change. Sometimes its subtle at first, sometimes it's really obvious, but stuff will start to shift in your reality as a response to the awakening.
I ended up in the psych ward some years ago. I got the bipolar diagnosis, too. I don't know if they thought I was psychotic or not (can't remember, haven't got access to the records any more), but they certainly thought I was crazy. And, for all intents and purposes, I was.
At least, I was THEN. I'm not now. No sign of mental illness whatsoever. I don't even get noticeable Seasonal Affective Disorder most years.
How do I know it was Kundalini doing its work and turning my life and my person inside out and not just plain old insanity? Well, because my life is completely and utterly changed, I am completely and utterly changed, and I'm not crazy now. Sometimes, it just takes a while to develop and sort itself out and settle down.
For now, I'd say stay on your meds (I actually found medication very helpful in maintaining my mood swings, which were excruciatingly painful at times) and keep moving forward, and see how it all unfolds.
You have my compassion for what you're experiencing. If it's Kundalini, you're in for a hell of a ride. And if it's mental illness, you're still in for a hell of a ride, of a slightly different nature. Much love to you, and blessings.
May the light surround you, may you be blessed. May the light surround us, may we be blessed. May love and light surround us all, and may we all be healed and blessed. And so it is, and so it shall be, now and ever after.
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