Re: Awakening?
Originally Posted by
eyeoneblack
To my family I am a lost 'artist', revered for my singular philosophy, but patronized for the gift of not being like them.
My family of origin was like that, too. Only they attributed it not to my artistic ability (of which I have plenty, in fact), but to my supposed insanity (which is amusing, coming from my mother, a woman who has spent most of her life mentally ill and is now well into dementia). I figure if being like them is the price for acceptance, well, okay, I'll be an outcast. I always kinda was, anyway. May as well make it and keep it official.
Originally Posted by
eyeoneblack
I think to them I am a failure
My mother certainly thinks this of me, although she's never succeeded at anything in her life, so I don't know how she manages to construct the point of view from which she pronounces this. But I always was. I never lived up to expecations, mostly because they were unrealistic and ridiculous and poorly articulated to begin with. I don't care any more, I sincerely don't. And all the stuff I write about my parents is done with a smile, believe it or not. I find it amusing now, and that's absolutely sincere.
Originally Posted by
eyeoneblack
The Kudanalini smacked me years ago and I could do no more or any better than turn a 180 in my life. Divorce, near homelessness and isolation.
Me, too. It's a pretty common story, actually.
Originally Posted by
eyeoneblack
I must not be a good example for the proper nurturing of the power of the serpent.
Serpents aren't nurturing. They lay their eggs and leave, for the most part, and the eggs hatch in their own time and the snakelets go out and figure out how to make their own way in the world. I've found the transformation to be quite similar.
Also, for what it's worth, Robert Bruce and many others have noted that it takes some years to fully acclimate to the new situation once you've shed your skin, to harken back to the snake metaphor (though that's about as far as I can take it; snakes don't actually turn into anything other than snakes, so it's not really a transformation). I'm still finding my way, learning new ways to do stuff, finding my footing, or, rather, learning to function without any footing, in what might be compared metaphorically to a weightless environment... The awakening is only the beginning.
Well, e1b, seems we have some things in common (and I suspect we're near enough in age, too; I have adult children, too).
May the light surround you, may you be blessed. May the light surround us, may we be blessed. May love and light surround us all, and may we all be healed and blessed. And so it is, and so it shall be, now and ever after.
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