GRATITUDE LIST

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-R saying more crazy things like he thinks i'm like a soul mate.
-R saying all the time i'm his which is cute
-when R used a lint roller on my pants the other day. i remember those quirks of his and they are hilarious.
-R saying all these sweet things to me that make me feel good
-seeing R again he was there first at starbucks and insisted on paying for my coffee order. We ended up going back to his place which i didn't want to do. He tried to take a pic of me with his dog which is crazy. What if his fiancee sees that? We ended up kissing and hugging and me having my face in his neck and him saying thank you when we hugged which im not sure what that meant.
-R saying he wants to buy me sweets online and that it'll be a surprise.
-getting my big box of candy i ordered in the mail
-vegan burritos
-getting my new silver sneakers in the mail
-working tommorow
-my style
-fashion
-making up for all the jobs i lost
-exceeding my savings goal for the month which means next month will be easier
-getting my body scrub in the mail
-M buying me the k2 vitamins
-l kitten looking a lot better today and healthier
-cuddling with my cats
-M putting more money in my account
-using per diems to make my account a little healthier
-uber
-lorazapam
-iced hazelnut almond milk lattes
-sleep
-naps
-makeup
-my phone
-people to text
-physical exercise
-warm showers
-sunshine
-nightskies
-doing another challenge even on day i seen R. i took usual train but got off on a different stop just to get more comfortable with the trains
-getting a check in the mail today
-hot guys
-some kind of attractive guy kissing me on the head today at work
-music
-fun
-having a cool job
-beauty
-compliments
-models
-laughing at life
-nightskies
-updating my web portfolios a bit
-doing some reading
-meditating last night
-warm showers
-relaxation

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-feeling inspired to text R after his ignoring games
-herbs
-finding out sociopath ex who dropped me last year returned to not eating meat
-soup
-that i get to work tomorrow
-nourishment
-spices
-my phone
-getting all the cat houses in scaffold area and cat bedding cleaned
-l kitten feeling so much better and how beautiful she is
-cuddling with l kitten. she cuddles like a baby,putting herself circular in your arms and going really close to your face. it's adorable.
-water
-making my bed
-doing some practicing driving the other day
-my beauty
-reading more of the secret
-M making me umcka tea
-getting in a good workout tonight of the stairmaster and bodyworks class
-my bed
-blankets
-warm showers
-working the other day,and using a microphone.i was so nervous at first but then it was fun
-new work photos
-texting E for his number for his party this weekend
-my confetti dolci candy
-my silver sneakers
-gratitude
-getting more p cat flyers posted up
-the internet
-relaxing
-being productive today
-listening to my higher self and feeling some inner guidance
-M invited me to halloween store the other day and to starbucks
-makeup
-catching up on phone calls
-having a kind heart. had a cat follow my while hanging up a flyer for P the other day,just meowing and waiting for me. I tried to lead it to the yard for food but it didn't come all the way,just halfway. im guessing the cat got nervous.i asked neighbors out if they knew the cat. After i got back,i grabbed food to bring to the cat but couldn't find the cat.
-being sick forcing me to take it easy on myself and chill out
-newness
-that i won't have my time of the month by the time the party this weekend
-my psychiatric medications
-colors
-great deals
-positive mindset
-praise

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-opportunities
-positive possibilities
-being a positive person
-healing herbs
-vegan food
-nourishment
-being able to work yesterday and tomorrow
-music
-randomly hearing from my brother after over a year and that he is doing really well and has a great job where he gets to travel and is in miami right now. he sent me pics. very inspiring. made my day.
-posting more on social media lately
-coffee
-telling R how I feel and finally hearing something from him today after one text of sharing good news with him and another random topic i shared so two texts from him
-cuddling and playing with L kitten this morning
-beauty
-cats
-my new work pics
-my beauty
-my status
-remembering good times
-candy
-M's husband taking me to get female time of the products
-the sun shining today
-the cats doing well
-putting up another flyer for P cat today
-doing some googling last night and seeing some cheap apartments that aren't in my city's worst ghetto do exist
-ideas
-having a kind heart
-sleep
-finding a great deal for free startbucks $5 giftcard at dentist i am going to today when i bring in postcard they sent
-getting card in the mail im giving friend E this weekend and how cute it is
-kindness in others
-M's husband getting a new area for cats set up for the colder season
-inspiration
-supportive people
-someone from my second business i do sending in their materials
-that it's not raining today
-motivation
-taking things one day at a time
-being easy on myself
-my bed
-blankets

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-R being so amazing. I feel like i'm falling for him. He was so worried for me the night of the party and after we met and has been so chivalrous and sweet and like a best friend and everything. he's disappeared again the last thing he told me was he didn't think his dad was going to make it. I sent a few texts but am trying to give him his space since i know how he is. He bought me a staightening iron and helped me get ready via pics i sent back and forth and was just so sweet and there for me. He's changed so much. He's like the perfect guy for me now. It's crazy and weird because if this came full cycle it'd be ironic and very karmic seeming.
-clean teeth
-the halloween party i went to. so glad i got to wear my costume finally and see my friend E. It made me feel like life was back to normal.
-making new friends
-giving E the cute halloween pop up card i got for him
-nonjudgemental people.
-my phone
-people to text
-getting to celebrate halloween this year
-the weather being better today
-standing up to myself when two different people from work were rude to me in the last few days
-the doctor who said i have early stage of c cancer being very nice to me and saying we will reverse this
-kind people
-positive people
-high vibe people
-supportive people
-after S hurting my feelings,him resolving things with me sweetly and in a way that showed effort and being nice and there for me
-cuddling with L kitten. She's a sweetie. Pretty quiet and a cuddle addict
-getting two new collars for the cats
-feeling healthy again
-two different people making it sound like R and I might end up together
-my bed
-blankets
-drinking my aloe vera juice today
-coffee
-getting along better with M's husband lately
-getting two articles up on my 2nd business within the last few days
-all the people who help me out in my careers
-E texting me and inviting me to a concert today
-my digestion improving
-all the comments from M and her husband on how much weight i lost and that i look good and seeing it in pictures that i am looking like my old self
-makeup
-getting my new backpack in the mail
-hope
-music
-new experiences
-inspiration
-smiling
-being smart
-my beauty
-getting flirted with and asked out a lot
-doing some more reading of the secret today
-my creativity
-my kind heart
-putting up more flyers of P cat
-affirmations
-listening to my hypnosis audios today
-deciding not to go to work today so i can have a day to get my head together
-colors
-writing out some affirmations yesterday and today
-meeting new people all the time
-lorazapam
-becoming more self sufficient
-finding out im going to be another magazine
-getting an image back of myself i liked and putting it on social media
-updating work things with new images i have of myself from work
-deep cleansing breaths
-M's husband thinking of ways to keep the cats warm this winter
-my confidence growing
-being productive
-sunshine
-uber
-M's husband saying they're not planning on leaving me with nothing when i move out
-having nice curves

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-seeing my life coach yesterday
-that i can see my psychiatrist today
-vegan food
-getting a bale of straw for outdoor cats yesterday and setting it all up in the new winter housing area for them and them seeming to love the new setup
-R texting me yesterday morning and me telling him i meant what i said and feel. Then,after talking to life coach,sending him some texts last night coming clean on how i feel and being firm on some things. of course,now i feel awful,but looking back,i wasnt too harsh in original text and yesterday,all i really did was come clean even more. i hope we can get past this and feel like we will.
-fashion
-my cats
-staying strong through all the b.s that went on in the last few days
-bank being supportive and boss taking my side after being bullied by the jerk co-worker
-my new jeans
-compliments
-being asked out a lot
-sleep
-new friends
-my style
-buying a red skirt this morning since i couldn't find a black cocktail dress online i liked
-heels
-going to a job interview yesterday
-friendly and positive people
-my new mango lip balm
-getting M's sister's phone number
-blankets
-cuteness
-going with M's husband on a few errands he had to run the last few days to get out of the house
-writing down some for rent numbers i seen while biking riding the other day
-doing another anxiety challenge the other day and how much i am growing as a person
-my beauty
-finding out i will be in another magazine
-things working out for me
-M's husband taking my side the day ex best friend and gf came over,threw a fit and tried getting me kicked out again
-lorazapam
-colors
-my eyesight
-aloe vera water
-sweeping my floor yesterday
-practicing driving downtown the other day
-having a few days off to get my head together
-meditating the other night
-having more then $500 in savings now
-M's husband seeming to be more on my side lately
-the weight i lost and keep being told i lost weight my M and her husband
-art
-hope
-inspiration
-listening to my hypnosis audios
-being able to think for myself
-lifecoach saying maybe we can do a past life regression soon
-getting invited to a family dinner because of M's husband
-smiling
-working out the other day by going for a bike ride,then later doing stairmaster,and a toning bodyworks class
-just now passing an online practice driving test with no hints
-my credit card saying i have no minimum payments this month

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-getting the job at the christmas market
-all the weight i've lost
-my thigh gap
-doing my job today
-dreams coming true
-coffee
-bread
-eating less sugar these days
-my beauty
-my fashion style
-my life coach calling me and calming me down after feeling really down earlier
-going to kundalini yoga class
-the money i'm about to have coming
-drinking some pomegranate juice mixed with water to work on detoxing and holistic healing
-compliments
-cuddling with L kitten
-all the cute silly things the cats do
-that the cats seem to be doing ok with the weather
-M's husband deciding to buy another heated water bowl for them since we aren't sure current one is working
-sunshine
-sending more emails out for jobs
-being a nice person
-my beauty
-sleep
-blankets
-how great T cat looks in his sparkly gray collar
-not having to wake up early tomorrow
-growing as a person
-the heater in my room
-straw
-washing one of the cat beds
-getting P cat's flyer posted on an online neighborhood site
-all the weight i've lost and am losing
-makeup
-how much i'm growing as a person
-cleaning up a little today
-vegan food
-warm showers
-my phone
-my bed
-being productive
-updating my linkedin
-updating my resume
-emailing from business cards i got recently
-emailing people for 2nd business thing i do
-laughing
-band-aids
-taking life one day at a time
-eyeglasses
-writing out 3 pages of affirmations
-playing with the loa in my mind a little bit
-positive and inspiring quotes and ideas

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-staying positive
-happiness in moments
-parties
-invites
-my strength
-sleep
-soup
-bread
-doing my job today
-coffee
-warm showers
-straw
-nice memories to lean on
-my attractiveness
-all the weight i've lost
-that i'm going to be able to buy something i've wanted to buy for a long time now that's been a little dream of mine in a few days
-meditation
-prayer
-that my cats seem to be doing ok
-letting T cat wander around the house since his whining lately seems to be because i want him in the room with me and he wants to explore
-my pale pink backpack
-ideas
-the internet
-getting my recap for yesterday finished up
-entertainment
-trusting life,letting go,and surrender
-quiet
-rosemary oil
-incense
-leg warmers
-having a caring heart
-sanskrit mantras
-my mango lipbalm
-having nice hair
-having nice curves
-stretches
-taking my supplements
-blankets
-body moisturizer
-deep cleansing breaths
-parties
-invites
-nightskies
-light bulbs
-cats

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-that me and R are talking again. it feels so much better. i got mad when i found out my psycho ex best friend contacted my dad twice again last week. my dad ignored. so,i texted R saying i really miss him and we started talking things out a little and are going to meet for coffee tomorrow. i added him back to my fb.
-seeing girls with similar unique beauty to me in movies/modeling campaigns
-my bed
-my cats
-the money coming to me
-practicing driving today
-doing some reading
-coffee
-bread
-getting better with some things of goal manifesting and how great that feels
-deciding to watch a movie tonight
-listening to my hypnosis audios
-rosemary oil
-getting my room cleaned up
-my phone
-the weather being warmer today and feeling like spring
-seeing T mom cat curled up in her spot under the front porch winter housing we have for the cats looking very cozy. makes me happy
-social media
-my beauty
-my pink backpack
-yoga
-ashwagandha
-dental floss
-happiness
-trusting life
-things to look forward to
-goals

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-seeing R today
-kissing R today
-how loving R can be and his little quirks
-ashwagandha
-lavender
-spices
-marshmallow dream bar from starbucks
-gin gins
-coffee
-sunshine
-makeup
-my sense of style
-cheap uber rides
-sleep
-my new work pics
-writing out my affirmations today
-physical exercise
-yoga
-doing a little reading
-getting a start on an article for 2nd business thing i do
-organizing and cleaning out the pictures in my phone
-pictures
-my outdoor cats
-the weather being nicer today
-heels
-makeup
-lorazapam
-antidepressants
-being intelligent
-ibuprofen
-taking life one day at a time
-warm showers
-having a great body
-self compassion
-trusting life is looking out for me
-ordering a new custom decal for my affirmation wall
-kindness from others
-walking
-my bed
-how good it feels to be in a relationship/dating/involved
-smiling
-laughing

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-drinking my detox drinks
-getting my chemical peel today and how amazing my skin looked after my peel today
-being easy on myself since i feel weak today and it's that time of the month
-friendly people
-being kind
-listening to my hypnosis audios today
-taking things one day at a time
-physical exercise
-nourishment
-my cats
-the weather being warmer today
-social media
-herbs
-spices
-aloe vera
-blankets
-deep cleansing breaths
-seeing my affirmations at work
-bread
-coffee
-sleep
-fashion
-heels
-my style
-my beauty
-going to the bank today to get direct deposit forms
-lorazapam
-greenery
-colors
-studying a little bit tonight
-naps
-finding out charge i was disputing that i won and it's been cleared
-cuteness
-things that are interesting
-new life experiences
-smiling
-deep cleansing breaths
-working on article some more that i've started
-my confidence going up again
-having nice hair
-having a nice body
-compliments
-being productive
-opening my mind