IA´s dream diary....

[Antares]

In last night dream was interesting...in the dream I had bean put on sick leave by my doctor and I had only to call the doctor and he extended it...but this time it came back and no extended certificate...so I called for an appontment...and when I arrive to the doctors office I see it is a new doctor a female doctor...and I go...ahaa now I understand...you do not know me...exatctly she said...and we started to know each others and as time passed by she was asking me for advice??

In this episode I was in sleep paralycis and I felt something comming up into my bed...it was nearly impossible for me to wake up from this dream...but what made me very happy was that I was aware what was happening in the room around me...I saw haging in the air items of all kind...so I now knew I was back into the dream....and I tried one thing I never had tried...I pointed with my pointing finger and sended a beam of light...and it did hit the item and it go...poooof........any thoughts??

Why do you have so many dreams about doctors?

Anyway. The first one is simple: you are your own healer, so that doctors could learn from you! You need to believe in your skills and what you know.

Second, the light experience: excellent. Develop your energy skills. You may achieve a lot with your parapsychic abilities.

[IA56]

Why do you have so many dreams about doctors?

Anyway. The first one is simple: you are your own healer, so that doctors could learn from you! You need to believe in your skills and what you know.

Second, the light experience: excellent. Develop your energy skills. You may achieve a lot with your parapsychic abilities.

Frankly I do not know...maybe it is why I got same dreams over and over again...until it sinks in and I get it....it is why I ask you all that maybe I get some ideas to think further ....and in the end get it.
I am like an imbecill when it comes to my so called skills....it is also one area what I do not get or have hard to understand what to have these so called skills for....??

[Antares]

IMHO part of the skills and, actually, natural abilities problem today is the time of raising when you were a child. People do not think in terms of having natural abilities; they were taught about terms (words, language), which do not take into account more, well, abstract nature of the mind. So in this sense, we are all 'imbecyls'.

Discovery needs, well, discovering. Do not put pressure on yourself; it is an excellent excersise to try out and have fun from it.

[IA56]

IMHO part of the skills and, actually, natural abilities problem today is the time of raising when you were a child. People do not think in terms of having natural abilities; they were taught about terms (words, language), which do not take into account more, well, abstract nature of the mind. So in this sense, we are all 'imbecyls'.

Discovery needs, well, discovering. Do not put pressure on yourself; it is an excellent excersise to try out and have fun from it.

Oki do dear Capitain

[IA56]

In last night dream there was a girl crying....I went over to her to console her...and she called her sensitivity for an illness....so I said it is not an illness to be sensitive it is an feeling condition and it is the finest condition you can have....

Here I got answere to why I have felt ill all my life...it is because of my sensitivity ...it was not allowed in my childhood....I learned to shut down my feelings....and when I had learned this...my mother called me cold and without feelings...so I have now got the last answere what I have seeked....thank you Antarest for asking why I always dream about doctors...it is because I have seeked the answere to why I have felt ill all my life...and here is the answere...I am very happy and content...you helped me by assisting with your energy by interacting or just by writing to me...thanks.

[Antares]

You're welcome.

[IA56]

In last night dreams I am back to the doctors dreams...In this dream I am in a laborotory of somekind....I have a friend with me and she is very upset about the hars treatment they give me and do not at all listen to me and my friend do see that I am getting wors and wors...so she tells me to tell the doctor that it is too hars the treatment...the doctor listens and asks me to stand up...and (it is difficult for me to tell if the doctor is a male or female so I just say doctor) the doctor assistent gives me my spectacles and the doctor tell me to be very causes of my eyes because they do not have any eye doctor..and I feel that they only take care of the physical wellbeing....the doctor hold me up from my waist with his arm...and he starts to run and offcourse I crumble after few steps and I start to cry loudly....it is so hard for me to continue to be in the dream so I wake up myself.....(this dream are refering to the 6 months blackout what I have in my life from the big beating of me and my son in the 1980-81) ...I am a bit afraid to see how bad it was....but I believe it is unavoidable as I always want to know the truth....

[IA56]

The last nights has bean so draining...and I can not even tell what the dreams contentet....only that I am totally exhausted...and the only thing I remember or can say clearly was me shouting....I did not concent...over and over again....I did not concent....

[IA56]

I am back to the feeling I have not slept at all...but I think it is dreams about that I am awake...and when I wake up in the morning my physical eyes hurt and I have difficulty to see....I have to look with one eye closed....and I am very dizzy and have difficulty to stand straight and I have to hold on to walls when I walk to keep me not falling over?? strange....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was shown myself...like I was 2...the part of me who wanted to show me to myself was how much my hair have grown...I was surprised to see it was so much...the growth of my hair...(I find this very diffucult to put in words, do this make any sense??)