Well,I haven't seen W cat and T cat from first litter and T kitten from last litter has been a little sick and S kitten still missing. It's just all so strange and bizarre. I've been trying to keep my spirits up. W and T cat were the most loving of them all and T cat was such a success story having been one of the most afraid ones for months until we finally earned her trust and she would literally curl up in our arms instantly after that all the time and was just so loving and submissive to us,even following us to our cars,the garage,etc. it's very odd to have not seen them in the last few days. I have felt stressed and overwhelmed. I bit my lip in the middle of talking to hold back my tears about it earlier and started slowly crying thinking about it.
-valentines day chocolates
-art
-T kitten and how much he loves to cuddle with me
-getting M's husband to take me to the neighborhood to look for S kitten at 5:30 am
-coffee
-inspiration
-sleep
-feeling well rested today
-tension fading more with M. She caught me standing in the doorway this afternoon just standing there looking out. She was confused. I told her I was just looking for T cat. I was lost in thought about it. I think after a meltdown last night about other things,her and her husband have warmed up to trying a little more with me again. She took me to go for a walk today with her,then to her class and then to a bakery/cafe to pick up some sweets and then starbucks for coffee.
-the beautiful weather today. so warm. felt like summer.
-the beautiful night skies
-fashion
-my style
-my big wide eyes
-newness and the new changes i've been making and becoming
-L.E. The connection I feel with him. He seem to really get me and feels like my other half. It's so strange. I've never felt it this exact before. It's like what i've prayed and dreamed for. He says things that feel like me.i randomly decided to message him last night.i made sure it was not coming from a place of helplessness or feeling low and almost didn't do it,but decided i want to keep trying to break away from old rules i've had for myself
-organizing and throwing more things away
-yoga pants
-my new perfumes
-my heart chakra spray
-my bed
-M taking me to her yoga class and how great it was.i sweated a little bit and felt stronger and more capable doing the poses today
-a p.r sending me a beauty product i want
-all the paying jobs i have now confirmed for march which will make march another high earning month
-stomach exercises
-my stomach getting flatter and stronger
-seeing how cute it is H kitten warming up to me more and more
-having a kind heart
-being an interesting person
-having beautiful,wide young looking eyes
-my eyeglasses
-deciding to watch a movie online the other night
-my boss and how great she is
-watching the weird ways life unfolds and the mysteriousness of it all
-cuteness
-how beautiful my eye color is
-makeup
-chlorophyll
-my goals
-motivation
-apps on my phone
-masculine energy
-journaling
-happy thoughts
-music
-art
-being almost done with the article i've been working on
-being able to work in the industries i do
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