GRATITUDE LIST

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-my anxiety med i switched to, klonopin
-my therapist affirming it's ok to assert myself with psycho tenant just like M's husband and tenant organizer said
-pillows
-blankets
-my unemployment automatically extending
-fashion
-joggers
-dancing
-movement
-feeling my feelings
-getting a credit to my account
-great skincare products
-getting my botox and latisse appt made
-sleep
-my beauty
-hyaluronic acid
-lemon pie and lemon bars
-drinking water
-getting stuff for free
-boosting my twitter count
-all the jobs confirmed for this month and my job confirmed on the 14th
-developing and working my muscles
-going for a 3 mile walk yesterday
-showering
-feeling my feelings
-touching up my hair colors
-M's husband taking care of the cats
-prayer
-ipl facials
-innovation
-my acupressure mat
-surrender
-thinking positive
-great deals
-looking like a model
-beauty
-moisturizers
-compliments
-socks
-music
-art
-humor
-reflection
-hair-ties
-learning
-growing as a person
-having great taste
-having a kind heart
-becoming more resilient
-having goals
-being smart
-being able to think for myself
-my creativity
-animal advocates and activists
-those who help to make the world a better place
-calmness
-rest

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-stain removers
-having l cat here again
-getting b cat to the vet again and getting him on meds he likes
-cuteness
-W cat healing
-botox and getting a touch up done the other day and how amazing it looks. how smooth my forehead is.
-trying out latisse now
-physical exercise
-my new fascia roller
-showering
-coffee
-drinking more water
-seeing D's car tonight
-music
-fashion
-how great my hair color looks
-banana bread
-self compassion
-reflection and learning more about myself
-having a loving heart
-sleep
-cat cuddles
-compliments
-ibuprofen
-klonopin
-ipl facials
-evolving as a person
-feeling ambitious lately
-my beauty
-having a nice chest
-great skincare products
-making a new self hypnosis audio last night
-great design
-hair ties
-entertainment
-my jobs coming up
-prayer
-utilizing a to-do list
-inspiration
-ideas
-hyaluronic acid
-apple cider vinegar
-holistic and homeopathic healing
-deluttering
-my creativity
-makeup
-joggers
-taking the garbage out
-pictures
-becoming stronger
-staying motivated
-moisturizers

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-updating career things
-my job on sunday going very well
-looking like a model
-my beauty
-compliments
-being considered attractive
-people thinking my lips look big and full
-having great cheekbones
-people liking my new look and feeling like i look more exotic with it
-seeing my new hair color photographed professionally
-having big eyes
-seeing my hair pin straight blow out looking and how great it looked
-barq's root beer
-mobile photo editing apps
-socks
-having l cat here
-kind people and getting rental assistance
-my benzodiazepines which help me calm down
-getting back to me a little
-slippers
-joggers
-my tunic hoodie dress that says rad milano on it
-the cute dainty chortle sounds l cat makes
-sleep
-coffee
-great lighting
-having a baby face
-baby wipes
-showering
-great hair products
-botox
-doing a little reading today
-getting a little work again lately
-trying out latisse
-prayer
-gratitude
-surrender
-moisturizers
-hair ties
-self compassion
-mopping the dining room floor
-my acupressure mat
-fashion
-beauty
-yoga
-apple cider vinegar
-hyaluronic acid
-having a great personality
-having a sense of humor
-soul connections
-love
-physical exercise
-yoga
-setting goals for myself
-great causes
-animal advocates and animal activists
-heat warming moments
-my sense of style
-tissue salts
-decluttering
-blankets
-banana bread
-being smart
-being authentic
-my creativity

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-my strength and resilency
-compassion for self
-pillows
-blankets
-doing a nice journaling session tonight
-M's husband coming by to check out some things in my apartment and L cat being happy to see him
-L cat being here
-fashion
-makeup
-botox
-doing latisse
-drinking water
-barq's root beer
-yoga
-hyaluronic acid
-finding out what happened to my late packages
-slippers
-joggers
-kindness
-surrender
-band-aids
-cuteness
-prayer
-growing as a person
-my pills to calm me down
-my hair color
-compliments and support from others
-cleaning and decluttering
-having a caring heart
-having beautiful eyes
-sleep
-animal activists, animal advocates, and heroes for animals
-moisturizers
-cleaning products
-working to better myself
-my new phone charger working great.
-ideas

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-taking extra benzos
-starbucks
-going to the gym today
-beautiful things
-new social media posts to make
-art
-music
-yoga
-telling D my feelings again and just feeling my feelings
-water
-getting my beautiful gold dipped green rose the other day
-botox
-the latisse seeming to show up already
-inspirattion
-fashion
-how well l cat is doing being a house cat
-becoming better at being assertive in ways i needed to work on
-prayer
-beauty
-compliments
-the sound of the outdoors when the window is open
-animal lovers, animal activists, and animal heroes
-heart-warming stories
-people who choose to be a light in the world
-love
-romance
-poems
-cleaning products
-poems
-attractive people
-baby wipes
-moisturizers
-hyaluronic acid
-photo editing apps
-glycolic acid
-reflection and healing
-learning
-slippers
-kindness
-vegan food
-my power
-my intelligence
-my new internship
-compassion
-ideas
-my heart's desires
-surrender

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-self compassion
-benzos
-letting go
-sleep
-a nice meditation on the balcony tonight
-D still bringing my mail up for me
-water
-cleaning products
-l cat being here and doing well as a house cat
-fashion
-botox
-sleeping masks
-coffee
-the latisse starting to show up
-hairties
-cleaning and de-cluttering
-prayer
-reassurances
-seeing finished photos from my job the other day
-great affirming or funny or inspiring things online to share, or post or just look at
-humor
-vegan food
-my balenciaga socks
-the weather being warmer today
-cuteness
-talking with others and learning
-delivery services
-lint rollers
-slippers
-art
-inspiration
-great design and packaging
-compliments
-blankets
-pillows
-peaceful sounds
-beauty
-my beauty
-newness
-updating my resume and social medias and website a little bit
-getting an appt made for my lips.

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-cbd cookies i had tonight
-water
-trying to make an effort to piece my life together
-the breeze and sound when the balcony window is open
-starbucks
-latisse
-botox
-my hair color
-great skincare products
-sleep
-moisturizers
-going to yoga class tonight
-benzos
-getting free stuff
-showering
-slippers
-my beauty
-laughing and humor
-sunshine
-my ambition
-being productive
-baby wipes
-fashion
-my cute dollar signs barette
-hot guys flirting with me
-healthy digestion
-l cat being here and the cute sounds she makes
-entertainment
-newness
-reflection
-evolving as a person and healing
-compassion
-healing
-animal activists, animal heroes, and animal advocates
-de-cluttering and cleaning
-prayer
-being smart
-kindness
-my talents and accomplishments
-my goals and desires
-music

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-tissues
-tissue salts
-baby wipes
-cleaning wipes
-vitamins
-water
-benzos
-botox
-healthy digestion
-prayer
-moisturizers
-naps
-humor
-having an interesting personality
-fashion
-free stuff
-yoga
-having great style
-content to update my social medias and website
-getting a first draft done on an article with my internship
-an attractive guy at whole foods helping me flirting with me and calling me sparkles because of my shoes
-cats
-compliments
-being considered attractive
-buying new makeup today
-being productive and starting more planning for a business trip
-starbucks
-seeing my feral cats today
-being smart
-having a kind
-evolving and growing as a person
-having nice glowy skin
-makeup
-great beauty products
-feeling ambitious
-affirmations
-ideas
-newness
-my beautiful gold dipped green rose
-those delicious and somehow relaxing cbd cookies i had last night
-leggings
-my fendi socks
-slippers
-doing research
-being able to think for myself
-surrender
-my acupressure mat
-hyaluronic acid
-blankets
-having a bit of an activist in me
-pillows
-decluttering and cleaning
-surrender
-reflecting on ways to grow and heal more
-towels

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-apple cider vinegar
-tissue salts
-vitamins
-sleep
-ibuprofen
-benzos
-sending mullein and echincea to H cat
-hair ties
-my gua shua stone
-new social media posts and how great i've gotten at mobile phone editing and product pics
-seeing a sign D may have been keeping an eye on me
-hot guys
-new work pictures
-being productive
-blankets
-sleeping without clothing on
-my acupressure mat
-botox
-cleaning and decluttering
-listening to some third eye chakra music tonight
-botox
-starbucks
-vegan food
-water
-fashion
-deodorant
-baby wipes
-lysol wipes
-hyaluronic acid
-being kind
-being assertive
-glycolic acid
-meditating on the balcony today
-sunshine
-ideas
-getting a 2nd draft done for the organization i'm working for
-updating all my online platforms
-great skincare products
-makeup
-my hair color
-compliments
-doing laundry
-taking out the trash
-being able to laugh at myself and at life
-having goals and desires
-evolving as a person
-self compassion
-new ways of thinking
-my new incense holder i got the other day
-lighting
-slippers
-laughing
-blankets
-pillows
-prayer
-having a caring heart
-relaxation
-my beautiful green rose
-newness
-latisse
-having so many of my dreams come true
-pleasant memories
-prayer
-my laptop
-my phone
-activists for animals and other causes that make the world a better place
-kindness
-my new yoga mat that came in the mail today

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-benzos
-not ordering out today
-d and i having our first awkward interaction yesterday, and accidental running into each other since we first got together ,besides the time he waited to say hi to me and i walked past him without a word for having been ignoring my texts. My guess is, since i was waiting longer then expected, he didn't expect to see me. I looked behind me, and seen his face looking at me through the window door and then i moved to make space for him, and he said hello to me with the most F-you face ever. He had never looked at me like that before. And, I responded and said hello and for some reason had a smug look on my face. i'm grateful we had some kind of interaction even though it hurt and that at least it shows he has feelings. From his eyes through the door, to the anger when he said hi, there was no indifference there.
-ginger
-healthy digestion
-baby wipes
-slippers
-getting paid
-cleaning and de-cluttering
-makeup
-new work photos
-feeling like i look more exotic with appearance changes i made including my hair color
-fashion
-botox
-buying a ticket out of town for a short trip
-hyaluronic acid
-yoga
-using my fascia roller on my stomach today
-sleeping without clothes on
-my acupressure mat
-blankets
-slippers
-pillows
-wearing mascara yesterday and seeing that latisse is definitely taking on a little bit of an effect
-meditating on the balcony today
-hope
-feeling my feelings
-ideas
-being smart
-cuteness
-sex
-healing
-prayer
-colors
-art
-having nice lips
-deodorant
-having nice eyes
-learning
-evolving as a person
-water
-having talents
-beauty