GRATITUDE LIST

[buttercup]

-coffee
-vitamins
-how beautiful the snow is
-being myself
-people to talk to
-laughing
-m's husband being nice to me
-art
-music
-my retinol night cream
-earning money
-having healthy digestion
-having beautiful hair
-love
-cute things
-hot tea
-yoga
-colors
-cookies
-my phone
-beauty
-smiling
-my chinese herbs
-running into people i know that i've enjoyed
-comfort
-maturity
-shopping
-buying a new gucci belt
-saving money
-my feminity
-nourishing my spirit
-feeling so much better on my lorazapam
-plants
-flowers
-makeup
-my thermismooth session i got
-having a kind heart
-feeling my feelings and letting myself cry
-sleep
-masculine energy
-positivity
-inspiration
-great quotes

[buttercup]

-feeling my feelings
-getting a higher paycheck then i expected
-chocolates
-diet dr.pepper
-motivation
-appreciation
-kindness
-cleaning and organizing
-having a nice body
-having great cheekbones
-deep cleansing breaths
-getting my new gucci belt in the mail
-new clothes
-newness
-realizations
-processing
-my feminity
-self improvement
-having nice teeth
-my thinness
-yoga
-having a nice lower body
-coffee
-talking to J on the phone a few times yesterday
-getting a massage yesterday
-having jobs to work
-goals
-having nice, thick hair that is beautifully colored
-cuteness
-cute ideas
-blankets
-lorazapam
-getting an updated selfie of J so i can see what he looks like now
-sweaters
-laughing
-humor
-having healthy digestion
-water
-finding out about my breast ultrasound date
-greenery

[buttercup]

-hot tea
-lavender
-coffee
-cash app
-new experiences
-job opportunities
-M possibly taking me shopping tomorrow
-my lorazapam
-my appetite shrinking again
-naps
-crying and feeling my feelings
-expressing myself
-water
-meditation
-spiritual nourishment
-cute pictures
-posting on social media
-a possible new guy who might like me that i might like
-feeling more body confident
-credit score going up
-cookies
-m's husband taking me out to dinner last night and the place being a nice place
-my bear hat
-relaxation
-organization and decluttering
-music
-smiling
-having nice hair
-great skincare products
-coffee flavored whiskey
-chocolates
-art
-support
-beauty
-improvement
-my new gucci belt
-warm showers
-healthy digestion
-entertainment
-newness
-stretches
-yoga
-dance
-my accomplishments
-nightskies
-self reflection
-looking much younger then my age
-deep cleansing breaths
-calmness
-quieting the mind
-my femininity
-being more productive

[buttercup]

-cash app
-having money
-my creativity
-my fashion sense
-coffee
-M taking me shopping and the cool new things i got today
-J admitting at least once, maybe twice that he does love me
-M's husband taking me to all my spots to finish up work stuff i had to do
-M taking me to pick up some household essentials
-getting my bedroom nice and organized and decluttered
-feeling happy
-cookies
-being smart
-comfort
-sleep
-eyesight
-having a kind heart
-chakra incenses
-goals
-nourishing my spirit
-my credit score increasing
-my beauty improving
-nice warm showers
-the internet
-my phone
-my lorazapam
-my apartment
-makeup
-compliments
-music
-surrender
-making others smile
-colors
-buying the cool silver jaguar necklace for myself last night
-buying gifts for others
-self- acceptance
-apple cider vinegar

[buttercup]

-my friend D getting his gift
-coffee
-ashwagandha
-sleep
-getting a pedicure yesterday
-feeling more comfortable in my body
-getting a ride yesterday to my pedicure and spending some time with M's husband
-the internet
-sending a pretty card to one of my agencies and my landlord
-meditation
-J saying some nice and thoughtful and genuine things last night and agreeing to see me on his next sunday off
-sending M's friend christmas candies from my favorite candy boutique
-my new coat
-fashion
-style
-hot guys
J liking me sending him provocative pictures and saying that that's ok
-cookies
-lorazapam
-paying off my saks card
-getting my body tightening and smoothing sessions done
-reorganziing and decluttering my room
-sweaters
-sunshine
-deciding to start taking lysine as a supplement
-picking up some jobs for tomorrow
-drinking my carrot juice today
-doing journaling last night
-finishing up my recaps
-being communicative
-motivation
-my phone
-physical exercise
-my fitness pole
-water
-smiling
-detrmination
-letting myself cry and feel my feelings
-J saying he is mentally confused on the phone and that to give him time he is trying
-touch
-having healthy digestion
-how much i've grown as a person in the last year and last few years
-having beautiful breasts
-having beautful hair
-having beautiful eyes
-sportsbras
-my apartment
-having jobs coming up
-my femininity
-when J is nice to me
-having dreams
-skipping dinner last night
-blankets
-having a nice large balcony window to look out of
-having nice lips

[buttercup]

-phone calls
-crying
-having extra money in my checking account today
-realizing once one one of my checks comes,i'll have plenty of money to finance some things i've been saving up for
-sleep
-coffee
-cookies
-my looks having improved over time
-having work today
-colors
-sweaters
-physical exercise
-my fitness pole
-my flexibility
-my venus dimples
-having a baby face
-having nice hair
-my lips being bigger now
-fashion
-my bed
-my balcony window
-getting some cleaning done yesterday
-sweaters
-uber discounts for the next few days or so
-having an interesting life
-lorazapam
-makeup
-thinness
-the makeup artist i wanted confirming interest in an upcoming project
-smiling
-blankets
-goals
-happy memories
-having nice eyes
-deciding to try lysine as a supplement
-my crown chakra spray
-my eyesight

[CFTraveler]

Thank you for this breath of fresh air, buttercup.

[buttercup]

-iced lattes
-diet dr.pepper
-hot tea
-getting to my doctor appt today
-M's husband picking me up from my doctor appt and giving me money to buy some donuts at the bakery nearby home
-the internet
-entetainment
-paying off my saks bill more and more
-making a new self hypnosis audio
-the girl i worked with being fun and inspiring yesterday
-buying a new relationship book recommended by the girl i worked with yesterday
-great uber deals
-reading
-makeup
-lip gloss
-my beauty
-my gucci belt
-having J just where i want him now, after a phone call today. I think i almost got him back to where i've been wanting him.
-compliments
-sunshine
-warmth
-my fitness pole
-my phone
-lorazapam
-making an appointment for my next round of lip injections
-finding out some checks are being mailed out to me
-confirming more jobs for december
-seeing i was paid for something i did job wise in november
-starting lysine as a supplement
-the whites of my eyes looking very white
-yoga
-socks
-my new coat
-sweets
-having J as a friend
-tastebuds
-securing a makeup artist for a project coming up
-my accomplishments
-updating my resume
-great talks with J and seeing how he knows parts of me i didn't know he knows that even i don't know
-how paternal J is
-cleaning and de-cluttering
-sleep
-motivation
-humor
-dental floss
-music
-being unique
-my leoppard print coat
-getting discounts because products i ordered got delayed
-deep cleansing breaths

[buttercup]

-coffee
-sweet treats
-getting work done
-J finally responding to me
-my new gray yoga pants
-newness
-my career
-smiling
-incense
-having money
-being productive
-sleep
-sportsbras
-my creativity
-getting things done
-finding out things M's husband has done to bond with the cats more and help them out more
-kindness from others
-newness
-lip injections
-technology
-goals
-cleaning and decluttering and organizing
-spirituality
-inspiration
-mixing things up
-entertainment
-blankets
-sleep
-dance
-physical exercise
-phone calls
-help
-finding out my lorazapam is due soon

[GMAN12]

I'm grateful for nature itself and yet I don't see it very often.